Previously:

"I'm sorry," I stood up, wiping my dry eyes. "I thought I could deal with this calmly but all I've done is cause problems. I'm just going to go home. I'm sorry I've imposed." Adrien stood up. I pushed him back down. "Stay Adrien. Have some fun. You need some guy time." I tried to find some sort of good thing in this happening. I couldn't even smile. The phrase I'd always heard seemed to be swatted away, Just smile and there's nothing you can't overcome. Not in this case at least.

"B,"

"Stay," I insisted. "I'm just gonna go do some shopping or something."

"I'll come with you next time Bella." Alice smiled.

"Sure," I sighed heavily, opening the door.

"See you soon Bella." I heard Emmett call. Stay together. I told myself. At least until I get home.

I wandered aimlessly, letting the cries of anger rip through my throat. I couldn't believe that after all these years HE had been lying. That he had said it was MY fault. I couldn't believe it. But why? Why did he do it? And now he was onto another human girl, who he would hurt just as much as he had hurt me. I would warn her…tell her before he could ruin her life like he had ruined mine. Even if it was the last thing I ever did…The poor girl, she reminded me of myself as a human. Vulnerable…weak…. uncomprehending. He probably told her that SHE was his true love and all that crap. I let out another sob. I wanted my husband here with me. He always knew what to do when I was feeling this way.

Maybe some shopping…maybe a good book. Going "home" wasn't really a choice now. My real home was in Massachusetts. This wasn't home. Even if it had been, so many years before. I walked, keeping my eyes on the ground, not paying attention to what was going on around me.

"Excuse me?" I looked up, startled, to see who had spoken. A sixteen year old girl stood in front of me. "What are you doing in my yard?" I noticed my surroundings and everything came flooding back.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. "I didn't know…" I stared at the back of the house. This was my house.

"Oh, it's okay" She said brightly. "Are you new here?" The girl seemed nice enough. Maybe I could make a friend while I was here. There was no way I would be hanging out with the Cullens.

"Yeah." I nodded, returning her smile. "I'm Bella McKaye." I brushed my messy hair out of the way.

"Oh," the girl sighed looking at my face. This was nothing new either. "I'm…Kristen Lories."

"Nice to meet you." I choked. Kristen probably I thought I was some freak or something. I didn't exactly look properly dressed, no matter how beautiful I could be.

"Um…would you like to…come inside?"

"Sure. I guess. If it's okay with your parents." I bit my bottom lip. I wasn't really in the chatty mood…but oh well.

"My parents are out of town right now, I'm staying with my sister, Nicole." My eyes narrowed, could it be the same Nicole? "You sort of look like her, now that I think of it." The girl blushed. "But you're a prettier version and you look more like a Cullen than she would. Even if she's close to becoming one." I coughed, as she led me towards the back door. Why was it always MY luck?

"Oh, you know the Cullens?" I murmured distractedly. Not much had changed since I'd last been here. Sure the furniture had been changed and the cabinets were freshly painted…but I could see the images of Charlie's house reflecting upon it.

"Of course." She said in a surprised tone. "Everyone knows the Cullens." She snarled the name. "The elusive, perfect Cullens. How do you know them? I thought you were new?"

"You could say they're sort of relatives." I gulped. This was the story wasn't it? "

When my boyfriend Adrien and I were living in Alaska we met them…he's actually pretty good friends with E-Edward." I managed to say the name, without breaking apart. NOW we were getting somewhere.

"I feel bad for you." I slipped into a chair, as Kirsten spoke. I stayed silent. "Not that there's anything wrong with them…but since Nicole started going out with Edward she's never at home. It's like she lives over there, instead of here. Every single day." She let out a sigh and rolled her eyes.

"Well, I guess…" I didn't know what to say. Adrien would laugh if he knew. I ALWAYS had something to say. "She…loves him."

"Psh." She rolled her eyes again. "You can't know "love" right when you first meet someone and have never had another boyfriend. I mean, it's pretty pathetic, she clings to him like a leech and he never let's her do anything. Something's always too "dangerous"."

I nodded my head in agreement. Where had I hear that before? Oh right…this was MY life she was talking about…or had been. "Anyway, Bella. Enough about my stupid sister. Where are you from?"

"Well…where to start?" I drummed my fingers on the mahogany table.

"Start at the beginning. You said something about Alaska too." Kirsten reminded me. God, this girl WAS smart. She would make a good friend. And even her scent didn't bother me.

"Okay, so…when I was 12 I was adopted by this lady who had a son. My parents had died in a car crash when I was 10 so I stayed in an orphanage for two years." A sharp intake of breath, across the table. " But then Caterina McKaye adopted me. She had a son, Adrien. She was the sweetest "mother" you could ask for." My eyes turned dreamy, thinking about it. Even if it WAS an act. "After a couple of years Adrien and I were really close. And Mom went on a business trip. I had a feeling deep down that we would never see her again. But I was only 15. It was stupid. I was just overreacting. I'd never done well being alone." At least that much was true. "So when she was mugged on the street…well that was it. Someone hit her over the head with a bat and she lost too much blood…" I whispered, rubbing my eyes. I couldn't cry but at least this was a good effect.

"Oh my god." Kirsten ran around the table and hugged me. This girl, who barely knew me…she was comforting me, it was so innocent and nice.

"Anyway," I cleared my throat. "We moved to Massachusetts and Adrien and I fell in love. And we were there until now."

"Wow..That's a little strange isn't it? That you're like dating your brother? Sorta like the Cullens too." God. COULD SHE STOP COMPARING US TO THE CULLENS? Kirsten didn't know any better, I reminded myself.

I shrugged indifferently, "We're not related by blood, and the papers are all gone so, technically we're not related anymore. And that's about it."

"Huh, wow…I'm sorry Bella, really. I wouldn't have asked if I'd known…"

"It's okay!" I relaxed. "You didn't know and anyway its good to talk about it once and a while. Adrien hates talking about it…I guess its because it was his REAL mom , it hit him a lot harder than it hit me..but I still was heart broken." I stared around the room, letting Kirsten think about this.

"So you're seventeen?" Her eyes saddened.

"Yes." I nodded again. Why did it actually matter?

"You'll probably want to hang around with my sister then…I'm sorry I bothered you."

I let out a tinkling laugh. "Kirsten, chill. You're my friend, just because you might be a year or so younger, I don't really care." She giggled in relief. I looked out the window. The sky was darker. Damn. I'd been here a while. Adrien would kill me.

"Oh my gosh. I have to go. I was supposed to be home like…" I looked at the watch. It was 9 o'clock. "Three hours ago. But I'll see you at school 'Kay?" I stood up, holding my purse. I hugged Kirsten quickly and opened the door.

"Okay, bye Bella." I stepped out the door. "Wait." She called. I turned back. "Give me your cell number, maybe we can hang out some time?"

"Definitely." I called, telling her the numbers clearly. I snapped my cell shut. It was white diamond encrusted. "BYE!!" I yelled over my shoulder, jogging slowly until I was out of sight. I went full speed now, ending up at the house. All the lights were on and I could hear voices.

"God Damnit where is she?"

"Adrien stay calm please. You're not helping." Carlisle said calmly. I waited for a second, before entering.

"IF YOU HADN'T LIED THIS WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED!" Alice screamed, at I was guessing was Edward.

"It's okay. I'm here." I muttered, opening the door.

"Bella." Adrien crushed me against his chest, enveloping me in a kiss. I pulled away. "What's wrong. Why are they here?" I sneered in Edward's direction.

"We were worried about you Bella." Esme said quietly.

"Where were you anyway?" Emmett demanded. Everyone stared at me, all this ganging up on me had to STOP.

"Why do you even care? I'm home okay, so now that you're done worrying you can leave." I ran up the long stairway and slammed the door shut. That had been rude. That had been unacceptable. But what was I supposed to say? "Thanks for caring now that I'm back in your lives?" Yeah right. I turned on my imind. (Can control songs and stuff with brain waves.) I played something old, something loud.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless lost under the surface

Don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly afraid to lose control

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know

I may end up failing too

But I know

You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

[Chorus

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I ignored the murmuring of voices downstairs, and the slamming of car doors. I wanted to be alone. That was it.

"Bella talk to me." The music cut off. Adrien was kneeling by the side of our bed, anger and determination in his eyes.

"I don't want to talk." I said stubbornly.

"WE ARE GOING TO TALK NOW."I'd only ever heard this voice once, once while we had been in Massachusetts and this guy had come up and put his hand under my shirt. (Not a happy memory) I turned the music off slowly.

"What?" I looked down.

Words burst from his mouth, "Why won't you let them back in? Why won't you let them care? Why won't you let ME in? Why won't you tell me what's going on?"

"Do you really want to know?" I questioned, my eyes flat.

"Yes."

"DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?"I screamed. "I AM PISSED OFF BECAUSE HE LIED. I AM PISSED OFF BECAUSE NONE OF THEM BOTHERED TO CARE WHETHER I DIED OR NOT. IF IT WAS BY SUICIDE OR NATURAL CAUSES." I let out a shallow breath. "IF YOU HADN'T BEEN THERE THAT DAY I WOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF. I WAS EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT THAT DAY WHEN YOU CAME FOR DINNER. DO YOU UNDERSTAND?"I shook his shoulders violently. "AND IT WOULD BE ALL BECAUSE OF THEM. AND THEN I FIND OUT THAT HE LIED, DO YOU THINK I CAN ACCEPT THAT? NO MATTER THE REASON, I WILL NOT LET THEM COME BACK INTO MY LIFE." I crossed my arms, turning away.

"Bella, honey, relax. Please. I understand now okay?" Adrien smoothed my hair and held me close. "We'll move again, if that will make you happy.

"No." I retorted. "It's not fair to you. I want you to be friends with them. I'm sick of seeing you alone. You can have some boy time, even if its with the guy I hate most on this earth. I will make other friends. I already have." He raise his eyebrows. "But please tell them that no matter how long or how hard they try I will NOT accept them back in my life. Even if it is all EDWARD's fault. Okay?"

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