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Chapter 12:
It didn't take long to reach the Cullen house. I knew I just needed to talk to someone, someone who wasn't part of the pack, preferably one of the guys because they had more of a chance of understanding. As much as I enjoyed Alice's company on certain occasions I didn't want her company now which sounds horrible. Alice just always seemed to believe in love conquering all, and at a time like this, when I feel like love can't survive anything, I didn't need her reminding me all of the beauties of love and how I should go for it with Jake anyways.
I stand outside of the house, feet from the door, and lean against the tree. I know that someone would sense my presence, and that lucky someone would get the chance to hear my stupid, dramatic story.
Edward walks out in seconds upon my arrival. He holds his arms out, as if gesturing for me to run into them, I give in. I rush to him and my face rests comfortably on his chest. His arms wrap around me, his thumb slowly rubbing patterns into my back. He whispers soothing, comforting sounds as we stand there not moving. "I know everything that happened," Edward whispers reassuringly, "it's going to be okay Leah."
I look up to him fighting tears. "Am I completely stupid Edward?" I ask.
He shakes his head, "you are not the least bit stupid." He rubs my back gently once more. "I probably would have done the same thing had I been in your situation."
"I knew you would understand," I whisper. I feel Edward tense up, he had heard something I had missed. I look around; my eyes rest on a familiar silhouette. I walk out of Edward's arms to get a better sight; I want to be sure and leave no room for questioning.
Jake's form slowly cleared up and I could see every detail of him as he got close enough that I could feel his heat radiating from his body. I hear the Cullen front door open and close, Alice or Jasper must have informed everyone what was going on. I didn't take my eyes from Jake. He seems to be struggling with what exactly to say. My breaths would catch in my throat just before I released each one of them. My heart pounded fast. I couldn't stand this anticipation any longer. "What do you want Jake?" I say and I immediately hate how miserable my voice was, but on the bright side, my breaths didn't catch in my throat.
"You-" he begins, "You can't just walk away from me Leah." He says.
"Jakeā¦"I begin but stop when he shakes his head.
"You didn't let me speak before." Jake says. "This," he says pointing his finger between me and him, "Us, it's not all about what you want Leah. I mean it's half about what you want, but I'm the other half." He steps closer, part of me wants to step back, challengingly, but I don't, and I realize that I truly want to be close to him. "If I truly believed you didn't want to be with me, I might have considered letting you go without a fight." He says and steps closer again, further closing the small space between us. "But I can see it in your eyes when you look at me Leah." He moves closer, inches from me, "I can feel it when you touch me and kiss me." His body is now against mine, his hand goes to my cheek, and I wouldn't dare to move. One of his fingers from his other hand traces my lip gently. "You want to be with me, Leah," he whispers, his finger still tracing my lip. I chew on the inside of my lip. Was I that obvious to figure out? I had tried so hard to be unreadable, it would be better for him to believe that I didn't want him. "I love you Leah," he whispers to me, the hand on my cheek slowly falls down the outline of my upper body, it stops on my hip and rests there gently. "When are you going to get that through your stubborn head?" He smiles to me.
I smile at his words. I am filled with more happiness than I thought possible. Maybe his words the night before hadn't sunken in, but his words now, as he held me so gently in his arms after I tried giving up on us, they stuck. He had come after me. I thought I lost the right to be worth chasing after my first love with Sam. I thought that one true love was all you ever got, one, and then the others would just be mediocre in comparison, especially after the whole Declan episode, I thought I was doomed to have crazy romances for the rest of my life. But now Jake is holding me gently, his eyes- the most powerful. I could tell he was trying so hard to be gentle with me, especially after my meltdown and that made me feel the love I held for him more and more. Maybe someone really can be the glue to fix your broken heart.
Jake clears his throat, "now would be a good time to say something," he whispers.
"I-" I struggle to say everything I want, all of these thoughts swirling my head, they scream for me to say each of them all at the same time. I can't function. Different parts of my brain are focusing on other things besides speaking. I want to remember every single detail of this moment. One part focuses on his slightly calloused hands. One of his hands stands resting on my hip gently in the most perfect spot. His hand cups it perfectly and everything about this hand on my hip screamed that we could start dancing at any moment full of passion and love, it made me so much more excited. His other hand had now taken my hand gently, he didn't want to seem like he was pressuring me or that he would be rough with me. His thumb had begun drawing tiny shapes on the back of my hand as my hand rested on his. It doesn't take me long to figure out that the shapes are hearts. Another part of my brain is focused on the background. I'm sure the whole Cullen family was watching and maybe even the pack had come after hearing word about it. I don't dare look though, I am focused on the beautiful, amazing creature in front of me. I glance up for seconds to look at the stars shining above us as if they are sending their approval. The wind blows and my hair goes around my face but then rests back in place. I am grateful to this, any other time I would have prayed for the wind to mess up my hair so that he could possibly touch me when he moved it back into place, but I don't want him moving at all. Another part is focusing on the radiating heat between Jake and I, the warmth is so comforting, it developed around us and it stayed around us like a blanket keeping out the harsh cold. The last part of my brain is still focusing on those mesmerizing eyes, I don't know what it was about those eyes that drew me in so much. Maybe it is the fact that they reminded me of hot chocolate on a cold, snowy day. Or maybe it was the way they always seemed to look at me like they've never looked at anyone else. I'm not sure, but I know that if I don't figure out something to say, he'll leave.
"I love you Jake," I whisper, barely audible.
He hears it though; a smile draws itself across his face. His hand leaves my hip quickly, I would have been upset but it quickly goes to my neck, his thumb resting on my lower jaw. He pulls me to him and our lips collide like the waves of a sea during a hurricane, he isn't worried about being gentle right now and I'm happy with that. Part of the reason I love Jake and I together is the fact that we are passionate, we fight, we are impulsive and we take what we want. I kiss him back passionately, my tongue entering his mouth urgently, I need his taste. I feel as if I was on a long walk in the desert and I finally strike water and it is the most thrilling feeling of my life. As the kiss continues, the hand Jake is holding grips tight throughout the passion of the kiss. I smile through the kiss as his hand grips mine harder and harder as if it was a physical expression of the passion he feels inside. The hand leaves my neck and glides down my spine and travels across my back, it hooks on my hip and pulls me closer and even when I'm completely against him, he tries pulling me closer and closer. I hear giggles, resembling both the pack and the coven and I know my predictions were correct about the pack members showing up.
As the kiss continues, I suddenly realize that I should have never compared Jake to Declan, they are completely different, the way they touched me is completely different. The way Declan touched me was abusive, and bossy, as if he was showing me that I was his and no one else could have me. As for Jake, yes he touched me roughly, but his were always passionate as if he was worried he would lose me if he didn't act fast.
When we finally break apart, we look to each other panting and smile. Jake leans his face close to my ear, his lips brush against my earlobe as he whispers, "I've wanted to kiss you like that my whole life." I smile. His head buries itself into the nape of my neck and sweetly kisses it. He bites it playfully but then goes rigid. "Sorry, it's hard to contain myself sometimes," he whispers, "I'll try to be better."
I shake my head and lean my face close to his earlobes so that my lips brush his ear as I speak, "You don't have to be gentle with me Jake," I whisper to him. "Not any more. I love you. Come on," I whisper urgently. I pull on him to follow me.
I turn to the crowd of the people who care about me and smile. I pull Jake more urgently.
He stops, I try pulling him, I fail, I try again, he chuckles. "Where are we going Lee?" He asks.
I lean close to his ear once again, "my room," I whisper and nip his ear playfully. I look to his face to see his eyes wide open.
"Really?" He asks and it's obvious he wasn't expecting this which makes it that much cuter.
I bite my bottom lip, attempting to look seductive. I nod slowly. I run my hands down his chest slowly. I lean in close and giggle. "I want you Jake."
He smiles big and sweeps me into his arms as if I was as light as a feather. I lean against his chest as he runs toward my house excitedly. I watch as the stars fly by in the sky as if they are all shooting stars. I smile and I know that it couldn't get better than this. I smile even bigger as I think about making love to Jake.
Right here, in Jake's arms, with the stars running across the sky, I know that I couldn't be happier, and that this is what everyone talks about, this feeling in me that anything is possible and that I'm safe. For me there is only one, his name his Jacob Black. We were destined to be together, I know from the way he touched me, kissed me, and this feeling in me. Relief washes through me the moment I realize there won't be another Declan, Jake would never let anything happen to me, I am forever his.
Jake looks down to me, his eyes burning with passion and anticipation as he continues to run. I smile as I think the phrase I had grown so fond of hating. And they lived happily ever after.
The End.
A/N: Hey everyone! I hope you all enjoyed this. It's been a pleasure writing this. I must say I didn't know how great it would turn out, but I think I did pretty good with the ending. It's been lovely writing this and getting the reviews from you guys, I really appreciate this. I hope you all enjoyed it. (: Reviews? Possibly? Should I write another blackwater fic? Thoughts? All of you readers are beautiful and I thank you for sticking with me. (: Love you guys, Courtney.
