Nearly at the end now (though I'm kinda tempted to do a sort of continuation). Thank you to anyone reading / reviewing and I hope this is ok.

Dear Nobody,

You've dropped. You're now low in my body and I know that it means you are nearly ready to be born. It's our little secret though for now ok? I'm not ready for anyone to know. They will start to worry, they'll want me to go down to maternity ready for your arrival but I don't want it to be that time. Not yet.

I'm not ready. Going to maternity means the beginning of the end, it brings closer the moment when I hand you over forever. It brings forward the moment when you become anothers. The moment when you cease to be a part of my body, and become only hers.

How do I say goodbye to you? There are no words for that. You have grown beneath my heart. The only being in this world to know what my heart sounds like from the inside. You have kicked the walls of my uterus and punched me and yet I have still loved you; I have rubbed affectionately those places which you have battered.

You have squeezed my organs closer together to accommodate your growth. Your being has changed my body in to something unfamiliar and strange and yet it is incredible. To see how the shape of you has changed me, how each week my body has become different in line with your development. To some it is beautiful, to see a woman ripe with child but to me it has become a thing of sadness. The way you have ripened my body, has brought forward the date at which you leave me.

I will miss you baby boy. I will miss the moments we have shared together. The little secrets we share. For nearly nine months we have been one. You the lodger and me the host. But it has become more than that. You became a part of me, something more than I could have imagined.

I can feel the beginnings of contractions. A hand squeezing me, getting ready to push you free. I close my eyes against them and try to ignore them. I am not ready for this. I am not ready for to arrive. I am not ready for the goodbye.

Baby boy. I need a few more days.

I love you.

Mo