Paul
Varjak: I love you.
Holly Golightly: So what.
Paul Varjak: So
what? So plenty! - Breakfast At Tiffany's
Scarlett:
Rhett, if you go, where shall I go? What shall I do?
Rhett Butler:
Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn - Gone With The Wind
There were plenty of emotions Nathan could be feeling, but the one he was feeling was odd. Excitement and fear plagued his heart, but he was ready for this. Yes, it was going to be a living a hell and Nathan knew that Haley hated this idea, but he had nothing left but this. The door swung open and there was the Brooke Davis , looking as fierce as ever. The minute she met his eyes, Nathan was sure that Haley had divulged on their past. He groaned inwardly as she kissed Lucas . " Nathan Scott ."
"You rang?" He replied sarcastically.
She scowled and walked inside the house, not even bothering to invite them in. Lucas turned to face Nathan , "I guess we should - yeah." It was strange being in Haley 's apartment, actually having to live with her. As far as he could tell, Haley was hiding. That didn't surprise Nathan , because he knew that she was deeply upset by this, because really, who wouldn't be? A heavy sigh escaped his lips as he stood there awkwardly, waiting for Brooke to appear. "Alright, so Haley has taken a vow of silence and will not be coming out." Lucas stifled back a laugh. " Nathan , you can go and do whatever," He eyed her strangely. " Lucas and I have a lot of catching up to do before I leave."
"What?" Nathan replied confused. Yes, he knew what they were about to do, but what is this about leaving? "Leaving for where?"
Her expression took on that of completely flustered. "I - I" she stumbled, turning toward Lucas . "I thought you told him!"
"I was going to!" He replied back. "I just didn't know how..."
Nathan wasn't dumb, he knew that there was more to this arrangement then they had explained. Neither spoke up at first, but then it was good ole Lucas . "Well, you see, Brooke is going to be staying at your place in California , while you stay here..."
"Fuck no."
Brooke scoffed, rolling her eyes. "Oh, you are being such a douche bag. Anyway, I'm just going to go grab my bags and Lucas , we are out of here!" He sighed. Someone wasn't getting lucky. "We will just have to induct you in the Mile High Club."
"Oh dear sweet Jesus ." Nathan muttered. Not only was he going to be living Haley , but he was completely alone in the matter. "I - I really hate you, Lucas ."
His brother winked at him and gave Brooke a smile when she emerged from the bedroom. "Well, I guess we are going to - bye Nathan !"
And then there were two.
Awkward couldn't even begin to describe how Nathan was feeling. He was to afraid to even move, let alone start messing around in there. God, he hoped that Haley had some type of liquor; because that was the only way he was going to survive this personal hell. He heard a door slam and knew that the Devil herself was approaching. "Where the hell is Brooke ?"
"Uh -" Nathan blinked. How was he supposed to tell her that the only support she had in this was currently on her way to California ? "Well -"
Haley placed her hands firmly on her hips. "Where is she, Nathan ?"
"Currently?" He questioned. "Well, I guess I would have to say she is currently having sex in the bathroom of the plane that is going to California ..."
"WHAT?!" Haley shrieked.
"Woman, you need to calm down. She is living in my damn house. If anyone has the right to complain it's me!" Nathan pointed to himself. Ha, there was no way she was going to beat that.
She rolled her eyes and flopped down on the couch. "I am going to die."
"Drama queen." Nathan said with a smirk. "Should I start writing your obituary?"
There was no way he was going to be able to deal with this is. Sure, he was in love with the girl, but she made him way too angry. How was he supposed to live with her? Nathan couldn't deny the fact that she looked beautiful. Her hair was thrown up in a messy bun and she was in a pair of sweats and a Duke t-shirt, but she was gorgeous. "What do you have to eat around here?"
"Nothing fatso. I am on a fast." Haley said with a cheesy smile. "I guess you are going to have to go shopping."
Nathan groaned. Why was she making things so difficult? "Seriously Hales, I am freakin' starving."
"I think I have -" She hopped up off the couch and walked in the kitchen. "Hm, well apparently I do not shop that much, but we have ice cream!"
He made a face. "I guess that works..."
"Yum, okay!" Haley chirped back. Boy, that girl had a serious mood disorder. She could go from bitching to completely happy in a matter of seconds. Nathan wasn't about to complain, though. A happy Haley was better then an angry, psycho Haley . She came skipping back with a big bowl and two spoons. "What movie do you want me to put in?"
Nathan shrugged, not really feeling up to a movie. "Oh my God!" Haley giggled as if she thought of a brilliant idea. "I will be right back!"
"Okay?" He sighed. There was no use trying with Haley , because in the end nothing good would come of a relationship. A few moments later she returned, smiling slyly. She had something hidden behind her back. "What are you hiding, woman?"
She huffed in frustration. "Guess." A wide smile appeared on her face and suddenly Nathan remembered.
"Oklafuckinghoma." Nathan couldn't help but laugh, only Haley James . "Are you kidding me?"
Haley shook her head and put the movie in. "No, I am not." She was still smiling when she sat down on the couch, far away from Nathan . Sure, she was being nice, but they were no near ready for close contact. Not after the fact that he ignored her after their date. "Is this not the best movie ever?"
"I suppose so," Nathan muttered, his arms folded across his chest. "Boy, it's been a long time since I have seen this." It was nice being there with Haley , enjoying the last drip of youth in them. Nathan honestly couldn't remember the last time he just sat and enjoyed someone else's company. A smile couldn't help but appear on his face as he saw how happy Haley was. Her eyes were bright and wide and it was as if she was ten years old all over again. "I'm sorry about all this."
She shrugged, not turning to look at him. "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn."
"I thought that was supposed to be my line?" Nathan smirked. She really thought he didn't know what infamous movie she was quoting. "Woman, you are no Scarlet or Rhett Butler for that matter." Haley giggled and crossed her legs to sit Indian style. "Lovely accident you got there, New Jersey ?"
Haley looked at Nathan for a moment and then broke out into hysterical laughter, she even snorted once or twice. "Screw Oklahoma we are freakin watching Dumb and Dumber. Nathan , I cannot - oh my God. I don't even know why it's so funny."
"She wrote me a john-dear letter...something about me not listening enough; I don't know...I wasn't really paying attention." Nathan quoted again, causing Haley to laugh once more. It was good that they did this, considering it was something in their past that was memorable.
"Oh!" Haley squealed excitedly. "I bet you won't know this one!"
Nathan scoffed. "Try me!"
"PC Load Letter - what the fuck does that mean?" She smirked as Nathan sat in deep thought. There was no way that Haley was going to beat him in their infamous game. "HA!" Haley laughed heartedly. "I got you."
He rolled his eyes. "OH!" Nathan shook his fist in frustration. "Dammit, I know this. OFFICE SPACE!"
"Ugh, you suck. Your turn!" Haley said as she moved closer to him. Nathan pretended like he didn't notice how sexy she was looking, but he couldn't think that way. "Well -?"
"I wish I knew how to quit you." His face was stern and void of emotion. Haley at first was a bit taken back, but then she realized the movie. "Well, I guess it would have been better if you were a dude, but hey. I still rule. Oh, I have another one." Haley couldn't help but smile at how Nathan was acting. For the first time in ages he looked genuinely happy.
Maybe it was the fact that they were spending time doing something simple, but yet held so much of who they were. Simplicity and laugher; mixed in with a whole mess of problems. "If I'm not back in five minutes... just wait longer!"
Haley snorted in amusement. She hated admitting the fact that she was indeed quite surprised at how carefree Nathan had become. Who would have thought they would switch places. " Jim Carrey fan much?" He gave her a genuine, but pained smile. There was so much to Nathan that Haley couldn't even begin to understand, but maybe in time she would.
"It's like old times." Nathan said softly, running a hair through his hair in frustration. "God, what happened to us, baby?"
She couldn't help but gasp at his term of endearment. " Nathan , I -"
It took all the strength in the world for Haley to hold back the tears that were burning her eyes. Nathan lay next to her, snoring away, not even aware at how drastically her life had changed. This night, this perfect moment was not supposed to be like this. Nathan, or any guy for that matter, was not supposed to be drunk out of his mind and out cold. Haley blinked as a stray tear slid down her cheek. Her first time was not supposed to be a meaningless screw; it was suppose to be everything. Haley couldn't help but flinch when she felt Nathan's arm grab her and pull her close. Choking back a painful sob, Haley snuggled close to him.
Honestly, she was not sure what got them to this point. She hadn't known Nathan for a very long time, but yet it was so easy to climb into bed with him. All her years of waiting and vowing to save herself for the man she was in love with seemed pointless the moment Nathan kissed her. Haley didn't have any experience but when Nathan was with her it truly felt different. She let out a frustrated sigh, now Haley knew she was just feeding into her delusions.
Her body ached in an unfamiliar way, but she didn't have the guts to get up and leave. Part of the reasons she gave into Nathan was the fear of never having the chance again. Sure, it seemed silly and completely irresponsible, but in some strange way it made sense. Feeling Nathan's arms wrapped tightly around her, she truly felt protected and wanted, like maybe he did need her. "Baby." He moaned quietly, hugging her tightly. "Why aren't you sleeping?"
"Just thinking."
Nathan sat up, rubbing his eyes wearily. "You regret this don't you?"
"Should I?" She questioned meekly. "I - I really don't know what to think right now. This is a lot to take in." It was taking a lot of her strength to hold back what was really on her mind. "You were drunk and I - never mind. I'm being stupid."
He sighed, taking her hand. "You want to know if it meant something to me?" Damn, she hated how well he knew her. "Baby, it meant more to me then you think."
"I'm just scared." Haley admitted somewhat bravely. "This could change us." He nodded in understand. "I know we aren't anything to one another, but I value our friendship more then you could ever imagine."
As tired as he was, Haley could see that he was desperately trying to listen and be coherent. "Hales, you are my best friend." Haley gave him a sheepish grin, trying to hide the tears. "Yes, you frustrate the hell outta me and I think you are an annoying little shit, but god I need you so much." He breathed in deeply. "I love you, seriously." Haley knew he meant it only in a friend way, but the very fact that he said it made her night much easier to handle. "I wish I could say more, but I am really tired. Maybe we can talk in the morning?"
"I'd like that."
