Chapter 12, Sierra POV:
Everything just happened to fast since then. That weekend I sulked in misery of my stupid actions, I should have known. This was all my fault. And I ignored everyone. I really mean everyone, except Charlie when he called to check up on me and I told him I was fine, it was a short conversation, as usual.
Anyway Sunday night I was just checking over all of my messages and stuff and found I had so many and so many missed calls. Basically everyone. Mostly from Claire, Emily, Kim, Leah and to my dismay Jacob. I didn't even look just turned my phone back off.
When Monday morning came I was tired. I didn't want to go to school or anything but I did it. I changed quickly, got my stuff, had breakfast and left the house.
As I arrived in school I went to class extra early. Claire came storming in about ten minutes later. "What is up?" she asked me seriously.
I turned my gaze to her, "What?"
She seemed fustrated, "Don't give me that, 'what' you know what I mean. And I know you have been avoiding my calls."
"Yeah, I had a rough weekend." I didn't want to really talk about it but Claire was Claire and she would get it out of me one way or another.
"Yeah. So what the fuck happened between you and Jake?" she asked.
"Hey, watch your mouth." I told her smiling a bit trying to lighten the mood. "And nothing."
"Nothing? You and I and everyone else knows that is so not true."
"What do you mean?" I was curious to know everyone knew the short version or the whole full story.
"Well," she looked conflicted then. "About you and Jake. About how you.."
"How I what?"
"You know," I rolled my eyes. I loved Claire but I wished that she would just come out with it already.
"You mean how I kissed him right?"
She nodded, "Yeah."
"Wonderful." I said sarcastically putting my hands in my head.
"It's not that bad."
"Not that bad," I hissed. "You are joking right? Yeah, not that bad. It's not that bad," I rolled my eyes. "Your right it is terrible."
"Sierra, it's okay. Jake he..." I held up my hand to stop her from talking, I didn't want to hear anymore.
"No, just stop. I don't want to talk to or about Jake."
"That's why you ignored his text messages."
There was no point in lying, "Yeah. Well not really I didn't see it until last night I had my phone off."
"You should read them when you go home."
"Can't."
"Why?" she wondered curiously.
"I deleted them."
"Why would you do that?"
"Because I didn't want to see them or anything. Ugh, the guys probably thing I am insane and I need help or something."
"Just the opposite actually," I didn't understand. She said that they knew.
"I don't understand."
"They actually thing that it's Jake. You know that he is the crazy one, that is what they think." I didn't understand why, oh yeah because he ran from me and didn't tell Charlie. Whatever.
"Oh."
"Yeah anyways you too need to talk."
"No."
"You can not hide from him. You know you can't hide from him. Besides it's Jacob."
"I'm not hiding just avoiding."
"You too need to talk."
"I don't want to talk to him, I wish you would just listen to me when I tell you that and leave it alone," I told her. I didn't mean to be so mean it's just... I... I felt like a complete idiot. She just didn't understand.
"Sorry," I apologized. "I just do not want to talk about it, kay. Anyways how was your weekend with Quil?"
"Fine. We didn't really talk. I was to worried about you and he was with the guys and Jake."
"Sorry."
"No biggee. Anyways, why did you ignore all of our calls. I can maybe understand Jacob but, what the hell? Why the rest of us?"
"I wasn't in the mood to talk."
"Yeah, I guess I can kind of understand. If that happened with Quil and I, I wouldn't want to talk to anyone either."
"Hopefully you never have to go through that. I can't face him Claire. I just cant."
"He isn't mad at you. I promise. He just wants to talk to you."
"Yeah, sure. I don't want to talk to him though, I am such an idiot."
"Know your not and if I ever hear you call yourself that again, I will slap you!" I took her threat seriously and just rolled my eyes at her. She was crazy. At times I felt bad for Quil a little.
Eventually we just stopped talking because the day had begun. I was quite through out each class. Even through Volleyball practice. I was glad when I just got to go home and be alone.
I sulked in my bedroom for a little bit just mentally cursing myself out. How could I be stupid? A part of me knew that it was just a stupid little crush that I had on Jake and now everyone knew. I mean I wish he could've spared me and not told anyone.
Then I couldn't blame him. He probably phased after he ended up running out of here and thought about it. It was bound to be found out though. I mean if we just acted weird around each other and I refused to go to La Push or whatever and see him.
Then I could make up a whole bunch of excuses why not to go but still it was just destined to be found out by somebody.
The week passed on and before I knew it, it was Friday. Claire tried to convince me all weekend to come to La Push and I upright refused. Charlie had no idea what was going on but told me Jake had wanted to talk to me, I guess he had called Wednesday when I was in the shower or something.
I still hadn't called him back. When Charlie asked I just kept making up excuses about how I forgot to or something like that.
Anyways it was now Friday, thank god. I was just getting annoyed with being around people. Most of the time I was just in my own deep thoughts and I planned to spend the weekend alone. I hoped that I would be left alone.
Charlie wasn't here yet so I was by myself. I sat in the kitchen and worked on my homework while also working on dinner. I decided to make caserole. While working the phone started ringing and I answered it without looking to see who it was.
After I already said, "Hello," I felt stupid for not checking to see who was calling.
"About time you have answered. I mean damn it, you won't respond to my text's or anything. I was getting worried, maybe I would to come look for you or something,-" I smiled to myself as Leah talked through the phone.
Oh Leah, she was amazing.
"Yeah, sorry. Just had other things on my mind."
"Like Jacob?"
"Leah," I snapped. I really didn't want to talk about this with anyone and especially not her.
"Oh, don't get mad. I was just asking. Anyways you should come down to La Push."
"No thank you," I told her quickly.
"You are going to have to face him sooner or later." I rolled my eyes and kept working. I knew she wasn't going to let this go. I mean she was Leah Clearwater.
"I know that," even though I didn't want to I knew that sooner or later it was going to bound to happen.
"So why not get it done and over with," she asked.
"Because I can't."
"Yes you can."
"No I can't."
"You can."
"I can't." I could tell this was about to turn into a argument.
"Can!"
"Can't!"
"Can!"
"Can't!"
"Yes you can Sierra!"
"CAN NOT!" I screamed into the phone.
"YES YOU CAN DAMMIT!"
"Dammit Leah, that was right in my ear."
"Sorry."
I shrugged to myself, "It's fine."
"So will you come to La Push?"
"Nope."
"Alright then," she had a plan she was working on, I knew her well enough.
"Well I have to go."
"Alright talk to you later."
"Sooner than you thank," she spoke before hanging up. I had no idea what that was supposed to meant but I had a feeling that I would be seeing Leah Clearwater very soon.
