I have borrowed these characters from the great Stephenie Meyer. I have borrowed the music from Evanescence. Check out a link to the song on my profile!

EPOV

Bella please, damn it! I could make you happy. Forget him, he left you. I want you forever, I would do anything…..Bella, I love you. I LOVE YOU! His lips crashed down on mine, hot and demanding……

She was cruel leaving me with that memory, not that I didn't deserve it. Felix was right, I had left her. What I needed her to see was why I had done it. I pinched the bridge of my nose and swore softly.

I looked at my mother "What do I do Esme? I just don't know what to do? What a mess I have made…"

"Edward," she touched my arm softly "She loves you, can't you see? She could have stayed with him, she didn't. She could have stopped looking for us, she didn't. She could have ordered all of us out of her house, she didn't. So now, we have just have to be here for her. Follow your heart, but be careful with her" she replied.

Alice piped up "When she dropped the shield I saw that it could go two ways" she let the images fill my mind. It didn't help. One showed Bella and I wrapped around each other, intimately, the other showed her running to Italy.

My tone was less than thoughtful "Gee thanks Alice, now I feel so much better." I couldn't get the first image out of my head.

I turned to my father, who was watching me with a thoughtful expression "Did she drop her mind block purposefully for you Edward? What did she show you?"

I nodded at him, ashamed "She was really angry with me, she showed me her memory of me leaving her in Forks, then she showed me her memory of Felix begging for her."

"Edward, I think you should go to her, be there for her when she wakes" advised Rosalie "you want to show her that you are not leaving, and reassure her."

I nodded silently and slowly climbed the stairs. I wanted to be there for her, but the thoughts she was allowing me to "see" made me wonder if she would ever forgive me. I could not stand seeing Felix with his hands on her, his lips on hers, even if only through her memories. She had to have known that would kill me to see.

I turned towards her room when I heard the music coming from down the hall. I followed the sound and entered a large recording studio. There was a tape of pre-recorded background music playing and Bella was seated at another grand piano in the middle of the room playing with the music and singing along, her eyes dreamy and focused on something I could not see.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

Is that what she thought, that I didn't change her because I didn't care?

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

I don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.

Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes


I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with you.
I'm gonna let it go.

I slowly opened the door and quietly made my way to behind the piano bench. I bent and buried my face in her hair, taking in her scent as she leaned back into me. We stayed like that for a long time. I could feel her tremor against me so I scooped her up into my arms and carried her to her room. I laid her on her bed and stoked her cheek slowly. She looked up at me.

I am so sorry Edward. I shouldn't have let you see that. I am not being fair. It's not your fault that you don't feel that way about me anymore and I need to live with that. I just end up hurting everybody when I am like this.

Without saying a word to defend myself, I crawled onto the bed and up over her body and bent my head to her lips to kiss her passionately. Then smiling at her shocked expression, I lowered myself onto the mattress beside and wrapped my arms around her pulling her up against my chest. I smiled into her hair.

"Bella," I breathed raggedly "I have always loved you. I am not going anywhere. Now sleep."