Dan's P.O.V
"Yeah, okay, bye" I said smiling and ended the call. I dranks some coffee from the cup and lifted my gaze to Phil, who looked curious. "It was Chris", I said and Phil smiled, waiting for me to say something more. "And he is coming over with PJ tonight", I added and saw how Phil's smile dropped. "Wh-what?" I asked a bit scared.
"No-nothing, I just", he said, but didn't continue. I sighed and placed my cup down on the breakfast bar.
"Do you want to tell them?" I asked, 'cause I knew what was wrong. Phil acted weird every time I talked about us as a couple, or tried to speak him about telling other people about our relationship. We became a couple only a few days ago, and I didn't want to rush. Especially when Phil didn't want that. I just wanted Phil to be happy.
"No, I don't", he said. I knew the answer already, so it didn't surprise me at all. I nodded and drank my coffee again. "Dan, I'm sorry. I'm just scared, 'cause nobody knows that I'm gay", Phil said, trying to make me feel better.
"You don't have to be sorry. You are ready when you are. I get that", I said without looking at Phil. Of course I wanted to tell about us to everyone. I wanted to tell how much I love Phil, and how happy I am with him. But first of all, I wanted Phil to be happy.
"You don't know, but my dad is homophobic, and he would kill me if he finds out that his own son is gay", Phil said quietly. I lifted my gaze to him again. "I'm afraid that nobody would accept me if they would knew that I'm gay. I'm afraid that everybody would hate me, and I-I don't want that", Phil continued and I saw the fear in his eyes. He turned his gaze down, 'cause he was afraid to look at me in the eyes.
"I accept you, and I'm pretty sure nobody cares that one guy in London is gay" I said. I didn't want that Phil thinks that nobody would accept him. I accept him, and probably our fans wouldn't mind if we were together. "And you shouldn't care about what other people think about you. All that should matter is what you think", I added and smiled a bit. I stood up and left my cup there. I went to the hall and grabbed my jacket. "Phil, are you coming? We need to get something to cook for the evening", I shouted from the hall and smiled when Phil walked behind the corner.
Phil's P.O.V
"What if they know something? What if they know that we are together?" I asked from Dan, and I really started to be worried. Dan laughed a bit and hugged me.
"How could they know about us? We haven't told anybody, and when we were out of the flat, we didn't act like a couple", Dan said calming me down. "And with Chris and PJ, we're not acting like a couple, 'cause you don't want them to know, and I appreciate your decision", he added and kissed me on the cheek. He always knew how to calm me down. I heard the doorbell rang and pulled away from Dan.
"I'll go get it, you take care of the food", I said and pointed to the oven. Then I walked to the lobby and opened the door to see Chris and PJ smiling at me. "Welcome", I said and let them step inside our house.
"Thanks. It's been way too long since we met last time", Chris said and I surprised when he decided to hug me. I smiled back at them both and let them walk in to the livingroom. I was about to walk in to the kitchen to see how Dan was doing, but PJ stopped me.
"So what's with you and Dan?" he asked. I looked at him and felt scared. What the hell was he saying? Did he know about me and Dan? "What did you say to him? I mean, you told me he loves you and I just want to know what you said?" he tried to explain. I nodded thinking what I should answer.
"I said him that we are friends, and he said he understood. So we are still best friends, nothing more", I said and tried to smile a bit, so I didn't look like I was lying, like I was. PJ nodded and smiled at me encouraging. I walked to the kitchen, where Dan was just setting the table. "I can do the rest, you go to entertain our guests", I said and forced him to leave the kithcen. I got the dinner ready and I invited the guys to eat.
"So, can I ask you, what happened to your arms?" Chris asked and pointed to Dan, who was blushing. I felt how Dan's hand was looking for my hand under the table, and I grabbed it squeezing it a little bit. "Or do I just shut up?" he added and smiled. He didn't want to seem too curious.
"No, I just tripped on the stairs and hurt my hands, nothing important", Dan said and smiled a bit. Chris didn't ask about them anymore, and we continued chatting cheerfully. We lost the track of time.
"Oh shit, it's almost half past eleven, we should leave now", PJ said still laughing at Dan, who told how he could have llama sex, but not lamb sex, like he always said. "You are just little bit too crazy", he added, talking to Dan. PJ and Chris stood up and went to the hall. I followed them with Dan and we said our goodbyes to them.
"So we are alone", Dan said smiling at me, when Chris and PJ had left. I smiled back at him and placed my hands on his hips. "And they didn't guess anything", he said and kissed me gently on the lips.
"I just forgot my-", I heard PJ, who didn't end his sentence. Dan and I turned our gazes to PJ, who was at the door, staring at us. I couldn't move. I knew this was gonna kill me. Telling people that I was gay, it just didn't feel right.
