Erin's POV
I woke up and I could feel the whole side of my right arm wet. I turned on my side light and looked over at Jay who was tossing and turning all over the bed. I looked down at my arm and wiped off what I realised was sweat. I didn't know what to do so I raced out of bed and into the kitchen grabbing my phone off the counter. The only thing I could think to do was dial Will,
"Hello..." he slurred
"Hey it's Erin"
"Erin it's like three in the morning what's up?"
"I didn't know what to do. Jay seems to be having some kind of nightmare, he's moving around mumbling sweating. Shall I wake him up?"
"No no no don't touch him. He will wake up soon when it's over. Trust me waking him up from one of his dreams is when he can lash out and he would never forgive himself if he hurt you."
"Ok how do you know for sure?"
"Cause I had to move in with Jay when he came back last time and he used to have a lot of dreams"
"Thanks Will"
"Yeah no problem just let me know how he is" Will said putting the phone down
I didn't know what to do so I just laid down on the couch while I could hear Jay mumbling and what sounded like whimpering. It wasn't long before I felt my eyes go heavy and even though I wanted to stay awake, I just couldn't think I could do it anymore.
Jay's POV
I could still the gunfire which was flying around my brain but I suddenly went away and I shot up in bed. I wiped the sweat from my head and as I looked to my left Erin wasn't in bed. I got out of bed and walked out of the bedroom to see Erin in the couch and the first thing which came to my mind was what did I do. As I walked past George's room I heard him crying so I walked in and picked him up from his crib, "Morning buddy" I said as I walked back toward the door but as I went to walk out I could footsteps running across the apartment.
Nobody's POV
"Jay?" Erin ran around the corner and stopped
"What's going on?" Jay asked as she let out a breath
"I just didn't know what you were doing...where are your crutches?"
"Are you serious, what you thought I was going to hurt my son"
"Well you were having a nightmare. I was worried"
"And I woke up Erin. I have dealt with these many times before I met you."
"I know that Jay. Come on you need your crutches"
"I know I'm gonna get dressed and go see Mouse"
"Jay I didn't mean-"
"No it's not you. I just haven't seen him in a while"
"I got back to work today, I thought you were going to look after George today"
"I'm not ready and you clearly think that too" Jay passed George to Erin and he hobbled back to the bedroom and closed the door.
"Dammit..." Erin said as she put George back in his crib realising she approached that wrong.
Erin was getting breakfast when Jay walked across the apartment, "I'll see you later" Jay opened the door
"Jay wait..." Jay didn't listen to Erin he just shut the door and left. She groaned and picked up George from the couch, "lets go to work then" she said as she grabbed all her bags and George's carrier.
Erin walked in the the district and the first thing she saw was Platt look at her, "Erin-" she started
"I'm sorry ok I'm late as it is" Erin said as she rushed up the stairs and through the gate up to the bullpen. Erin walked into the bullpen and saw Voight stood at the door and he just looked at Erin, "I'm sorry Hank ok, Jay was supposed to look after him today but he couldn't" Erin said holding on to George.
"What happened?"
"Nothing ok. He just had a bad night" Erin peered round and looked at all her team.
"Did he do something?" Hank said taking a step forward
"NO... he would never ever do that ok but he is struggling and I don't blame him ok. Kidnapped and tortured, in hospital for week, car accident and phycologists front right and centre so he needs a break ok. He's gone to see Mouse today."
"Okay" Voight said walking back into his office as Erin sat down at her desk wth George.
Jay stepped out of the car and walked through the hospital doors. He was walking towards the elevator when he saw Will,
"Hey Will" Jay shouted across the floor
"Oh hey what are you doing here today"
"Oh I'm just going to see Mouse. He's getting discharged tomorrow"
"I know he is. Anyway why don't you just tell everyone that you have been seeing Dr Charles"
"Wha-"
"Come on Jay I work here you seriously think I haven't seen you sneaking up there two times a week"
"I just wanted to do it on my own you know"
"You had a bad night then, another nightmare?"
"How do you know?"
"I just assumed-"
"Erin called you didn't she, that's why she was asleep on the couch because you told her not to wake me up."
"She didn't know what to do Jay. She has to deal with this to"
"Yeah well I didn't expect her to ring my brother" Jay turned around and started to walk back towards the door
"What about Dr Charles?"
"Ugh forget it!" Jay shouted as he walked out the door
Jay jumped back in an Uber and he could feel the anger building up inside of him, "Where are we going today?" The driver said
"Chicago pd!"
Jay walked straight up the stairs and saw Erin sitting at her desk and he watched as she lifted her head and saw him, "What are you doing here?" She smiled
"You called my brother?"
Erin stood up and walked over, "When?"
"Oh don't play stupid Erin, I know you called him this morning"
"Ok yeah because I was scared"
"SCARED OF WHAT?"
"OF YOU JAY, YOU OK"
"WHY NOT TELL ME THEN!"
"BECAUSE-"
"No Erin I told you this was going to be hard, and you went behind my back again and again"
"I know it's hard but what are you even doing about it..."
"Do you want to know where i've been going twice a week for the like two weeks... i've been going to see Dr Charles so I could do this on my own and get better... FOR YOU"
"Jay, I didn't-"
"Didn't what... didn't know what I have been doing. yeah you seen to be doing that a lot at the minute... sleeping on the couch, watching my every move, running into George's room in the morning when I got to pick him because you think I am going to hurt him... You don't understand what it's like for me Erin. I can't just get back to normal" Jay lifted up his crutches and walked back towards the stairs.
"Jay, I'm sorry" Erin cried
"I'll see you at home Erin, hopefully you want think i'm going to hurt someone or something" Jay said walking down the stairs.
Erin stood in the middle of the bullpen and put her head in hands and cried. She looked up and Antonio was stood in front of her, "What have I done" Erin said to him as he walked over. Antonio pulled her hands away from her face and looked at her, "It's going to get better... Jay is going to get better but it is going to take time for him to get used to being back here in Chicago. For god's sake Erin he thought he was going to die any minute"
"I know" Erin said as Antonio hugged her.
