Title: Shattered Innocence

Author: DnKS-giRLs

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: Kanda-Allen

Disclaimers: not ours, even though we want it but, nope… definitely not ours or else we would have made Kanda kiss Allen since the first time those two met. Yep, absolutely not ours…

Warning: though we tell you how stupid and OOC this chapter is, you'll still read, right?

Chapter 12 - Into Your Arms

The crowded hallway suddenly turned silent at the sight of a malevolent looking young man striding in swift pace across the said place. Kanda Yuu was surely angry and people knew it was the best for them to get as far as they could from the person in question. That was exactly what they did, and thus the crowded hallway suddenly became silent.

Kanda swore and brought his fist to the nearby wall. A loud crack was heard and the once perfect white wall now had a small cruel hole on it. He stopped and groaned, not because of the stinging pain that formed rapidly on his fist but rather because of what had he done that put him into his current mood.

He could not believe he had just yelled at Allen. He had never done that to the boy before. True, in the past he often said some harsh words and tantrums to him but never before he fought with him in that manner after they reconciled.

In desperation he brought his hand to his face and swore again. He was standing on the limit of his patience, thanks to those Commanders who had enjoyed themselves in playing with him, and Allen's first greeting at his coming back only made it worse. But he knew he wasn't supposed to yell at him. Allen too had his own share of desperation and compared to him, the boy had it worse.

Kanda blinked and suddenly his anger turned into something else. It turned into a vicious desire of giving those Commanders his revenge. After all, he did say there would be bloodshed, did he not?

He smirked. People knew there would be nothing good came from him when he was smirking callously like that. He continued his steps and after he exited the hallway, he met Rabi who had his face turned white at the sight of him.

Well, speak of the devil…

He grabbed Rabi's hand without concerning the sounds of protest the other made. He dragged him through many hallways and he could see people practically avoiding them as they passed by.

"Yuu… hold on… where are you going to take me to… no, I mean... what the hell do you want to do?" Rabi said as he was being dragged by Kanda.

"As I've said before," Kanda said in his usual tone, "There would be bloodshed. And I recall you have been willingly prearranged yourself in helping me to do this particular job."

Rabi gulped. He knew whenever Kanda spoke civilly with that kind of voice could only mean that he was terribly irritated. And he thought he knew what the cause of his anger was.

"Yuu," Rabi said. "You can't possibly want to really kill those idiots, right?"

Kanda smirked. They had arrived before the double grand doors that lead to the room where the five Commanders always sat high on their thrones.

"No," Kanda said. "I will merely give them the grace of meeting our Holy Father sooner than what it's supposed to be. Isn't that a blessing?"

After that, he kicked the door open and allowed himself to come in, with Rabi still in his grip. The angry voices of the Commanders greeted them as they made their way forward but Kanda gave no thought. He serenely walked until he stopped before the five people who were still screaming their anger at his impolite way of entering the room. With a cool expression, he listened to all the tongue thrashings like a pro and when those people had no other curse to throw to him, he raised his face in the most proud manner he could do.

"Sir, I need us to talk," he said.

"What did you just say?" one of them roared. "Who do you think you are? You cannot just trespass this room like that. Don't you know who we are and what you are?"

"I know that perfectly well, Sir, but I… do simply not give a damn," Kanda said, giving pressure to his last words. Rabi just laughed nervously beside him. Hearing that laugh, Kanda turned his face to his friend and said, "You better activate your innocence, we will need it to… complete our mission later. Who knows what fight they will do?"

"Are you just implying that you will try to kill us?" one of them said.

"No, Sir, not only that," Kanda said. "But speaking about mission reminds me of my actual reason coming to you. Sir, I appeal you giving me no mission before my child is born. I accept as true that you can arrange such thing, am I right?"

"What insolence!" they screamed one by one. "Your job as an exorcist demands you to go to any mission appointed to you!"

"And my position as a father and husband requires me to take care of my family," Kanda said.

"Your situation as our subordinate tells you to always obey us." They retorted.

"My situation as a subordinate tells me to make corrections to my employer whenever they commit felony."

"How dare you saying that we are corrupt people!" one of those five shouted in anger.

"Can I really say that, Sir?" Kanda replied. That statement made them all silent and he used that chance to speak further. "Sir, I hope I can bring our current situation into your consideration. I cannot maintain my mind well placed in my mission when I have a pregnant spouse waiting for me here. If I go to any more missions, my spouse will get depressed. How if, God forbids, his depression deepened until it reached a climax point where our child's life could no longer be saved and, worse, he himself loses his life? If such things happen, Sir, I have no other option than to ask for compensation that, forgive me for saying this, will absolutely cause a great deal of blood loss on your behalf."

"Are you saying that you will kill us if we give you another mission?" the same person who spoke first seethed in anger.

"I believe, Sir, I have never said any of that," Kanda smirked. "Directly."

"What impudence," they hissed. "Curse of the devil. You are dirtying your holy task as an exorcist by denying your mission. May The Spirit open up your mind, child and let you think more rationally."

"With all due respect, Sir, but I have a depressed pregnant spouse while you keep sending me to meaningless missions and now you demand me to be rational?" Kanda said cynically. "Forgive me for saying this but I think you are the ones who are supposed to be more rational."

"At least by doing those missions you can amend the sin you have committed!" one of those people reasoned.

"Ah, so I take, Sir, you gave me missions because in your eyes I am the one who sinned?" Kanda asked.

"You said it that you have the responsibility toward your family. It's your own fault to be allured in perpetrating such a great sin so that you now find yourself in this predicament," another one replied.

"But if I recall carefully, Sir, you were the ones agreed in bringing us together in a holy sacrament of matrimony, thus the state of my being a husband is also your deed," Kanda retorted. "Furthermore I believe we are all sinners before the eyes of God so if you, dear gentlemen, can punish my sin by assigning missions to me, I can do the very same thing by not completing those missions you assigned to me, am I right in my statement?"

Kanda really enjoyed this far better that he hoped earlier. He loved seeing how those Commanders had their face reddened in anger and he just coolly stared at them. He noticed how Rabi kept silent beside him with a little fear laced his face but he cared none of it. Why should he fear those people? They knew exactly that he was completely able to do something drastic without fearing the result; they were the ones who were supposed to fear him.

"That's a profanity!" they roared. "An exorcist must always try to complete all the missions given to him!"

"I will try, Sir, but in my current condition I cannot assure you that I will be able to keep my mind undivided about the mission regarding the pressure I have of my family's well-being," Kanda said. "Hence, I too cannot assure you the accomplishment of my missions. Concerning the sake of this organization and all human being, I consider it is best for you to comprehend my suggestion and give me no more missions before my child is born."

"And if we do not want to do as what you have suggested?" they said.

"I am afraid that I have never given you any choice, Sir," Kanda replied with his alarming voice. "You will absolutely grant my request."

Keeping his glare to the five people above him, Kanda could see they were practically having a battle in their mind of whether they would grant his request or not. They could not just use their superiority toward him because he was Kanda Yuu, and he yielded to no one, Allen excluded. And he knew that fact was well known to those people.

He smirked. His victory was drawing near.

"We need to think of accepting your words," finally one of them spoke. "Because we need your aid as an exorcist and you must realize that your missions come before everything. It's a complex matter and we believe you know that too. Can you accept that?"

Kanda visibly drew his sword from its sheath before he gave his coldest glare to those Commanders, saying, "I fear, Sir, that I too need to think of accepting your words."

Kanda nodded mockingly. Rabi was hardly trying to suppress his laughter. And those Commanders cringed on their thrones. After seemingly long time of intensified pressure, in the end Kanda could hear a sharp intake of breath coming from those people.

"Very well then, you can have it as you like!" they said. "We will give you no mission before your child is born, you can be together with your family, and you can have them all. Now just draw back your sword and go! Impudence child. May God forgive you for this!"

And Kanda did so. He drew back his sword and bowed to those people in the way that made them know he did that purely for sarcastic purpose.

"I am so glad, Sir, that finally we are on the same field of agreement," he said. "I will excuse myself now, but I have some last words to give."

With a smirk that only devil himself could muster Kanda said civilly, "No matter what you have said or done, my sentiment toward you is still standing, that is to say, the very same sentiment I held when I entered this room a while ago. Good day, gentlemen, may God always be with us."

And with no more word, he dragged Rabi out the room. He took pleasure in the angry sounds coming from the inside of the room but kept walking from there nonetheless. That day really was not that bad, he even did not need to spill any drop of blood, though if words could kill, he was sure those people must have been dead several times that day. Now, he just needed to clear things up between him and Allen.

"Good gracious, Yuu!" he heard Rabi said. "I almost thought you would surely kill those people."

"I did think about it," Kanda pondered. "That's why I dragged you so I could use your body to shield mine if those people start resisting."

At that statement Rabi's face grew extremely white. Kanda watched this in amusement and said, "It was just a joke."

"Seriously Yuu, God forgot to include the ability to joke when He created you so don't ever try to do it again," Rabi said in fear.

Kanda only shrugged but he released his grip on Rabi's wrist shortly after. The other gave him a roll of his eyes before he walked away from him, muttering about what a lovesick person he was. Kanda's face twitched at that and it was not his fault that suddenly his sword flew to Rabi's direction and only missed by a hair's breadth from the other's head who laughed merrily and ran from him.

If his hands were not so full with Allen he would have chased the other boy. However he had his more important business that he needed to clear thus he wiped away the idea of killing Rabi to the back of his mind. Allen was the most important problem now. But even as he considered over it, Kanda realized that he had no thought of what he was supposed to do to finish the problem between them.

He cursed and closed his eyes for a moment. Somehow facing Allen made him more anxious than facing those Commanders. No, anxious was not the right word. He felt… confused.

Kanda pressed his lips together and braved himself to walk to the room where he had left Allen earlier. Not knowing what to do, he glanced to the inside of the room by the crack of the door. He saw Allen was still inside and apparently the boy had been crying.

He cursed, far louder than what he intended to do. Allen seemed to notice his sound for just after that his shaky voice came from the room.

"Who is it?"

Kanda knew he had no way to run now so he opened the door and invited himself to come in. At the sight of him entering the room, Allen's breath hitched in his throat. He detected that but he acted as if he saw none of it. He approached Allen until finally he was seated in front of the boy and stared at his face more closely.

He could see streaks of dried tears on the other's face with a few of them still wet with tears that forming and falling rapidly from the corner of his eyes. He extended his hand to touch the cheek of the boy who tried in futile to avoid his gaze.

"You're crying," he merely stated, not asked, with a bitter voice.

"Am not," Allen whispered. But even as he said those words tears kept falling from his eyes.

"I was not supposed to yell at you," Kanda said remorsefully. "I've done something unforgivable."

"No, Yuu... I am the one who have done wrong to you… I mean…" Allen stuttered. "I'm sorry… I shouldn't have been angry at you earlier. I… what you said is true, I'm just being selfish… I know it wasn't your fault that your mission got prolonged, but…"

Kanda saw how Allen bit his lower lip and that teary face raised up to meet his face.

"We really missed you," he said before his face produced a bright smile. "Welcome back."

"I'm home," Kanda said before he opened his arms. He watched in thankfulness as Allen launched himself into his embrace. He too had missed the other and he was glad that they could settle their problem in such a smooth way. He was relieved that Allen could so easy forgive him. It always amazed him how Allen could always forgive him no matter what wrong he had done to the boy.

He wrapped his arms tighter around Allen's form. He noticed that so many things had changed in the other's feature during his leaving; the most noticeable part was his rounded belly. He just couldn't believe that he had left for almost two months already before coming back home.

"How far along are you now?" he asked.

"Over six month," Allen answered. "In about three months from now I should be giving birth."

Kanda thought about it for a moment then said, "I promise you that I will never leave you again until our child is born."

"No, Yuu…" Allen looked at him in uncertainty. "Don't give me promise that you cannot fulfil. I know you are an exorcist and what can assure you that you will have no mission for the period of the time you mentioned?"

"I will have no mission," Kanda smirked. "Those Commanders have said so."

Kanda saw how Allen eyeing his smirk in hidden nervousness, "You threatened them?"

Kanda decided not to answer that and instead he chose to run his fingers through Allen's long soft hair. Allen sighed at the other's silence and thought that as Kanda's way of saying 'yes'.

"Why?" he asked which made Kanda stopped running his fingers through his hair.

"Why what?" Kanda asked back.

"Why did you do it? Why did you threaten those people not to give you any mission? Why did you do such thing for me?" Allen asked timidly and Kanda sighed.

"Well, bean sprout, I know this might sound cheap but…" he made sure that Allen look straight into his eyes before saying, "I love you."

Kanda observed how Allen was stunned because of his words then he began to laugh. At first it was just a small chuckle but soon it developed into a full laugh that rocked his form that was still resided in his embrace.

"Stop laughing, I'm serious," Kanda grunted.

"No, I'm just…" Allen said between his laughter. "It's been so long since the last time you called me bean sprout and… you have never before said 'I love you' until I came to a thought that you could never say such thing."

"I still don't get it why you laugh," Kanda said.

"Oh, Yuu…" Allen smiled in sheer happiness. "Say it again."

"What? Bean sprout?" Kanda smirked.

"No, the other one!" Allen pouted which made him want to snicker.

"No," he stated firmly.

"Yuu!"

"I said no."

"You're just embarrassed, aren't you?"

"Teasing me will never work."

"You're no fun." Allen said and turned his face from him. Seeing that, Kanda turned his face back to its original position facing him and once it was done he placed his lips upon Allen's. He gave the startled boy a deep kiss that left them both panting for air when finally they ended the kiss. He saw how Allen's face flushed and his eyes widened in shock at the passionate kiss he had just received. And, enjoying all of those, he brought his face closer to the boy and whispered in his ear.

"I love you."

- end chapter 12 -

(A/N: there's storm outside, dammit, let's just hope this computer will not get a lightning strike… and so, we finally come to the twelfth chapter of Shattered Innocence... hope you like what you read and we are still expecting your reviews as always...)