AN: Hey guys I know I keep going off the grid but I have been working twelve to sixteen hour days here lately between my two jobs and this is my first day off where I haven't crashed and slept the entire day. I am working on trying to get more writing done but its hard with the two jobs and therapy twice a week I haven't even really thought about writing.

Callie sighed for at least the seventh time as she sat on her bed. Stef and Lena were in the process of going through her and Marianas room to look for any razor blades she had hiden away. They had told her it was going to happen something she had figured would happen but it didn't make it any less irritating on her. Callie knew she was starting to get on the two oler womens nerves with all of the sighing she was purposly doing it loudly. She hadn't planned on making this easy for them. They were taking away he only life line to sanity, her only tool of comfort. She had no idea how she was going to cope with out it.

It also wasn't making it any easier on the teenage because they had taken all of the razors out of the bathroom. How were they going to explain to the other kids that they had to come to one of them when ever they needed to shave with out telling them about Callie's cutting? Logically Callie knew it wasn't a secret anymore Mariana had already found out and so had both Stef and Lena but she didn't want everyone else knowing expecially Jude. She didn't want to have to explain to her younger brother that she was so messed up that she couldn't deal with day to day struggles with out the comfort of feeling a cool blade pressing into her skin. That she couldn't function with out feeling the relief it brought her. How was she going to explain to her younger brother that his sister who was supposed to protect him and always be there for him thought about dying more often than not? Those were not things you could just explain to a kid his age. Hell Callie still barley understood it and she was the one doing it to her self. All she knew was that cutting made everything easier for those few moments of numbness it brought.


Stef looked over her shoulder at the young girl sitting on the bed as she sighed for what felt like the millionth time. Obviously she knew that was a over exageration but for the last twenty minutes since they started going through the bathroom the girl had been grating on her nerves. Sure she hadn't said anything or even tried putting up a fight but she didn't need to she knew how to push their buttons and she was trying her hardest to make on of them snap and just give up on their search. Honestly it made Stef more worried that the teenager hadn't given up any amount of fight when they had told her they were going to search through her stuff for anything she could use to harm her self. Callie had just folded her arms over her chest and shrugged. They had no idea what was going through her mind it was almost as if none of this was fazing the girl.

In her years of being a cop Stef had seen plenty of kids going through the same thing her daughter was going through andn one of them had been as calm as their daughter was. There was always screaming and fighting trying to hide at least one blade. Callie had done none of them all she had said was "Good luck finding them." With a shrug. The lack of emotion was worrying Stef beyond belief. She had steeled her self to fight Callie tooth and nail but nothing came. Besides snide comments here and there. There was nothing else. How far gone was the girl to the point where she didn't even care what happened any more? With ever blade they found and through out she would look to the girl and see if there was any emotion but she would just sit there with her arms crossed watching them and sigh like they were wasting her time. Were there more blades hidden to the point where she didn't care that they took that one away? Or was it something else? The fact that she didn't know and could not get Callie to tell them if there were anymore was driving Stef insane she was almost wishing the teenage would put up some amount of fight so she knew that the girl wasn't so far gone to the point where she wasn't holding in all of her feelings. Didn't Callie understand they were just trying to protect her? That was their job as mothers to protect their children whether it be from others or them selves. Why did she have to make them search through every nook and crany in her room?

Though if Stef was being honest even if Callie had given them some of the ones she had found she would have went through the entire room any ways. Not that she didn't trust the girl she did she really did but she wouldn't trust her to give them every single one. Both her and Lena understood that cutting was helping the girl cope with life. Which is why they will understand when it happens again but be that as it may they both refuse to enable the girl. Expecially when it comes to something that is life or death which this is.

Taking away the blades seemed like the only logical way to deal with getting rid of the temptation. They were both trying not to be over baring but honestly at this point Stef didn't care. Even though she realises this is going to be an uphill battle she was trying to make it easier on all three of them. She was hoping with the tools taken away Callie would eventually come to them when she feels like cutting. Neither her or Lena knew of any other way besides getting Callie to see a therapist which they were already working on. But even getting her to see someone didn't mean she was going to talk to the therapist. Callie was too much like her in that way. Neither of hem liked talking about things they both liked to deal with it all by them selves. But Stef just wished Callie could see her doing that was killing her.


Lena could see that both her wife and daughter were getting irritated with this whole process. they were both so similar if this wasn't such a serious situation Lena probably would have laughed. She often wondered if the two of them saw how much a like they really were. It always surprised her how well the Jacobs siblings fit so well into their house. With Callie being so much like Stef and Jude being so much like her it was easy to see them as their own children. Granted yes all of their kids were theirs no matter who they came from but they were so much like the two of them it always seemed to surprise Lena. Which was why this whole situation was killing her inside. She never thought she would have to deal with something like this. All of their kids were so open with them. It honestly didn't surprise her that Callie was the one to end up like this. She didn't know how the girl had gone through even half the stuff she had been through in life. most people she knew would never have been able to deal with any of it.

She just wished they had caught this before it got to that point. She hated seeing the girl in so much pain. As a mother seeing any of her kids in a situation like this was killing her she wished she could take away all of the pain and hardships she had encountered.

AN: I know this wasn't a very exciting chapter but I kind of wanted to get some of their thought processes out of the way so you guys can kind of understand where I am coming from with the character development.