Ahh... Sexual frustration. Has to be the funniest thing I have ever written about! It was really fun, I may do it more often! You are here by warned. Not everyone likes to read what guys think about us girls xD

Copyrights on Jacob goes to Stephanie Meyer.

"What are you thinking about?" Erica asked, cocking her head to the side.

"Ehm nothing." I answered and noticed that Emma was coming back with drinks.

"Here you go." Emma said and gave me a big glass of water and Erica a smoothie.

"Thank you Emma." Erica said and smiled at her.

"You're welcome darling. The food is coming soon." She smiled and looked at us. I noticed she looked like Pixie when we had that cologne moment. Looking at us like we were a math-riddle she couldn't solve. We both nodded and she went away. I watched her walk away for a second before I looked at what Erica had gotten.

"Is that the usual?" I asked. I guessed it was some sort of strawberry-blueberry-watermelon mix because of the red color of it. And the glass itself wasn't small. It was big, maybe one liter or something.

"Yeah I don't like to chew food. It's kind of nasty. I do like ice cream tho. I think that's because I'm a woman" she laughed and drew circles in the smoothie with her straw. I laughed at her.

"Yeah, maybe. It has to be very cheap to eat out than." I commented. Me and Billy had never gone out to eat for real. It costs a lot and a pizza call is just easier. She laughed with me and her eyes sparkled. It made my heart race. I hoped she wasn't listening for it. iStupid! Why would she be listening for your heart?... Point taken.

"So… About those boyfriends." I started. I wanted to know one thing she hadn't told me. But it was very inappropriate to ask. She looked at me as I stared down in my water glass, as tho I was looking for the reason for life.

"What about them?" She asked curiously, curling her pink lips around the straw in the smoothie. Graphic images of her and me popped in my head like a flash movie. iI'd like to see you curls those lips around something else…/i Damn it! Stop Jake, this is wrong. I forced my mind to think of something else as I watched her.

"Well, ehm… I know I probably shouldn't ask. It's kind of private, especially for you." She pulled her eyebrows together for a moment before she almost choked on her smoothie. Despite the situation I couldn't keep from giggling at her reaction.

"Well... What to say?" She started, running her fingers through her hair nervously.

"You don't have to say anything more! It was a stupid to ask, I'm sorry." I fumbled, hoping she wouldn't get offended or mad at me. She didn't look offended tho, just curios.

"No, I can tell you." She took a deep breath. I steadied myself for what was coming.

"I have never really lovedsomeone. Since I moved alone I could never get myself to connect with anyone the way I wanted to. I feel the human part of me crave things, closeness and humbleness; while the other part forced me to hold for the right person. So when it came to that imoment/i, and believe me it came; a lot, I couldn't go through with it. It was like my body knew that I didn't love that person enough to give myself to him. It's kind of weird." She paused and took a deep shaky breath.

"But it did happen once tho." She sighted with a lump in her throat.

"I thought I loved him. I told myself every day for a year that I loved him. I fooled my body to think that. So it just happened. I think he was very needy about it. We'd been dating for about 1 ½ year and we hadn't done any other… things. I thought to myself that I have to love him and he has to love me when he was willing to wait so long for me to be ready for it."

"The morning after I felt horrible; like some part of me was ripped away from me with force. It wasn't what I expected it to be. I was expecting to feel complied and bliss. But the only thing I felt was a big hole in my stomach… and in my heart." She had a small pause to steady her voice.

"The first thing I did when he woke up was throw him out my door. After that I took a one hour long shower and cried. Then went to one of my friends and cried with her even more. As I said, it wasn't as I expected. But on the bright side it was good, my human side enjoyed it; even I liked it for a moment; but that morning killed me mentally. When I woke up; I felt so heartbroken. Like I was a 15 year old girl having her first breakup. I couldn't believed that I'd given the only thing that was holy about me to someone who didn't even bother to call me and ask if I was okay, if he did something wrong or something like that. He just left my house without protesting. Jackass." She sniffed, looking at her fingers, playing with something on her finger that still wasn't there.

"Everything was ruined because my human side craved it. And I can never take it back." She looked up at my face, her eyes blank with tears. I didn't know what to say.

"You don't have to say anything. You asked, I told you, now you know." Erica shook her head and looked at her fingers again. What was it with that hand that was so interesting? I looked at her. Her pain was like quicksilver in my veins, slowly killing me.

"I'm sorry it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to." I said. I wanted to touch her face and comfort her. Drag her close and whisper to her that everything would be okay, that no one would ever hurt her again. Not being able to reach over and touch her, to feel her perfect creamy skin or run my fingers through her hair was killing me.

"Thank you." She answered, quickly drying her eyes, not ruining her mascara once. "I would like not to talk about that now if that's okay." She said.

"Sure." I answered and took a drink of my water. She shook her head a little bit before she was happy and herself again. I didn't understand how she could jump between her emotions like that? It would have taken a normal person maybe half an hour to regain a normal state of mind, but it took her 5 seconds. Maybe it was cause she drinks blood and looks like a Godess.

"So do you want to know what I do since I haven't had sex for 10 years?" she grinned, teasing me and my fantasies. I was shocked and wanted to answer, but I couldn't form coherent sentences. iYES! Tell me please! In detail!/i She kept the smile in her cheeks as she sucked on the straw in her smoothie. I had just worked up the courage and right words to ask when Emma came back with my food.

"Her you go son. I hope you enjoy it." She smiled and watched me as I looked at the food. It did look good.

"It smells great." I said as an answer. And it did; it smelled really nice and it looked nice, I was half expecting I would get something cheep and gross since it was a diner.

"I'm glad. So what are you talking about then since Alex is smiling so brightly." Emma asked and put her hands on her hips. Erica hid her beautiful smile in one of her hands for a second before she answered.

"Sex." She answered, laughing at Emma. I was caught off guard by her sudden use of words. It sounded too sexy in her voice. Emma laughed back at Erica.

"Well I won't intrude anymore." She answered and walked off. Erica looked at me still smiling.

"That's what we're talking about right?" she asked, one of her eyebrows bridged. I looked puzzled at her for a moment before I looked down on my food and started eating.

"Yeah pretty much." I answered, trying not to seem touch by it. She smiled and looked at me as I ate.

So I know I'm dragging on the clubbing part, that's what we all want to read right? But I thought that I'd just write about her history and then have it done, so we know her a little bit better. But it's at lease this and 2 more parts before they club, sorry about that.