~Hey guys. Allrite this chapter is pretty all over the place XDD Here's wat's in this chapter

*Hanna and Maya hav a sweet moment (u'll b seeing more of Hanna later)

*CLIFFHANGER OF COURSE!

*Maya starts to act different

*Week b4 college starts

* = yeah that wuznt necessary

So yeah this chapter is kinda sad 4 Maya and Em but things will be revealed soon about Maya's past.

***And again if anybody wats ANY wiki type of spoilers pleez PM me. I'd love 2 giv sum away ***

Allright Enjoy CHAPTER 12

CHAPTER 12

~AUGUST a week before college starts~

EM POV

It was almost time for college to start and things have been pretty hectic those past few weeks. I've been training for college swim team and going to practice almost every day after July 4th. I've managed to see Maya every day after July 4th. I've managed to see Maya everyday though so there's no problem there. But I don't know how things are on Maya's end cause the closer it's been to college, she's been distant. I think the thought of being away from me is killing her more than ever because it's actually about to happen. The thought was killing me too but according to grandmamma, Maya doesn't handle distance well and I'm starting to get afraid of that cause what if it ends up driving her away. I purposely proposed to her in Cali so that she'd feel the need to NOT be distant, but lately she seems to be regressing. Speak of Maya she's calling now.

"Hey babe. Haven't called me in a while."

"Sowwy Em, I'm just really trying to cope is all."

"I know it must be hard for you dealing with the upcoming distance, but try not to think about it as much. I mean the more you think about it the more distant you get." I could tell she was feeling guilty over the phone cause she got really quiet.

"That's kind of impossible Em. I mean I'm gone Friday."

"I know babe, I know but the way you've been acting makes me fear for you in college. I mean if even the thought upsets you and pushes you away-

"Emily, trust me, I'll be fine." She said it with some ager in her voice so I'm starting to think something else is wrong.

"Maya is something else wrong?"

"Em, trust me when I say that I'm fine."

"Maya, I've known you for 2 ½ years, I know when you're okay or not okay."

"Em, I'm sorry but now's not a good time."

"But you called me."

"I thought hearing your voice would cheer me up, but, doesn't seem like anything's working." I wanted to cry because Maya was so depressed.

"You want me to come over?" Yeah because of practice I don't get to see Maya whenever I want anymore but I always make time to see her after.

"Don't you have practice soon?"

"Missing one day won't kill me. And besides you're more important."

"No, don't miss practice for me. You need to go, I'll be okay."

"Are you sure?" NO!

"Yeah, I mean I don't want you to get in trouble or anything."

"How, we're allowed to miss 3 practices before we start getting consequences and I haven't missed any yet and the year starts in a week."

"Well you should miss it when there' like a crisis or something." I have a feeling she's hiding something and that's why she doesn't want me to come.

"Let's hope that's not the only time I can come over," I said with a hint of sarcasm fearing she actually meant those words.

"Me either." O.K, I couldn't tell if she was serious or joking. Either way, I didn't like her attitude right now and I was starting to fear it's get worse once college starts.

"I mean, are you mad at me or something?"

"What? No of course not." She sounded more apologetic now compare to before, I think it's cause I'm starting to be affected by her anger of whatever it is.

"Then why don't you REALLY want me to come over?" She got quiet for a min before speaking again.

"Honestly, because I don't wanna let go. If you come over here, I'm gonna want you to stay and I know you can't. Just the thought- She didn't finish her sentence and instead got quiet.

"Baby, you NEED to see me. I mean you hear the way your talking. We're gonna be separated for weeks sometimes months at a time and if you can't let me go now, how are our visits in college gonna be?"

"That's different."

"No, it isn't. It's the same thing but worst because we're a state away." I was begging to worry EVEN more about Maya because she's already handling this horrible and we're not separated yet. "Maya, we'll get through this-

"How do you know that? How do you know that we'll make it or even get married?" WHAT! She hasn't doubted the marriage all summer.

"How can you say that?"

"How can you ASK that. REALISM kicks in at some point. Obviously not for you." I don't care what she says, she's NOT gonna hurt me. I won't let her. She just needs some confidence.

"Remember a while ago you got realism confused with pessimism? You're doing it again."

"No, I'm sorry, but I'm not this time."

"Well why do you have to be so doubtful? Maya, I'm here for you; PLEASE talk to me."

"I think calling you was a mistake."

"What? No it wasn't."

"It was for me, not you." Then, she just hung up. No I love you or anything. Was this what grandmamma meant when she said Maya doesn't handle distance too well? Either way, I'm not gonna let her get depressed over this. She needs hope and if I do something nice, maybe it'll cheer her up. I can afford to miss practice today despite what Maya thinks.


MAYA POV

I felt so horrible after hanging up on Em. I mean I treated her so wrong just now but I didn't know what to do. My heart is broken because I'm so worried how the distance is gonna affect me. I'm already missing Em the days she goes to Danby for practice, yet she still has time to see me daily. I don't understand why I'm so depressed when she hasn't even left yet. I need to get myself together. But before I could think any other thoughts the doorbell rang. My mom was home today so I'll just let her answer it. I heard laughter so I assumed it was Hanna, and I was right.

"Hey soon to be college buddy."

"Hey Han," I said with slight annoyance in my voice. I love Hanna but now was DEFINITELY not a good time.

"Wow you scared pretty upset about that."

"I'm sorry Han. You just caught me at a really bad time."

"Yeah, that's actually why I came."

"What, there's no way Em talked to you about our phone convo yet."

"No, not that I mean, I didn't even know yall talked today. But I'm here to talk to you about you and Em."

"Not now Han."

"Yes NOW! You've been pretty on edge the closer it gets till college and Em's been telling me how upset you were- Well are."

"Han, please, I'm okay."

"And that you keep lying to yourself and her." Gosh, why did Han have to be such a good friend? "You need to talk to someone and if you can't talk to Em right now, you need to talk to me." She put her hand on my face and said, "I'm here for you, okay? I just wanna make you know how much we BOTH care." She kissed my cheek then said, "I love you and I don't want you to make a horrible mistake that would jeopardize emaya." She was right but it's always easier to say then do.

"I wish I could just turn off my emotions but-

"Like that ever did any good to a person. I mean hello, have you SEEN the Vampire Diaries? Turning off your emotions is dangerous."

"I meant the breaking your heart one," I said sarcastically getting a little laugh out of it actually.

"Aaw, you laughed. You probably haven't laughed all day." I haven't laughed for a good few days actually." Now tell me, what went wrong with this phone convo?"

"I just hurt Em really, but in a way where it was more harsh then upsetting."

"How so?"

"I basically admitted that I didn't think we'd make it through college."

"WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU SAY SUCH A THING!"

"Cause I was upset and when I'm upset I don't know how to think."

"That's why I'm glad you'll have me by your side in college cause I don't want you to keep making mistakes like that."

"Trust me, I don't wanna make anymore either."

"Now that I think about it, when do you plan on telling Em the truth about your past?"

"You know why I haven't told her yet." Even though I disagree with Em's choice to discuss my past, I won't tell her until she's ready, especially right now.

"Maya, you know she's just trying to ignore your past so she doesn't have to hear about Selena."

"I wish she would've listened to her, but maybe she'll realize Selena meant well." After Cali, I started to forgive Selena for what happened and even suggested Em get her number back via Facebook or something but it was worthless.

"Maya, is your past really as bad as Selena hints?" I just was quiet after Han asked that cause I didn't wanna talk about this. "Probably dumb for me to ask that now huh?"

"Good thing you caught on."

"Look, I just want you to try your hardest not to let the distance get to you. Let your beauty come over."

"No, I can't."

"Why not?" I started to tear up but refused to let the tears fall, so I constantly blinked causing Han to look at me weird. "You okay?"

"Yeah, sowwy. I just had something in my eye."

"In both your eyes." She grabbed my hand then said, "You're not weak in my eyes. You can let it out." Han is very comforting to me when I'm stressed but I've never cried in front of her nor am I gonna.

I removed my hand then said, "No Hanna. I am weak if I cry in front of you or anyone."

"Well at least tell me why you don't want Em to come over."

"I'm afraid I'm not gonna be able to let her go." I felt my tears coming back up and this time I don't think I could hold them in.

Han started comforting me then said, "Sweetie, I know it's hard for you and that you're gonna miss Em to death. But you can't push her away because of it."

"I'm not trying to, but seeing her makes m more upset than not seeing her," I cried. "I mean I'm really gonna miss her Han."

"I know, I know. Ima miss her too but remember, you're not alone. We can be sad together and you can Skype her and call her everyday. And asa we have the chance, we're gonna visit Em and come to one of her swim meets. Trust me Maya, you'll be okay." She kissed my cheek again then said, "Now let Em come over here."

"Guess it wouldn't hurt, but she's probably mad at me."

"Trust me, she understands why you're so upset so she won't be mad."

"Why are you such a great friend?"

"Cause you're a great person with a bigger hear than you believe." She then got up and smiled at me then said, "And besides, that's like asking why are you so sexy." That made me laugh even harder than earlier.

"Thanks Han," I said then hugged her.

"No problem. Now Ima go and leave you two to your visit."

I laughed then said, "Allright Han."

"You don't have to let go Maya. Trust me, you don't," Han reminded me then left leaving to contemplate.


EM POV

After getting off the phone with a pretty depressed Maya, I decided to talk to my mom. Maybe she could give me some advice on how to deal with her. Thankfully she wasn't busy today so I could talk. So I went into the kitchen to witness her cooking. It was smelling pretty good.

"Hey mom."

"Hey. How's everything Maya?"

"Not good actually. That's why I came to talk." My mom had hella confidence in me and Maya's relationship and almost exploded with joy when I told us about our engagement. She had to have some advice.

"Is it because of the fact that two will be separated in less than a week?"

"Yeah, she's not been taking it well AT ALL these past few weeks and I'm just afraid how she'll be once college starts."

"Are you feeling the worst?" I didn't wanna say it out loud but I've been thinking it for a while now.

"Mom, I'm starting to think Selena was right. What if me and Maya don't get married?" Yeah my mom didn't like Selena either when I told her about her, but sometimes she seemed on her side.

"Look, don't talk like that, okay. Maya loves you TOO much for you to be doubting your love. She's just trying to cope right now but is taking it very hard."

"I know mom but since when are long distance college relationships good? I mean who do you know that was young and survived a long distance relationship?"

"Honey did you completely forget about me and your father?" OMG, I did forget about my own mom's long distance relationship.

"Wow, I guess so."

"Honey, when I started college your dad was already in basic training. Life without your dad at first had me in tears almost evry day and I felt a lot like you did. I had my doubts and questioned whether this was a torture I was willing to endure or something to make me stronger. But your father on the other hand never doubted us, which made me stronger in the long run."

"But then was a point when you were gonna leave me to stay with him cause you couldn't take the distance anymore."

"Yeah I know, but I decided staying here with you was the right thing."

"But then I told you to go."

"Yep and I decided to go until Junior Year was over then I came back to be with you."

"But mom how did you cope- No how do you STILL cope?"

"I don't lose hope. And I think about him every day. And no matter how upset I get, I never forget how strong my love is for him, and that alone is what keeps me strong." My love for Maya is stronger than most but I don't know if Maya can feel the same.

"Mom, I never doubted my love for Maya, but I don't know if she doubts it now that we're about to be separated."

"Remember she is just trying to cope."

"I just wish she wouldn't be as angry while she's coping."

"Think about it, is anyone pleasant when they're coping?

"Guess not. But how can I fix her?"

She laughed then said, "Maya's not a toy EM. Have you ever heard of giving someone time?"

"Yeah but we only have a few days left together and if I give her time, she might not fully cope and get worse. When college starts." I don't think my mom realizes how upset Maya is about this. There's no time left to give her time.

"Well you managed to surprise her with a proposal which means you can do just about anything to make her happy."

So I'm supposed to re propose?" I joked.

"Funny but you did so much for Maya during the vaca and it cheered her up so much. Maybe you could do that again."

"Rent an expensive hotel, but expensive champagne and rent a limo." I laughed then said, "It's gonna be a while before I can do that again."

My mom laughed then said, "Just go make her happy. I know you can do it."

"Thanks mom," I said then hugged her. I'm not so sure if my mom's advice really helped me out cause I'm not sure I could have as much hope as she had with dad, but I guess I could try.


MAYA POV

After Han left, I was forced to contemplate. How come she always gets to me. But anyways I decide to call Em and tell her to come over.

"Heey," she said that like she was relived

"Baby, I'm really sowwy about what I said earlier. I'm just not coping very well."

"I know babe and I'm not mad."

"You're not?"

"No. I understand why you're acting like this, but it just scares me how you're acting cause we're not even separated yet and you're this upset."

"I just hate the thought of losing you." Oops, I didn't mean to say that.

"Loosing me?"

"I didn't mean that."

"You did. Are you really worried we won't make it in college?"

"No, no I'm not-

"You are. Maya, did Selena say something to you during the vaca that now has you doubting us?" Yes but there's no way in hell Ima tell her that so I reversed the story.

"I mean I lost Selena when I moved –

"Are you REALLY comparing me to Selena?" Yeah that was pretty stupid.

"Sowwy, sowwy; that wasn't fair. But dammit Em I'm scared. Distance can turn me into a completely different person."

"Well don't let it Maya. FIGHT IT! Cause you don't wanna ruin anything good between us."

"But Em-

"Maya STOP! You love me don't you?"

"Of course." Why would she ask me that?

"How much?" WHAT!

"More than words can explain."

"Well then remember that wen your in college ad you think you're about to screw tings up." She thinks it's that simple.

"Fine, I'll try. And you're lucky cause Han's gonna be watching over me like a hawk."

"Good cause sadly you need a babysitter. You're not smart enough to think off your own actions."

"Do we have to be so harsh about it?"

"Yes Maya, yes I do because I don't want you to let distance come between us- No I won't LET IT!" Her voice was starting to sound more hostile than sincere and cause of that, I began to feel guilty.

"Guess I needed to hear that. In fact I changed my mind."

"About what?"

"I do want you to come over."

"I thought you were afraid to let go."

"I don't have to. I just thought I did." I swear I could feel Em's mood change over the phone. IT made me feel better.

"Did Hanna talk to you?" Every time I get a change of heart she swears its cause of her and she's usually right, because Han gives great advice.

"Yes, but I really felt like I should let you come over."

"Well good cause whether you liked it or not, I was gonna surprise you and slap some sense into your head, but I guess I don't have to now."

"Well feel free to come now cause I really wanna see you."

"Me too. See you in a few."

Once I hung up with Em I felt a little better about college but I was wondering if that was gonna last. But before I could think anymore thoughts, the doorbell rang. I didn't hear the voice but I heard my mom in the distance surprise.

"Well hello. I haven't seen you in a long time. I think Maya will be glad to see you." I swear to god if it's Selena I'm filing a lawsuit. But before I could trip, my heart nearly skipped 2 beats because of who it was.

"Hello Maya."

"Justin," I said nearly shaking.

"I'm so glad I found you."

~OMG TO THE MAXX EXTREME! JUSTIN FOUND MAYA! That's as far as ima go tho cause I dnt wanna keep asking questions at the end of my stories unless you guys like that? But I have to say WAT R YALLS REACTIONS XDD and how bad do you think Em's gonna freak out! STAY TUNED! Here's wats coming up:

*Justin comes face to face with Em

*Maya's past with Justin is revealed

*Em has to protect Maya like Maya did for Em about Paige in my other story

*Han will help too

*Some other parts of Maya's history will be revealed becuz of Maya's history with Justin

;)))