My alarm went off and I jumped awake. Ty was gone and I was under my covers naked. Everything that happened last night hit me at once. I started to cry. I didn't do anything to stop Ty when I think deep down I wanted to. Everything was just so fucked up right now. I can't go to school. It's too much for me. I put on some pajamas and went down stairs to fake sick. I didn't see dad or Haley around anywhere so I figured they left early. I decided I was going to go to the park instead.

I put on a pair of pants and my boots with an oversized sweater then a winter coat. I head out the door slowly making sure Aiden's car drove by first before I started walking. As soon as I saw his car I walked the three miles to the park. The snow was thin and the roads were all salted so walking wasn't bad.

As soon as I got to the park I went on the swings. The park was empty because it was Monday so it was very peaceful. The lake was frozen, which looked beautiful. I was swinging slowly and thinking. I tilted my head back and swung faster looking up at the sky. I got really high and decided to jump. I jumped off the swing landing on my feet but lost balance and fell. I just laid on the cold ground for a while looking at the cloudy sky.

I knew it was going to snow soon. I could feel the temperature dropping and the clouds were getting darker. I knew I should probably go home but I was too upset to face Ty and I can't go to Aiden's house because I'm to ashamed of last night. Tears start coming out of my eyes. I wiped them away before my eyelashes froze or something. I got up and started walking home.

I looked at my phone and it said that it was noon. Walking here took a little over an hour so I spent a few hours at the park itself. I took my time walking home. I walked slowly and just thought.

I thought about how my life had gotten so much more complicated than it already was. I almost wished I had died but then I'd be stuck in that house like everyone else. I stopped half way home. I turned around and went straight back to the park because I realized I dropped my phone.

When I got to the park I saw my phone on the ground I picked it up and started walking back but then the lake caught my eye. I walk towards the lake. I stepped carefully on it then started walking out. I just kept walking.

"HEY WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"

The yelling startled me and turned around to see who it was but I turned to fast and fell. The ice cracked and soon I was under water. The water was so cold and I could feel my legs going numb. I didn't feel cold anymore. I thought I was going to die and I felt ok with it but then someone grabbed me out of the water and I felt cold again. I could feel that my lips were blue. My body was shaking violently. I didn't see who grabbed me but they were holding me now and running with my body. They laid me in a back seat of a car and put the heat on full blast.

Who ever it was that saved me took off my wet sweater and pants. I was in my underwear but then was bundled up in blankets. I started feeling my toes and fingers again after a while. I felt exhausted from shivering so much.

"Do you need to go to the hospital?"

All I could say before I passed out is "No".

Next thing I knew I jumped up forgetting where I was. The person was turned to the front so I didn't see you it was. The figure slowly turned around and I see Aiden. I look around and feel stupid. I should have recognized the car.

"Aiden what? You? Wait what? How? You were suppose to be at.."

"School. Yes well I got there and you weren't there so after lunch I decided to ditch and I am glad I did. I went to the park thinking maybe you'd be there and I was right except I saw your dumbass walking on the lake. How could you be so STUPID?!"

"Don't yell at me jeez."

"I WILL YELL AT YOU! DO YOU HAVE DEATH WISH?!"

I didn't say anything because I felt like it was partly true. He stared at me and I looked away. Aiden climbs to the back seat. He picks up my head and sits then places my head on his lap.

"Vee I wish you'd realize even though I haven't know you very long I care about you. It would kill me if you left this world. I almost lost you twice and It hurts me so much to see you suffer. You may not think you're hurting anyone else but yourself but you're wrong. I don't care what you say your dad cares for you and so do I."

I just lay there listening to him try to tell me how much my life meant to him. I felt sick because even if we weren't dating I slept with Ty. I just feel like a terrible person and that I am worthless. The world would go on without me, so why bother?

"Vee stop crying. I am always here if you need to talk."

Aiden wipes my face. I didn't realize I was crying. I am a mess.

"You would hate me if I told you though." I say not able to stare at him in the eyes.

"Vee just say it."

"I can't.."

"I can tell its eating at you so just say it!"

"I slept with Ty the night after I slept with you."

He was silent for a while.

"Ty? The guy that was in your house the night you overdosed? Who is he?"

"He was the first guy I met when I moved here. He just always is around."

"How? Why? You had sex with him the day after we did?!" He looked mad.

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to tell you. I feel sick about it. I didn't want to but it just happened."

Aiden got up and moved back to the drivers seat. He started to drive. We stopped in front of my house. He turned off his car and got out. He opened the back door and helped me out. He grabbed my wet clothes and we walked into my house without a word.

I got up to my room and grabbed some dry clothes then went to the bathroom and took a long hot shower. It felt great to be warm again. I got dressed and went to my room expecting Aiden to be gone but he was lying on my bed playing with his phone.

"You're still here?"

"Yeah. I've been thinking about it and I guess since we weren't technically together it isn't cheating so I forgive you."

"Oh um thanks?"

I sit on the other side of the bed. It was awkward silence for a while. I laid next to him on the bed and stared at the ceiling. It was so quite until the door came swinging open. I jumped up and see an angry Ty.

"YOU ASS!"

Aiden jumps up. Ty comes running towards him. Before Aiden has time to react Ty punches him in the face. Ty grabs Aiden by the collar and gets him up to his feet.

"You took advantage of her." Ty said.

Aiden punches Ty sending Ty back a little.

"No you took advantage of her. She was mine first and you had to have her so you did whatever you could."

They keep punching each other and arguing.

"YOU HAD SEX WITH HER RIGHT AFTER SHE ALMOST DIED! SHE WAS VULNERABLE!" Ty screams at Aiden while kicking him to the floor.

"YOU HAD SEX WITH HER THE NEXT FUCKING DAY AFTER WE DID." Aiden say kicking Ty under his feet so he could fall while Aiden jumped up.

"SHUT UP BOTH OF YOU." I scream but they both ignore me and keep fighting.

"YOU JERK! YOU AREN'T EVEN THINKING OF WHAT VEE WANTS!" Says Aiden punching Ty hard in the gut.

"ALL YOU THINK ABOUT IS GETTING WITH HER!" Says Ty lunging at Aiden.

"FOR FUCKS SAKE STOP IT." I say putting my body in-between them. They stop.

"Listen up both of you. Ty for the millionth time Aiden didn't take advantage of me. Aiden I have feels for both of you but Sleeping with Ty right after sleeping with you was a mistake. I told you Ty not to do this and you didn't listen to me."

"I was just giving this piece of shit what he deserves."

"What I deserve?! You're kidding me right? You treat Vee like shit. You only care for yourself."

"BOTH OF YOU SHUT UP. Ty since you didn't listen to me you should leave."

"I should leave? WHAT? Are you fucking kidding me?!"

"NO! Now go! You should have fucking listened to me."

Ty storms out slamming the door behind him. Well I just pissed off a ghost that has ghost friends that are pretty fucking scary and since I don't want Aiden in the middle of this I grab dry boots and a jacket.

"We should go to your place. I mean if you want me to come over if not then you should leave."

"No come over. You'll probably be safer from the crazy guy there anyways."

I hurry him out of the house and we quickly drive to his place. When we get inside we see his mom in the kitchen but she doesn't see us. We quickly go to his room so his mother doesn't see how badly beat up Aiden is. I didn't notice how bad it was till he took of his shirt and I really looked at him.

"Oh my god I am so sorry. This is all my fault."

"Listen don't worry about it. Ty's probably just as bad or even worse."

"Yeah but still if it weren't for me you'd be fine."
"It's just some cuts and bruises. Makes me look tough doesn't it." He says smiling but then covers his mouth with his hand because of a cut on his lip.

"Do you want me to ask your mom for some ice?"

"Yeah I guess that would be a good idea."

I walk out to the kitchen and smile at Aiden's mom.

"Hi Ma'am do you think you could get me some ice. I fell in the snow earlier and bruised my stomach."

I lift up part of my shirt and show her my bruise that is kind of fading but still there.

"Oh deer that looks painful. Just give me a sec." she goes to the freezer and puts some ice in a ziploc bag then puts a towel over it.

"Here you go darling. I have some cut up fruit if you'd like to take into Aiden's room."

"Sure thank you." I say giving her a thank you smile then returning to Aiden's room.

I walk into Aiden's room and see him butt naked. I put the fruit and ice down quickly and cover my eyes.

"Oh my god I'm sorry I didn't mean to walk in on you naked. You should have warned me!"

"Vee chill. Not like you haven't seen me before plus I thought I'd be dressed by the time you got back. I just decided to change into some comfy clothes and get out of the cold ones." He says putting on boxers then sweat pants.

"Ermm I guess that makes sense. Your mom gave us some cut up fruit and here is the ice."

He puts the ice on his lip.

"Crazy day." He says.

I take off my boots and sit on his bed Indian style. Aiden lies down behind me. He pulls me back on top of his chest and I relax into him.

"Can we just forget today happened." He says.

"Yes please."

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