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Let's Play Pretend Chapter 12: I hope you find it

I didn't go home right away. I ended up catching a Cab to Forks hoping that I would see Alice again. I really wanted to talk to her and I had a lot to talk to her about. Not only that but I didn't...I just didn't want to go home and have everyone question me again.

"They really don't understand you do they Natalie?" I bit my lip and stopped myself from smiling.

"Hi Derrick. What are you doing here?" He smiled and stepped beside me and started walking with me.

"I'm simply here to talk to you if you need be. Anything you want to talk about?" I thought for a bit and shook my head.

"Do you want to just walk and maybe talk if something comes up?" I nodded and Derrick smiled. We were walking in silence at first and his hand kept brushing up against mine leaving a cool feeling. I shyly stepped a bit to the right. I gave Derrick a strained smile and he looked away briefly.

"Can I ask you something? Derrick?" He nodded and I looked down and then back up into his blood red eyes.

"How could you have gone to La Push High without looking and acting like a vampire? Surely the guys would've smelled you and tried attacking you." He looked at me pained and sighed. He ran his fingers through his hair and looked down at me.

"Let's talk somewhere more private." I nodded and he grabbed my hand and led me over to a park. I sat down on a swing and he sat beside me.

"There's something I didn't tell you about my past. There were bad vampires that I was working for yes, but there were also some good ones. There was this one guy. My best friend, my vampire brother, we were inseparable and we trusted each other with our lives." Derrick looked like he was going to cry. If he could.

"He had a gift. He could take a vampire and hide their scent. He could change their appearance whenever he wanted. He could also do that to humans. That's what could make him so lethal. He could make humans go crazy. But he never chose too. But the vampires that he was working for, they wanted him to do that. To make them go crazy. They were going to, too." I put my hand on his shoulder as a sign that I was sorry. He smiled at me and then he frowned again.

"Before we were killed by hunters, he had found his soul mate, his singer. He got to spend an entire six months with her. He was going to change her because she wanted to be with him forever. Then he had gotten killed. She was so upset. She wanted to die. She begged to die. She begged me to kill her. The rest of us were getting killed. I took her and we ran for the forest. She begged me. I did it quickly. I quickly snapped her neck." Derrick looked at me and I started paling. I was his singer. He was attracted to my blood.

"Natalie, I've been...I've been trying to drink animal blood. I've heard of a clan of vampires near here. They drink animal blood. The Cullen's I think." I nodded and Derrick gave me a weird look.

"How do you know the Cullen's?" I sighed and started swinging. Derrick smiled at me and I started blushing.

"When you gave me the nightmares, Sam and Emily called Dr. Cullen to my house. He brought his daughter Alice with him the first time. Then the next time he brought Alice and his son Edward. Alice remembered I and we hung out once and I told her about the imprinting." Derrick nodded and I started slowing the swing down. Once it stopped me put his hand on top of mine and looked at me with an intense stare.

"Your friends with Alice?" I nodded and Derrick smiled at me. We spent the whole afternoon on the swings laughing, and joking around.

I got back to the house around 6. I walked in and saw the guys pacing back and forth. But when I walked in, they all stopped and looked at me. Embry ran over to me and he picked me up and spun me around, then put me down and held me out at arm's length. He scrunched up his nose and it looked like he was going to sick.

"Why were you with a leech?!" I ignored him and I stepped by him and went upstairs. I quickly had a shower and scrubbed my skin with some body scrub to get rid of the smell. I got out and quickly changed into jeans and a sweater. I walked into my room and sat down on the bed.

Not even two minutes after, my door was opened and three FURIOUS werewolves stepped in. I looked at them in a confused way, and Jared threw my bottle of diet pills on the floor, shattering the bottle. My eyes widened and I looked up at Jared, Embry and Sam.

"How long did you think you could hide these for?!" Sam wasn't holding back any anger. He was just as furious as Jared and Embry.

"I...I didn't think you would find out!" Embry stepped out in front of Sam and his face changed from furious to concerned and devastated.

"Why Natie? Why? You're not fat, you're gorgeous. You're amazing. Why would you need those?" I didn't have a chance to answer Embry. Sam glared at me and he pushed Embry back.

"I am furious with you. Emily was worried sick about you and we didn't know what was wrong. Only to find out that you've been doing this to yourself?!" I winced and tried to say something but couldn't find the right words.

"I...well...I mean I can do what I want with my body. It's my body. If I want to take pills I can." Sam glared at me and he crossed his arms over his chest and it looked like he was trying to stop himself from phasing.

"From now on, you will be watched carefully. You WILL be escorted by someone at all times. The ONLY time that you don't need someone with you is when you are here. Do you understand?!" I nodded and Sam gave me one final glare before he turned around. Then he stopped rigid and turned around and came back over to me.

"You smell like leech. Who is he?" I guess the shower didn't help at all. I looked from Sam to Embry and Jared. Jared looked pissed off and Embry looked like he had just been kicked in the stomach.

"Who. Is. He?!" I looked up at Sam and started feeling wet cheeks. I was crying.

"H-his name is Derrick. He's my friend." Sam stood up and looked at Embry and Jared.

"You are never to see him again. You are grounded for the next month and a half." He then turned to Embry.

"You should've been watching where she was going like the others." He then walked out of the room followed by Jared. Embry looked down at me and I diverted my eyes.

"Natalie, talk to me." Embry sat down beside me. I scooted away from him and wrapped my arms around my knees and rested my head on my knees.

"Natalie, you don't need those. You'll never need those. Listen to me, you're beautiful. You're all I ever need and will ever need. I love you. I don't want you to change one thing about yourself because you're perfect the way you are now." I looked back at Embry and he stroked my cheek. I turned away and he withdrew his hand.

"Natalie, please. Sam wants you to be safe. I want you to be safe. I care about you because you're my soul mate. We belong together and we get to spend the rest of our lives together." I looked back at him and started crying again. His eyes held such love, and I could probably bet that mine held confusion.

"What if we were just meant to be friends? What if we were mean to be best friends and I was supposed to be with someone else?" Embry's face was blank. He stood up quickly and walked out slamming the door behind him. I looked out the window and saw him talking to Jared, Paul, Jacob and Sam. He was shaking. Was he about to phase? I thought so until I saw his face. He wasn't phasing. He was crying.

Part 2

It was two weeks later and I stayed away from Embry. I stayed in my room mostly. I stayed away from everyone. Nobody really wanted to talk to me anyway. Sam and Emily were extremely disappointed in me. I knew that everyone was. I didn't know what to do then. So I did what I thought was best. I called my sister. She said that she had dropped out of being a model. She had started college. She had moved into an average house and had gotten a good paying job. She had even gotten a boyfriend. She had gone through a complete change.

I explained to her what had happened and she said that she was disappointed in me because I had listened to her. She stayed on the phone with me for most of the night. I really appreciated that. I asked her if I could come and visit her. Just to get away. She asked her boyfriend if it was fine and he said that it was. I thanked her and told her that I would leave in the early morning two days from now. She agreed.

The night came and I was getting things ready. I got out some paper and some pens. I was going to write everyone explaining why I had to go. Why I had to do this.

Dear people, A.K.A Sam, Emily, Embry, Jared, Paul, Leah, Seth, Quil, Jacob, Kim (and if you want to show them) Carlisle, Bella, Alice and fam:

I hope you can understand why I am doing this. A lot had changed in the past couple of months. I came here nervous and scared. I met some fantastic people and got into some dangerous situations. But that's not why I'm writing this. I want you to know that this isn't your fault. So don't blame yourself. It's my decision.

Emily and Sam:

I think that I should go and stay with family and stop crowding your house. I know that you are pregnant Emily. I don't want you to be stressed or worried about anything. Especially me. I want you to have a nice, normal pregnancy. I find that Sam and you should have a family without a dysfunctional, walking blonde death attractor. I hope you can understand. Please believe me when I say that you guys have been amazingly wonderful to me.

Embry:

I know that you say that this imprinting thing is supposed to be whatever I need or what'll make me happy. Here's what will make me really happy: For you to find someone who will love you and not hurt you. I do love you Embry. I really do. But...I hurt you in the worst way. Please move on and fall for some cute brown haired girl. I'll be fine. Really.

Remember, you HAVE to do what will make me happy. And what will make me happy is if you move on. So please don't argue. Or try to find a way out of it.

As for the rest of you:

I'm sorry if I hurt you or made you mad. (Paul I know that you're glaring at the letter, wishing to strangle me). I love all of you guys and you guys will always be special to me. Leah don't let those stupid boys call you any names. Smack them for me if they do. Remember, girl power. Jared, I never really actually knew why you would always be there with Sam and Embry when I got hurt. I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually. Take care of Kim or else! Even though I don't really know the rest of you all that well, I wish I could've. I'm sorry for causing so much drama. I really am.

I should probably go now. I'll miss you all so much. Bye guys.

I finished the letter and wiped my tears away. I folded it up and looked at the other piece of paper. I placed it beside the letter. I sighed and got off of my bed. I zipped up my suitcase and sat it upright. I closed my eyes and blinked tears away. I grabbed my suitcase and walked out of my room singing the song I wrote for him.

I Hope You Find It

Verse 1:
These clouds are going nowhere baby, rain keeps coming down
I just thought I'd try to call you baby, for you've gone too far out of town
and I hope you that you get this message that I'm leaving for you
cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to

*Chorus*
And I hope you find it, what your looking for
and I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be, and so much more
and I hope your happy wherever you are
I wanted you to know that nothings gonna change that
and I hope you find it

Verse 2:
Am I supposed to hang around and wait forever,
last words that I said that I was nothing but a broken heart talking baby
you know that wasn't what I meant
Call me up, let me know that you got this message that I'm leaving for you
Cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to

*Chorus*
And I hope you find it, what your looking for
and I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be, and so much more
and I hope your happy wherever you are I wanted you to know that nothings gonna change that, and I hope you find it
Whatever it is, I know that you miss it here

*Chorus*
And I hope you find it, what your looking for
and I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be, and so much more
and I hope your happy wherever you are I wanted you to know that nothings gonna change that
no no no
And I hope you find it
I hope you find it

Authors Note:

This is NOT the end of the story. Unless if you want it to be. But so far as I've somewhat planned this isn't the end. Unless if you want it to be and then me write a sequel. Please let me know what you think! Thanks!