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this chapter was triple checked with a fine toothed comb and is certifiably typo free for your satisfaction guaranteed

this chapter has been rated epecially PG-13 for the er... kissing scenes


Chapter 12 - the hardest thing to say.

"I asked" he took another breath and looked at his feet, and touched one of her hands. "Would you er.. Please, be my girlfriend?" she stood still for a moment still quite shocked. She didn't think she could move her legs, she opened her mouth but nothing came out, oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh, was all she could even think. Her eyes were wide and the longer she stared at James the less he seemed to be smiling until finally he broke the silence. "Er, lily? Are you there" she smiled, but still could not say anything, he waved his hand in front of her face, and she seemed to snap out of her trance. She jumped and hugged him and then kissed him again and for what seemed like a few minutes and then let go. "Well?" he asked still waiting for an answer.

"Oh, James..." she just looked at him.

"Oh please tell him yes already!" came a voice from over near the fire. Remus and Sirius were peaking their head over an arm chair and staring at lily and James who turned bright red.

"Well, come on already" begged Remus. Lily looked back at James.

"Ok." her voice cracked.

"Yay" chorused Remus and Sirius. James kissed lily harder than ever and when they broke apart lily had to gasp for air. "Yay!" Remus and Sirius yelled and they were now hugging in mock of James and lily.

"Party!" yelled Sirius, conjuring a banner that read, 'James and lily forever!'

"Is he allowed to do that?" asked lily concerned

"Er, seeing as my dad's the minister, we have special privileges in the house."

"Oh. " Remus and Sirius were jumping up and down singing.

"Bloody hell, guys calm down!" begged James

"We cant-" began Remus.

"-We had too much candy" finished Sirius

"Well, then you are going to have to leave."

"Awe" they said at the same time.

"Fine" claimed Remus "party in Sirius' room" and he disapparated.

"Better yet," thought Sirius out loud. "Party in James' sister's room" James moved forward, but Sirius disapparated.

"I'll get him one day..." James started. Lily sat down on the couch. James followed suit. She stared into the fire. "What's wrong?" he asked concerned.

"What were you going to tell me yesterday?" his heart fell to his stomach, he had to think of something fast, either do it now or never. "Come with me." he walked over to the door on the left of the fireplace, and stepped over to the door to the requiring room. But his time when he opened the doors, it wasn't a meadow it was a half room with a giant squashy love seat in front of a fire, and where two of the walls should have been there was a horizon with a dark sun set, and no stars but soft pink clouds. The room seemed much more intimate, smaller, cozier, and much more comforting than the first room. The fire was the only source of light besides a table with a candle and it seemed much more romantic.

"James what's the point of this?" he said nothing, but took over in front of the fireplace, and she sat down on the love seat.

"Lily, you won't believe me."

"What?" he sat down next to her and held both her hands.

"Everyone says you have to be older and be with some one for a long time before-" he paused and looked her in the eyes "-before you know you love them," he took a deep breath before continuing, "but, lily I'm pretty sure, I love you." he stopped and stared at their hands.

"James," she was completely awe stricken, she knew she liked him enough to want to be with him, but she did not know if the feeling she had was love or not. "I don't know what to say"

"You don't have to say anything"

"I believe you, though, If you love me, I'm not going to tell you, you don't, but-"

"You don't have to tell me, you love me if you don't"

"James, I have know you for a long time, and you have changed, you've gotten older, and I think," James looked her in the eyes, with a small lust for her to tell him she loved him too, but knowing that love was different than what she probably thought, he didn't want her to lie about it. He kissed her, she would have given anything to say there forever, I think I love him . His tongue touched her lips teasing entry and his hand left hers and made it around to her back. She pulled herself away taking a deep breath and letting her thoughts escape "I think I love you too" he pulled her closer.

"Really?"she couldn't say anything so she just nodded, and kissed him again. She wrapped her arms around him, and ran her fingers though his messy hair making it even messier.


A/N ah. i was waiting for him to say that.