Hey guys, sorry for the long wait. My To Understand readers, gimme a few more days before hunting me down XD and enjoy the most mind blowing and heart aching chapter of the story...or so I'd like to think XD

...oh and no Garen, Padme or Anakin this chapter guys, sorry!

~Obi-Wan

I jerk out of my meditation as the presence of someone familiar steps into the room.

I take a deep breath and calm myself. Truth be told I was very, very deep in meditation, and have been for the past few hours.

As soon as I managed to bring Xanatos and Boba back to the ship in one piece, I got to giving Xanatos what little medical attention I could at the moment (treating his burns, cuts, etc.) I then ordered one of the protocol droids around to fly us back to Coroscant immediately, allowed Boba to roam the ship as long as he didn't get into any trouble, and went straight to mediation. I sat down on a chair in front of Xanatos's bed and began to meditate.

I helped my snap out of whatever it was that came over me back on Kamino, without passing out. It helped me clear my senses and calm down. But for some reason I felt unsettled…nervous…empty.

And as I come out of meditation I recognize the familiar presence of Boba Fett entering the room. My eyes slowly open and settle immediately on the still figure that lay before me. Xanatos.

For a second I forget that Boba's in the room and focus solely on the form of my former master. Focus on the his chest slowly moving up and down. Focus on how calm and peaceful he looks. I've learned in all my time with him, that the only time Xanatos ever looks at ease is when he's unconscious. He's got this terrible thing where no matter what he's doing; his brows seem to always be furrowed. He always seems to look…stressed. But when he's out cold, it's as though all his troubles have been erased. And that he can finally relax.

And that's something I want for him more than anything. To get a chance to relax. Being the order's best Jedi is gonna take its toll on him eventually.

"Master Jedi?" I hear Boba's small voice from the door.

"Please, just call me Obi-Wan" I muter, slowly turning to face him. As soon as I look at him, he looks down.

"Come here" I call. He hesitates for a moment, but then walks towards me. I pull up a nearby stool next to me and gesture for him to sit. I really don't know why. I mean there isn't anything I want to tell him, or anything I want him to do. I just call him over. For the sake of having a conscious companion by my side I guess.

He obeys and climbs onto the stool. I return to looking at Xanatos. And when I make no actions towards him, Boba begins to study Xanatos too.

"Is he gonna be ok?" he says after a while.

"Hopefully, yes" I reply.

"Did I do that?" he asks eying Xanatos's bandaged leg.

"Yeah…." I whisper.

"Sorry"

"Don't be. I know how it feels inside when someone poses as a threat your father"

"He's your father?"

"Not really, no. But he's the closest thing. He's raised me since I was 3"

"Oh……so technically he is your father"

"Heh…you could say that"

There was a significant pause before Boba spoke again:

"You love him a lot?"

"Yeah…"

"How much?"

"So much that when he's hurt I feel the pain a thousand fold. So much that my life would be nothing without him by my side"

"Oh…sorry then"

"What? Didn't I tell you don't need to be-"

"I'm sorry cause I hurt you too"

I raise a brow at him.

"You just said that when he gets hurt you get hurt too"

A smile finds it's way onto my face at his childish innocence. I reach up a hand and ruffle his hair.

Cute kid.

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"Hey, Xan, you alright?" I call over my shoulder to Xanatos.

He looks up "I guess…" he replied absentmindedly.

I sigh. He's been like this since he woke up on the ship a day or two ago. He's been so out of it. It almost makes me nervous.

And the fact that he's been having some serious headaches and pains lately haven't been helping. I just wish I knew what was wrong. Seeing him like this almost kills me. I mean it's so hard to believe this is the same Xanatos that I've grown up with.

"Come on then" I say slowing down a bit, allowing him to catch up to me. And then side by side, we walk out of the ramp of the ship, Boba a few steps behind us.

Upon stepping out of the ship, we are greeted by the sight of Master Yoda and Master Windu. But something doesn't look right about them. I can't really place what it is but…something's not right.

"Had a successful mission did you?" Master Yoda says as we approach him.

We bow and Xanatos speaks "Yes master. The bounty hunter was unfortunately killed but we brought his son back" he then glances over at me to continue.

"But we request that he not be questioned. Rather found a foster family," I say.

Yoda sighs "Do that we can. Questioned such a young child we would not have anyway" he looks behind us over to Boba.

"Come here young one" he gestures. Xanatos and I both turn our heads to look at him. He looks hesitant at first but then walks over to Yoda.

"What is you name?" Yoda says staring up at him.

"Boba Fett, sir" Boba answers quietly.

"Hmmm…" My thoughts though stray from Master Yoda's words as I look up to Master Windu. He hasn't said a single word so far. His expression is very blank….weary. Exhausted? No, he looked far beyond exhausted. As though something had been taken from him.

"Bring him to the Coroscant Upper Level Orphanage you will" I hear Master Yoda order Master Windu.

"Yes, master" Master Windu speaks audibly. His voice is low and tired. He walks up to Boba, puts a hand behind his back and leads him away.

Boba though turns back to face me and Xanatos one last time. To which the two of us wave at him.

Content with our response, he walks on with Master Windu.

"Speak to you two I must" Master Yoda says once they're out of earshot.

Xanatos and I give him a "we're-listening" look.

"In private. Go to your quarters we will. Speak to you there I will" Yoda completes.

Xanatos and I nod and head on, along with Master Yoda, to our quarters.

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"Would you like something to drink master?" Xanatos says as he steps out of his room, fresh and changed.

"No. Come here you will, all need I do is talk to you" Master Yoda shakes his head.

He insisted that we got comfortable before he spoke to us. Of course Xanatos couldn't do any of that before sprinting around the entire house as fast as he could, trying to make it look somewhat less like the temple's main garbage chute.

That is until Master Yoda forced him to go change and get cleaned up. I got out and joined Master Yoda in the living room just a few minutes before Xanatos showed up, his hair wet, and the usual clothing he wore at home.

I study him for a moment as he walks in. Hair wet, white sleeveless shirt, and beige khakis. There are a few drops of water slowly dribbling down his tight jawline and onto his neck. Occasionally seeping into his necklace.

"Whatever you say" Xanatos's mumble snaps me out of my thoughts. He comes over and sits down on the couch next to me.

Master Yoda takes a deep breath from the couch across us. He stays in silence for a long time. And after a while Xanatos speaks up "Master?"

"Know how to tell you this I do not" is Yoda's only response.

I shift into a more comfortable position. Moving a bit closer to Xanatos in the process. He glances over at me, and then looks back at Master Yoda.

Yoda then takes another deep breath and says quietly "Passed on to the force, Qui-Gon has."

To say that I was shocked would be such a major understatement. To say that I was mortified and shocked beyond belief would be an understatement. To say that I felt as thought someone had just violently ripped something out of my body would be make much more sense.

I suddenly felt cold. Numb.

To even think that…that Qui-Gon had passed on to the force…

"A trap the negotiations where. Know this we did not" Yoda continues. I force my tensed muscles to move far enough to look up to him. I force my shocked, terrified mind to listen to him, despite my growing fear of learning what happened to my beloved grand master.

"Fine the negotiations where going. Until attacked the main hall was. Tried to save the people Qui-Gon did. But killed in his duel he was" Yoda explains.

A million questions immediately flood my mind and I spit them out one by one "Duel? What duel? With who? How did you even know all this happened?!" I almost scream, teetering very closely on the brink of hysteria.

"Know this is do because the leaders in the hall all survived. Though the planet was captured soon after they spoke to me, they told me of Qui-Gon's bravery they did. Told me that attacked they where by another trained in the ways of the force. Match the description of the person we did and found that…that the person that Qui-Gon battled and was killed by…goes by the name of Assajj Ventress she does. And sources identified that …the apprentice of Count Dooku, she is"

My head jolts up at the last part of the sentence. My eyes shoot open and stare into Yoda's saddened green eyes.

"W-why?" is all I can get out. Why would he ever…even do such a thing? Sure he might have left the order and even possibly turned to the dark side…but to have killed his own former padawan? That's just so…so…sick.

"Know we do not, but trying to find out we are" Yoda answers quietly. His voice is full of tiredness and dread. I vaguely wonder how long he's known, how long he's been planning this talk with us. How he dealt with this when he first heard…

And then…suddenly it occurs to me that Xanatos is still sitting next to me. And that if the news has done this to me then it's probably killed him. And that he hasn't said a single thing since Yoda announced Qui-Gon to be……

I look to my side and see Xanatos's mortified face, frozen in place. His eyes still wide, tears swelling up in them rapidly.

"X-Xanatos?" I whisper reaching up a hand to his shoulder.

But just as I'm about to place it, he stands up. So quickly it actually scares me.

He stands up and just darts out of the room, into his room. I suspect he went to the fresher. And at first I think he's gone to the fresher to let out all of those unshed, pain filled tears. But after a while, much to my horror I hear him retching from in there.

And for a moment I forget that Master Yoda is still sitting in front of me. I honestly don't even care anymore.

I jump up and run to Xanatos's fresher. Seriously as of now, I would die if I where to hear of something else happening to someone I love so dearly.

Once I reach his room, I dart into the fresher, literally throwing the door open in the process.

I am greeted by the heart wrenching sight of my former master, bent over the sink, throwing up a week's worth of food. Which is not too good because Xanatos has the appetite of a pigeon, meaning he barely has 2 meals a day. And having him throw all of that up is all but good for him.

I immediately step into the fresher and put a hand on each of his shoulders.

"Xan, come on, stop it, this isn't going to help you" I manage to cough up. The sight of him like him is making me sick. The sight of the man I grew up knowing to be all powerful, bold and strong, breaking down like this. It's absolutely unbearable.

"Xan please" I mutter as he bends down further. He pauses for a moment to which I open up our bond to its full extent and release comfort waves. Try to calm him down.

Thankfully it does its job, even if it relaxes him the slightest bit. I take the opportunity to quickly splash a bit of water onto his face to clean it up. I then do the only thing that seems logical at the moment.

I help him to stand properly. He doesn't make any response. The terror and shock has left his face. It's blank, as though he's in some sort of trance or something. And rather than resisting, he leans heavily on me as I lead him out of the fresher and into his room. Gripping both his shoulders tightly to keep him steady (he is after all a much larger man than I.)

As we approach his bed I draw the force close and use the strongest force suggestion I can possibly sum up on him. It actually drains me a bit, but I shake it off as the suggestion takes affect and Xanatos falls forward limply into my arms. I'm actually surprised to a degree that it actually worked. To this day I really haven't gotten a force suggestion to fully work on him.

But it works, and I lift him slowly onto the bed. And it scares me slightly that for the first time in my life I look at his sleeping face…and find nothing but pain, hurt and frustration. There are no peaceful features to comfort me. Just pain and agony. I tear my eyes away from the sight and drag myself back to the living room where Master Yoda waits.

Collapse onto the couch I was previously on, this time where Xanatos was sitting, and burry my face into my hands.

It's barely been 5 minutes since we've found out about Qui-Gon…and I'm already tired, cold…and in need of guidance.

Sensing I wanted nothing more than to be alone right now Yoda hops off the couch and walks to the door "Check up on you two later I will. Rest Obi-Wan. Need it you do" is all he says before opening the door.

"Wait! Master Yoda…" I call to him wearily. He turns to face me but says nothing.

"Have…have you informed Garen and…Anakin yet?" I manage to spit out the sentence.

"No. Know everyone does but those two. Inform them you can through a holo-transmission. If want to you do. If not then do it I will" he says before hobbling out.

I return my face to my hands as I hear the door hiss shut.

How could all of this happened so fast? It seems like just a few hours ago, I was staring up at Qui-Gon's vibrant smiling face, telling me to watch after Xanatos. Just a few hours ago he was still so…full of life. The thought brings a new wave of grief to flood my emotions. And tears to my eyes.

But I quickly blink them back and stand up, headed towards my room.

Before I break down and allow myself to vent I have one last transmission to send.

1) Aw....that was such a sad chapter......Qui-Gon, why have you left us?! T_______T Poor Xan. I get the feeling i put way too little emotion into this chapter? Is it true??

2)EWMIGAWSH I JUST CHECKED THE SW CHARACTER INDEX AND THEY ADDED XANATOS!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFGEEEE!!!!!!! *THROWS A PARTY* YEAH FOR XANATOS!!!!

3) As usual it's freaking late and I'm this close to becoming dellusional so forgive my spelling errors will ya? XD

4)And finally for you Improbussaga, who guessed basically all that occured in this chapter, a sketch of our very own Garen Muln =] But see the thing is that is retarded and refuses to accept full links so I'm gonn have to pm it to u XD But for all of you other guys, if u wanna see it then just let me know and I'll send u the link =]

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