Siriusly Misunderstood


Summery: In which, Remus has harboured feelings for Sirius for years, but Sirius is oblivious. Unfortunately, Remus is, as per usual, Siriusly misunderstood.

Disclaimer: Who actually reads the disclaimers?

A/N: Here we are, another chapter. I know the last one was a mafor cliffhanger for you guys, and you've been waiting for the aftermath of the dreaded Remus/Serverus kiss in the last chap. WARNING! Major angst in this one, an Upset!Sirius, and a Confused!Remus.

:) I quite like this chap though, and don't worry, it shall lead to many a fluffy time! An essential chap to the plot, so we must go through the angst! Do enjoy it, all the same.


I am lost. I have gone to look for myself.

If I get back, before I return, please tell me to wait.


Chapter 12: Betrayed


"FUCK!" Sirius exclaimed, kicking the trunk of an elk tree with as much power as he could muster. Ignoring the searing pain that rose in his leg, he clasped the tree with his hands and sunk his nails deep into the bark.

"Fuck..." He murmured painfully to himself, turning around and leaning his back against the strong trunk.

He had just witnessed what would undoubtedly be one of the most confusing events of his young life. He had just seen Severus 'Snivellus' Snape kissing his best friend Remus 'Moony' Lupin.

Bile rose to his throat at the thought.

As soon as he had registered the scene, gasping for a moment while a deafening silence had engulfed him, he watched as Remus' merely stood there as he was kissed. When he had felt James' hand land comfortingly on his shoulder, he had bolted.

He didn't stop running for a good twenty minutes, now into the outskirts of the forbidden forest, he felt his emotions grip him.

Sirius whimpered, 'Why am I feeling this way?' he thought in confusion, unsure as to why he reacted the way he did. I mean, sure, Remus is his best friend, and Snivellus (yes, it most certainly was Snivellus again) was his most hated Slytherin foe, but to react so strongly? And what of this strange aching pain in his chest?

Sirius brought his shaking hands up to his face, watching with sore eyes as his fingers shook with the shock of the situation.

The scene kept playing itself over in his mind, that single moment where Sirius saw with altogether too much clarity, Severus' lips slowly coming to cover that of hisRemus. His Remus.

His heart beat furiously in his chest, as though waging war with his frazzled mind, and his stomach seemed at least ten times heavier than was usual. In fewer words, Sirius felt as though he had just survived a car crash.

He felt a mess.

"What's happening to me?" He whispered brokenly.


Remus felt confused. He sat running his hands through his hair, rubbing his palms over his face, trying to calm his thoughts.

Severus has kissed him. Kissed him.

It was epic. The ice-prince Severus had intimately touched Remus. He couldn't believe it.

And yet, this was certainly not something Remus was celebrating. As soon as he had realised the situation, and his senses had cleared, Remus had had only enough time to see Sirius running away at an alarming speed before bolting himself, in the opposite direction.

Remus couldn't help it. The moment Severus' surprisingly soft lips had touched his own, he had only thought of Sirius. It was not Severus in front of him, it was Sirius. It was not Severus who had kissed him, it was Sirius. And he had hesitated.

For one truly confusing and strangely exciting moment, he had hesitated.

And Sirius had seen.

Remus groaned despairingly. 'What must Sirius think?'

He felt bad though, that he had suddenly run away from Severus after he had kissed him. But, really, Remus was too preoccupied with his confusion to have thought of anything above the need to get out of there. He knew he must have hurt Severus' pride though. After all, Severus had always been so careful with the people he learned to trust, and for him to have those feelings towards Remus and Remus himself being so utterly oblivious... well, he certainly wouldn't have relished the fact that Remus had literally ran from him in fear.

Remus leaned back on the stone wall of the Room of Requirement, currently taking the form of a large stone cell, exactly what Remus needed to brood.

It was often the place Remus found himself when he desperately needed to get away from the other Marauders, he admitted mainly because it was the only place in all of Hogwarts which couldn't be traced on the Marauders Map. He would simply disappear.

This was exactly how he felt in that moment, as though he wanted to disappear, forever. Never having to deal the strange new feeling which had arisen between him and Severus, never having to explain any of this to James and Lily, and most of all, never having to face Sirius.

That would be the worst of all.

Remus sighed. He would simply avoid Sirius, for as long as possible.


Sirius had decided he was angry, unspeakably so.

He was angry at Remus.

He was blind with anger as his paced the dorm room, his bed looking an absolute mess since he had come back from the forbidden forest and started throwing everything around, knowing it looked horribly like he was throwing a fit and still unable to bring himself to do anything but, continue to pace.

He wasn't entirely sure what he was angry at Remus about, whether it be because he hadn't told Sirius what was really going on with Severus (although, Sirius mused bitterly, he should have known with how much time they were spending together), or that Remus had let this happen. He had let Severus get too close when they all knew what a slime-ball he is. He had let him kiss him!

A small part of him though, a tiny little part at the back of Sirius' mind, a small voice which was nearly always drowned out by the much more obnoxious thoughts of Sirius', told him all too clearly that perhaps he blamed himself for letting it happen. That he should have stopped it.

Sirius shook his head of this thought, he couldn't handle that kind of thinking right now, he was too angry and confused and hurting to know anything except his feeling, and the anger he felt towards Remus right now.

'Speak of the devil.'

Remus froze as soon as he had opened the door to the dorm room he and the other Marauders shared, gasping as he faced Sirius, damning his luck.

His eyes quickly scanned the room; Sirius dishevelled bed, his bag contents laying all over the dorm floor, before his eyes locked on Sirius' dark grey ones.

His chest felt as though it were in a vice, being slowly squeezed, as anxiety made his eyes grow wide. He knew instantly that he had made a mistake.

Neither moved for a moment.

Then, Remus, bless him for trying, slowly began to step backwards, closing the door.

"Remus." Sirius interrupted his gradual retreat, his tone much too stern the werewolf's liking.

Remus sighed, coming to step into the room and closing the door behind him, feeling oddly jealous of all that resided on the other side.

Why was he feeling this way anyway? Surely Sirius couldn't be upset with him; after all, he had done nothing wrong... hadn't he?

"Yes, Sirius?" Remus replied softly, his voice rather more guilty than he thought it ought to be.

Sirius' expression suddenly appeared sad, but as his eyes met Remus', they steeled, and his expression was raging with anger.

"What the hell, Remus?!" He roared suddenly, breaking whatever emotional trance they had been under.

Remus recoiled. "Sirius, let me explain-" he started, not quite sure why he needed to appease the taller boy, he was the one who was kissed against his will, right?

"NO!" Sirius interrupted, absolutely fuming, the ferocity in his voice stopping Remus in his tracks. "What the hell was that?" He near-to whispered.

Remus was stunned for a moment, and dumbly replied, his voice feeble; "What was what?"

Sirius spluttered, his anger rising a notch, as his voice fixed in a condescending tone, "I'll tell you what it was, it was a fucking betrayal!"

Remus regained his composure suddenly, his eyes narrowing to slits and his own anger coming to rise at the accusation, "A betrayal?!" He yelled.

"Yeah!" Sirius yelled in reply, almost as though he were convincing himself more than Remus.

"You're just a bully, Sirius!" Remus exclaimed back, "You can't handle the fact that I've become friends with Severus!"

"I'd call that being a little more than friendly!" Sirius seethed, "You betrayed the Marauders! You betrayed Peter, and you betrayed James, and you betrayed me."

Remus sneered at the taller boy, "You fucking fool, I didn't betray anyone! I didn't do anything!"

"ANYTHING!" Sirius bellowed, his face going red, "You fucking kissed Snivellus! You call that nothing?!"

Remus stomped his foot aggressively, "Don't you call him that!" He screamed, his voice rivaling Sirius'.

Sirius suddenly gained a cruel smirk, "I'll call your lover whatever I please." He replied scathingly, his voice dangerously low.

Remus gained tremendous rage at that comment, his eyes widening slightly, "Fuck you!" He roared, then, overcome with anger, he yelled a comment he had never intended to throw at Sirius.

"You're just like your fucking family, Black!"

Sirius stopped dead in his tracks, and stared almost dumbly at Remus. His ears rung from the sudden seize in noise, his and Remus' breathing seemed to have stopped at the comment, and his heart ached worse than ever.

Against his will, Sirius felt tears rise to his eyes.

He didn't even reply, Sirius just turned his head away from Remus, not able to bear looking at him anymore.

Remus had never felt more sorry, he couldn't believe he had just said that to Sirius, he knew it was completely unfair.

A silence engulfed them then, until Remus broke it, stuttered;

"Sirius, I-I-"

"No." Sirius interrupted him, his voice dangerously low and not at all masking his deep pain, as the dark-haired boy made his way around Remus, giving the lycan a wide berth, and made his way woundedly to the door.

Remus whimpered, unmoving from his spot standing in front of Sirius' bed, tears streaming down his own cheeks, but didn't attempt to stop him as Sirius closed the door behind himself, the click of the door seeming to resound in the room.


James and Lily stood in the middle of the common room, stunned still and facing the boys dormitory door, where the loudest yelling Gryffindor Tower had ever witnessed was echoing from. Soon enough, Sirius appeared coming out said door, noticing the two immediately, before dashing past them and out of the portrait hole.

Neither James nor Lily had had enough time to comment on the rare stream of tears trailing down Sirius' face.

"Oh, no..." Lily whispered sadly, bringing her hand delicately to her mouth, her eyes filled with worry as he gazed at James, who looked equally as upset at the recent events between his friends.

"What do you think happened?" James asked quietly.

Lily shook her head, "Exactly what we think happened." She answered insightfully, "They broke up before they ever got together."

They both fell heavily onto the common room couch, sitting and staring into the blaze of the fireplace, a certain grim truth hanging over them.

Suddenly, James sat up, and turned to Lily with a determination in eyes that Lily had never seen before, and left her heart fluttering.

"No." James declared, "We can't just give up on them! We worked this hard, and ok, fair enough, our plans haven't exactly worked out so far, but they're so close to confessing their feelings, I can feel it!"

Lily felt suddenly more confident as well, as she nodded her head, like it was a realisation, "Yes," She agreed with a small smile, "You're right James!" James felt his heart flutter at the compliment, "We can't just give up on them! I'm sure we've got one more trick up our sleeves."

James' eyes twinkled with excitement, "And I have it." James told her certainly, "Here- let me show you."

He waved his wand, muttered an 'accio' as he summoned some parchment and an ink quill, and began jotting down notes and diagrams on the black surface.

Lily watched with eyes wide, taking in, for the first time, the ingenious plan-making skill that was the magic of the Marauders.

After James had finished explaining the foolproof fourth step of their plan 'Get Sirius and Remus Together', he gave Lily a wide grin, knowing full well that it was some of his best work.

"Its the masterpiece of the plan." Lily stated in slight awe.

James nodded confidently, "If this doesn't get them together, nothing will."


A/N: Ah now, what is James and Lily's fourth step, the masterpiece of the plan? That is the question!

And poor Remus and Sirius, so much fighting between them lately, hm? Have they truly broken up before they even got together? Only the next chapter will tell!

So do review for me, and I shall update as soon as possible.

-Emerald-