A/N: Thanks for all your love. I hope that I haven't missed any review replies. I'm trying to get everyone. So sorry if I've missed any. Really, thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the comments and love.

Unbeta'd, but you seem to forgive me any errors. I thank you for that, too.

Disclaimer: I wish I owned them, but I don't.

JASPER

I want to be good. I want to be better than I am. But I'm not good, or at least I haven't always been. Certain times in my life, I have been very, very bad. Those times have molded me, changed me, affected me, in ways even my vampire mind can't process.

I cry in solitude, though no tears moisten my cheeks.

I cry for all my sins, too numerous to count. For all the lives I've taken, for all those I haven't taken yet, but will. I cry because I want to be better, but can't. I cry for my indiscretions against Alice. Against Edward.

So many things I am ashamed of. But it's not enough for me to change. Not enough for me to stop what has become of Bella's and mine relationship. I don't know what can absolve me.

Or whom.