Hey Everyone! Sry it took so long. I have a lot of work to do for school and everything. I hope u like this chapter. I didn't get many reviews for my last one though. I suppose I deserve it since I haven't been updating very frequently. I lot of things have come up and im terribly sorry for the wait. Anyways I hope u enjoy this chapter and hopefully I will get more reviews this time around: p! Oh yea and MERRY CHRISTMAS!

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THIS CHAPTER IS RATED R FOR SEXUAL CONTENT LATER ON IN THE CHAPTER. I WILL INDICATE WHEN THE SCENE TAKES PLACE WITH ""!

CHAPTER 12:

Lily was lying on James' chest. They were both snuggled under the blankets together. Lily has never felt so peaceful in her entire life. She was somewhat scared of what James was doing to her. She knew he was scared too. James' fingers were now slowly caressing her skin, making her shiver in awareness. The fingers on his other hand were holding the cigarette that he would bring to his mouth from time to time.

She snuggled into him even more if that was possible. Lily's never felt a stronger need to be held before. The whole scenery, the sunset over the calm quiet lake, the grounds of Hogwarts with some kids running around it. Lily placed her hand on his waist as he placed his around her shoulders.

"Are you cold?" he asked rubbing his hand up and down her arm.

She shook her head. "The blankets are fine." She whispered.

Then suddenly, James got up. He was staring at the grounds next to the lake then suddenly, he started smiling.

"That prat," he whispered to himself.

"Why, what's wrong?" Lily asked curiously.

"Cant you see?" James said pointing to two tiny dots next to the lake.

"No…"

James laughed. "Its Bella and Sirius. They're snogging."

Lily smiled. She always knew Bella had a thing for Sirius ever since she told her that Sirius had kissed her that night in the Astronomy Tower.

"I knew that would happen." Lily said smiling.

"So did I," James stated smiling down at her.

She stared up at his intense light eyes and couldn't help but wonder what would become of them in a couple months. Is she still going to feel for him? Will he still feel for her?

All these questions lay themselves in her head and would torment her from time to time. She couldn't imagine not being with him anymore. It hurt her deeply to imagine so. She couldn't imagine never being able to look up at those intense eyes and feel such a swelling feeling in her chest. Just imagining that made her feel empty and broken.

"James…" Lily murmured.

He bent down, placed his forehead over hers and closed those intense eyes of his. Their mouths were just inches apart. She inhaled the smell of him. She loved his smell. It was a mix of cigarette and a musky scent that was always imprinted on every one of his clothes. She loved it. Sometimes, she wondered if she smelled a particular way. She hoped he liked it.

"Hmm…?"

She then placed her arms around his neck and for the first time, she leaned into him and pressed her lips against his. She stayed like that, not moving her lips, but just savoring how his lips felt like against hers. She wanted to imprint that memory, that feeling into her mind forever; just in case it would be the last time it would ever happen. He didn't make an effort to move his lips over hers either. He just stayed there, mentally giving her the lead. For the first time, he wanted her to lead the way. He wanted to see how it would go. How far she would lead them.

Lily then attentively nipped his bottom lip and ran her hands down his chest seductively. This time, James' control snapped. He couldn't take it anymore. She was deliberately trying to kill him. That was when he stopped her hands with his own and pulled away from the kiss.

"No, don't." he whispered.

"Why not?" she asked looking up at him confused.

"Don't start something you wouldn't want to finish."

"What do you mean?"

"If you start doing things like that, don't expect me to stop after."

Lily blushed deep crimson and lowered her head. She mumbled something he couldn't understand. He gripped her chin and lifted it gently.

"What did you say?"

She looked up at him and her green eyes were lighter than they ever were before. He stared down intently at her.

"Who said I would want you to stop?"

"You did. A couple minutes ago you stopped me." James said smirking.

"What if this time around, I didn't stop you?" Lily added with a smile.

James gave her a questioning look. Was she serious? She shouldn't fuck around with him like that.

"Do you mean that?" James asked seriously "Don't say that if you're not totally sure."

Lily looked up at him slowly. She was sure, but now it seemed as if HE wasn't sure about her decision. He probably thought she would stop him like every other time, but right now, she wanted him. Besides, 16 was an appropriate age to lose her virginity. She knew girls who already lost it a while ago. But then again, Lily always had a dream of losing her virginity to the man she would marry later on. James wasn't the type of guy she would see herself marrying. She didn't think she could trust him enough for that.

But then again, she had this huge need coiling deep down inside of her. She wanted to be as close to James as she possibly could and this was the only way she could get enough of him. She wanted him so much it hurt; she was still ravenous from his earlier ministrations and couldn't seem to put out the fire he had so easily lightened in her. He was right, in a way. She wasn't sure if she should go through with it, she didn't know where it might lead them afterwards. Would it be awkward? Would he compare her to past experiences? That's what she was most afraid of. She didn't want to be compared to the sluttiest girls in the school who have all had more experience than she.

Lily looked up at him then.

"James, I'm just scared." She mumbled.

James started smiling knowingly.

"We all went through that phase," James said smiling back at her. "You get used to the feeling after a while."

"That's not what I'm scared of," she stated stubbornly.

James frowned.

"Are you scared of me?"

"No!" she said horrified.

"Then, what the fuck is it?"

Lily blushed.

"James, how many girls have you ever been with?"

James was taken aback of the absurdity of the question and started laughing really hard. She was worried about the number of girls he's ever been with? That was ridiculous.

"I lost count," James said annoyed.

"See, you've been with all these girls and well…I'm not very…experienced."

James hugged her tightly to him and rolled his eyes.

"It doesn't matter to me," James said softly "I don't care."

"You say that now, but I'm sure you don't mean it."

James let go of her in an instant and pushed her away from him. She stumbled back, surprised of his reactions.

He went and sat where their covers were and turned away from her and started smoking another cigarette.

Lily was left confused and alone. What had she said that made him angry all over again? It seemed as if she was walking through a minefield every time she talked to him. She had to be super careful not to hurt him in any way. It was sort of starting to get on her toll. She was always the one trying to get him back, trying to make him like her. It wasn't even sure if he liked her in the first place. They weren't even going out. Even after all this time, they still weren't official. Did she want them to be official? Of course she did. But, did he?

"Why wouldn't I have meant that? Do you think I lied to you?" James said after a couple minutes.

"No, I-I," Lily stammered.

"You obviously don't fucking know me, so don't judge me like that." He snapped at her.

Lily was starting to become enraged also. Why was he being so cold with her all of a sudden? What a jerk!

"Well, fuck! Stop making it so hard for me then! I never know what you're thinking. Maybe if you would talk to me from time to time it would actually help! You obviously don't know me either!" Lily almost screamed at him.

James stared at her. It was the first time she actually got this angry with him. It excited him and he wanted to see more. Her red hair was falling around her shoulders and the wind was wafting her hair all over the place. Her face was red from anger and her eyes were the darkest shade he's ever seen them. She was beautiful.

"In fact," she continued. "I don't even know what I'm doing up here with you."

James shrugged.

Lily's lower lip trembled as she asked him calmly to bring her back down to the grounds.

"No," was his simple answer.

"What do you mean 'no'?"

"I mean, you wanted to talk didn't you? Well today's your lucky day Lily Evans. Now sit down and talk." He ordered.

Lily glared at him.

"What if I don't want to talk anymore?"

"You don't have a choice."

Lily walked as far away from him as she possibly could and just stared down at Sirius and Bella fooling around. Why couldn't James and she be like that? It wasn't fair. Why couldn't James be more like Sirius? At least it showed that Sirius liked Bella. James probably didn't even care for her at that point. Her eyes started to water and her stupid hair kept getting in her face because of the bustling wind. She felt so stupid, for having ever believed that James could actually like her.

He only wanted her.

Then suddenly, se was whirled around and she was facing James. He was staring down at her intently, searching her face for any sign of anger. He sort of cringed when he saw that her eyes had been watering.

He bent down and started to kiss her neck slowly. She let him do so, but she deliberately stayed impassive towards his ministrations. He held her a bit tighter, but none the less, very tenderly. When he realized she wasn't reacting to him, he stopped his ministrations and just laid his head on the top of her head.

"I'm sorry." he said slowly as if it took great will to get it out of him.

Lily looked up at him. He was saying sorry to her? Wow. That was definitely a first. She didn't think James ever said sorry to anyone before. He was apologizing to HER though. This made her feel kind of special and in a way happy too.

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She nodded.

"It's ok James."

He let out a sigh of relief and she let one out too. Things were getting pretty weird. James was changing and she wasn't sure if it was sincere or not. She didn't know if she should trust him or not.

That was when he started to kiss her neck again and this time she let herself go in all the feelings he was making her feel. How much longer before what they have die out? She didn't want to know.

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"Ha-ha, Sirius stop!" Bella gasped between fits of giggles.

Sirius was on top of her and he was deliberately trying to kill her by tickling her to death. She was twisting and writhing underneath him and she was begging him to stop.

"If you don't get off me right now, I will kill you!" Bella hissed at him, but none the less laughing.

Sirius fake pouted and got off of her. "Fine." He said laughing

She sat up slowly and playfully punched him.

"Ouch," he complained, but smiling teasingly in her direction.

She smiled back at him. Who would have thought that things would have ended up the way they did? She would have never guessed that she and Sirius would have hooked up. It was so weird, but she liked it. She even started to like him. He was sort of like her, they thought the same way. Like she could be serious at times and playful at others and he could be very deep sometimes to. She thought he was a total goofball, but he wasn't. She absolutely had to stop judging people so fast.

After a while she lied him down on the grass and laid her head on his chest. She was looking up at the stars that had formed up in the sky. It was so much more beautiful than the Astronomy Tower.

"Isn't this so much better than the Astronomy Tower?" Sirius asked while playing with her long dark hair.

Bella laughed.

"That was exactly what I was thinking." Bella said.

"Great minds think alike," Sirius said smirking and leaning in to kiss her again.

She gladly accepted that invitation. When their lips met, Bella felt her heart clench. She really started to grow fond of him. He was gently playing in her hair while kissing her. He tugged on it gently and used her hair to angle her face the way he wanted to. He pulled away from her then and told her she was beautiful.

"Shut up Sirius, you're being corny." Bella said ruining the moment.

"Is it something that would make you want to have sex with me?" Sirius asked bobbing his eyebrows.

She rolled her eyes at how stupid he was.

"No." she said firmly, but smiling.

Normally, this would get her angry, because of past experiences, but not this time. She actually thought it was a bit funny.

"Hmm…then I guess we'll have to go through that dating phase shit, wouldn't we?" Sirius told me and kissed me. He pulled away just long enough to add: "Now isn't that a shame."

Did he actually want to go out with her? Sirius Black actually wanted to go steady with her? How weird…and exciting. She could never change him though. She knew it wouldn't last very long, but it was worth a try. What did she have to lose? Nothing.

She kissed him back with fervor. She tried to imagine herself going out with Sirius and she actually liked the thought. She liked the thought of everybody envying her because she was going out with Sirius. It would be so good. Then, all of a sudden, a wicked thought passed through her mind. Didn't Alexia like Sirius? Bella felt herself smirking. This was going to be good.

She pulled away from him slowly and leaned her forehead against his.

"Isn't it?" Sirius asked looking deep into her eyes.

"It most definitely is." Bella whispered back.

Sirius smirked then.

"I knew you would say yes." He added.

Arabella's mouth opened indignantly. He was so arrogant, but then again, she thought it was exciting. Her past boyfriends were all self conscious in some way and she found it so unattractive. She was glad that Sirius was different from her past experiences.

"So…are we going out now?" She asked awkwardly.

"Yes, I believe we are."

"Aren't we going kind of fast?"

"Pfft! Who cares? The faster I can get laid, the better." Sirius said jokingly.

Arabella pushed him playfully.

"You're so immature!" she said insulting him.

"But you agreed to go out with me anyways."

Arabella rolled her eyes.

"I can always change my mind."

Sirius bent down towards her and murmured against her lips:

"Would you really?"

He then switched positions with her so he was now lying on top of her with his arms on either side of her, enclosing her. It was the first time ever that Bella was underneath him end she loved the sweet pressure over her. It made her feel vulnerable to him and she loved the feeling.

"Mmm, I would consider it," she answered smirking slightly.

That was when he started kissing her again, only this time it was more intense. His right hand moved under her shirt and moved dangerously upwards towards her breasts. He didn't touch her though, much to her disappointment. He made her want it, which was his trick. He wanted her to beg him, he wanted to feel in control. She wasn't going to give him that satisfaction as he wasn't going to give her hers.

"Damn," Sirius swore.

"What's wrong?" Bella asked alarmed.

"You're not going to ask for it?" he asked playing with her bra straps.

Bella smiled sweetly up at him.

"No." she responded simply. "I never ask for anything, I usually just get it."

"Hmm," Sirius mumbled and got off her. "You're pretty arrogant."

She smiled up at him and laughed. "I know, so are you."

Sirius laughed with her and got up off the grass. It was starting to get late.

"A perfect conceited couple, aren't we?"

Bella laughed and accepted the hand he offered her.

"Do you want to come back to my room?" Sirius asked and raised his eyebrows, expecting her to say no.

"Sure," Bella said then smiled. "But you're not getting any. Not tonight anyways."

Sirius laughed.

"Who said I wanted to get laid tonight?"

"I know you do. That's what you want from me, isn't it? Sex?" Bella said staring at the ground.

Sirius picked her up. Placed her legs around his waist and held her up by her backside. She placed her arms around his neck to hold herself up, or else she would fall.

"I want everything, not just sex. When will you get that?"

Bella started laughing again.

"Quit being so corny with me!" she giggled.

In truth, she really liked this side of Sirius that she'd never seen before. He made her feel special. She tried to hide her emotions by laughing at him and telling him he was corny, when really she was very touched.

Sirius raised an eyebrow at her.

"It turns you on, doesn't it?"

Bella smacked him yet again on his back.

"I'm just teasing, calm down…" he said and started laughing.

"I am calm," She answered just before leaning down and placing a light kiss on his lips. "Let's go to your dorm now, I'm getting cold."

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"I'm sorry Alexis, I can't do this," Remus apologized and pushed her away.

Alexis had just kissed him. What did she do? No, this wasn't part of the plan. It just happened. She lost control. This shouldn't have happened. What has she done? Now her whole plan was ruined. She just couldn't help but kiss him. He was so sweet and nice and he had his arm around her, she couldn't help it.

"I-I'm so sorry, I didn't mean it at all. I mean…well it just happened."

Remus patted her on the shoulder.

"No, don't worry about it, its ok."

"No, you don't understand, it really was a mistake. I don't want it to change anything between us. I mean, we're still friends, right?" she babbled.

"Alexis, it's fine really. Besides," Remus added blushing. "It wasn't all that bad."

That's when Alexis' heart started beating really fast. Did he just say what she thought he said? If he did, things would be so much easier for her.

"What do you mean?" she asked cautiously.

"I wouldn't mind, you know, doing it again."

Then, she didn't know how it happened, but they found themselves kissing. Remus' hands were on Alexis' lower back. Even though Remus wasn't all that experienced, Alexis thought he was an amazing kisser, the best she's ever had in fact. Hopefully, he thought the same about her.

Even though everything she was doing was to get back at Lily and Bella, she couldn't help, just for a moment, to forget about the stupid plan and focus all her attention on the gorgeous Marauder making her feel so helpless.

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SCENE RATED R! Skip if u do not wish to read!

"Lily," James murmured against her bare neck.

Lily was having a hard time breathing. Things were spiraling out of control. Everything happened so fast. She didn't remember how, but she found herself without her shirt on and only her bra and underwear on. Her pants and shirt lay somewhere around the roof.

Even thought Lily was only in her underwear, it was the hottest she's ever been. She felt as if she was burning up. It was incredible what James could do to her. He also had his shirt off and he was so hot. His muscles showed so much. She felt his muscles flex beneath her touch and the sharp intake of breath he would take when she would caress him.

His hands were now rubbing up and down her sides, putting on fire everything he touched. She felt that need coil up in her nether regions and only a bit more would make her lose control completely. She wanted James to touch her there again, as he had done earlier, but he only seemed content with her upper body. He was kissing her neck, her collarbone and just on top of her breasts. He was going dangerously lower with his mouth and she didn't care anymore. All she wanted was to release all the sexual tension that was bottled up inside of her. He planted a kiss between her breasts and still continued lower. He dipped his tongue into her navel and that made her twitch. She couldn't take any more of this.

It was too much. His mouth had reached the elastic band of her underwear and still he was going lower. Lily's breath caught in her throat, anticipating what he might do next. All she could see was the dark head between her legs and she could feel his warm breath on her thigh. Suddenly, her hips bucked forward as his nose rubbed against her, right there, through the thin layer of garment. She let out a long moan and gripped his hair. She could feel all the tension building up inside of her. The feelings she was feeling were much stronger than what she would experience usually when they were fooling around. This time there was no turning back.

She didn't think she would be able to handle it. What if he let her like this. What if he left her on the edge? But then, his hands came down on her hips and kept them in place while he continued his ministrations on her. She was so close, he couldn't leave her now. If he did, she thought she would die.

"Please", she pleaded with a trembling voice, "Don't leave me. James please."

"Shhh", he answered, "I'm not going anywhere."

That's when she felt one of the hands holding her hips in place go lower and cup her mound. She arched into him, and he just watched her.

"Keep your hips in place", he ordered

"I can't", she murmured then moaned as he was bringing her closer and closer to the edge without ever going into her underwear. All he did was rub her. She could also feel his short breath coming in pants against the inside of her thigh. She was so close, she could feel it.

Suddenly she panicked. Something was coming over her, she was scared of that new intense feeling, so she started to fight it.

"James, no. Stop!" she mumbled writhing and trashing beneath him.

"Lily, stop fighting it. Trust me," he ordered her yet again.

The he lifted himself up and kissed her lightly on the lips while rubbing her even harder then before with his right hand.

That was when she let go. She felt her whole body tremble from the rippling sensation that was pounding through her veins. The tremors seemed to last forever, and James was always there, holding her, whispering things she couldn't understand in her ear. Finally, when the tremors passed, she looked up at James and couldn't seem to get enough air into her lungs. She was exhausted. It was like if all the energy's been sucked out of her. He seemed pretty perturbed also.

James kissed her lightly on the forehead and rolled off of her. She instantly felt the loss of his body against hers.

James stared at Lily. He'd never seen anyone come apart like Lily did. She was so sensual, so responsive. He loved the way she fell apart. Her eyes were closed, her head was thrashing from side to side and her back had arched off the floor. Her moan had been so raw and real, he still couldn't get over it. He had enough of her to have wet dreams for the rest of his life. He was still hard as a rock though, and it didn't seem as if she would be up for giving him the release he needed. Oddly enough, he didn't mind that much. Sure he would've liked it, but he wasn't going to force her.

After all, he did bring this upon himself. He was the one who started it. She didn't ask for him to make her come, but he did it anyways. And oh, he didn't regret it one bit.

He felt her snuggle up to him and place his arm around her shoulder. She loved it when he had his arm around her. She felt like his.

"James," she asked calmly. "What was that?"

He smiled down at her and responded with a smirk.

"It was your first orgasm."