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Liv was unsure of where she was going, but she knew she needed to get as far away as possible. She found herself on a dock here she collapsed completely out of breath. Liv wanted to scream, she wanted to cry. She wanted to unleash the wrath of hell on Oliver Carlton Pope.
What was she supposed to say to him? How was she supposed to feel? She had spent her life mourning the loss of the most important man in her life. Seeing him alive made the pain of believing he was dead almost unbearable. She needed Fitz and she needed him now. She turned and her eyes locked with his.
"Talk to me Livvie. What do you need?" Fitz didn't want to interrupt what was clearly a battle going on inside of Olivia's head but he knew she needed him.
Olivia was still lost in his loving gaze when she responded "Make love to me Fitz. Right here, right now, make love to me."
"No." Fitz's response startled Olivia. He had never rejected her before. She needed him to control her mind, her body, and her emotions and he responds with No!
"No? Fitz I need you! Why are you doing this to me?"
"Because Liv, you need to deal with this. We need to deal with this. You can't keep using sex as a way to hide your problems. You can't just turn off what is going on inside of you with an orgasm. You need to sort through this and I am not going anywhere until this is settled. Either you talk to me about this and about Jeffries or there will be no more sex."
Fitz was right and Liv knew it. She couldn't keep hiding her feelings behind sex. Even if it was the best mind blowing, earth shattering sex she had ever had in her life. Liv began crying as she fell to the ground.
"Livvie, please let me in. I'm not going anywhere. I am here, all in remember?" Fitz sat next to Liv and pulled her into to him. Liv crumbled in Fitz's arms and began crying uncontrollably.
"I saw him die Fitz. I watched my father die in an explosion when I was just a little girl." Fitz held her tighter as she continued. "We went out for ice cream and he walked outside to get the car. Wait for me Olivia was the last thing he ever said to me. Now he's here! Harrison is my.. Harrison is my brother that I spent my entire life never knowing I had! I had family Fitz! Right there in front of me and I never knew it. Of course I've always loved him as though he were my brother but to actually find out that he is blood! That is probably what hurts the worst. Now he is inside going through the same emotions and I can't fix it for him. I can't fix it for me."
Fitz sat silent and allowed Liv to speak any and everything that was on her mind. Liv continued "I can't deal with this and Sen Jeffries all in the same week Fitz." Liv's tone was cold, ruthless, Fitz held her as tightly as he possibly could hoping to squeeze this pain from her heart and her memory. "I don't know how much more of this I can take. It was one thing to have to deal with Jeffries. Especially after what had happened."
"What happened Liv?"
Liv told Fitz what transpired between the two of them the night of the Christmas party. Fitz could feel his emotions spinning out of control as he heard the words escape Liv's mouth. He was afraid to ask but he knew there was more to this story. More than just a drunken advance at a Christmas party.
"What else happened with Jeffries Liv? What are you not telling me? If we are going to get through this, you have to let all of this out."
Liv hesitated for a minute before continuing. "After I left Jeffries office I began working with a firm just outside of DC. I came home one day to my apartment in Aberdeen and he was inside waiting for me. He had no idea that Abby was staying with me at the time, but he was there. As soon as I walked through the door he attacked me. If it weren't for Abby coming home with Stephen that night I..."
"Shh, you don't have to finish that sentence Liv. I know that there is nothing that I can say that will erase the pain that you have experienced in your life. All I can do is promise you that no matter what happens, I will never leave your side. I know that I have hurt you in the past, and that is something that I will have to live with forever. You need to understand that I am not like those men. You are my world and you always will be."
"I know Fitz. I just, I spent so much time believing that my body was the only positive thing I had going for me. I knew that I was smart, I also knew that men didn't care about that. That is until I met Cyrus. He was the first man in my life that wasn't after me for just sex. Working with him, I learned that I am worth more than my sex, and I have more to give to the world. I learned to reject men and focus on me. However, when a man is drunk and wants what he wants, but through Cyrus, I learned to say no. Up until yesterday, I wasn't sure how you viewed me. I've always been the woman on the side regardless of you saying otherwise. I felt like you were just like all of the other men in my life and I was just some toy for you to play with when you were bored or lonely or horny."
"Liv, I-"
"I know that now Fitz, but it took your unshaken love for me for me to see that. Honestly, I find it to be very sexy in a man." Liv reached up and began to kiss Fitz gently on his mouth. A soft moan escaped Fitz's mouth and Liv began kissing him harder crushing her lips against his. She straddled him to gain better leverage, and Fitz responded by grabbing her by the waist and pulling her closer. He returned her kisses with just as much passion and intensity as Liv's while claiming her tongue with his.
They broke their kiss when they heard the rustling of leaves nearby. They looked up to see her team walking towards them. Abby was the first to rush by Liv as she removed herself from Fitz's lap.
"Liv, are you ok? Do you need to talk?" It was unlike Abby to be at a loss for words. This made Liv even more nervous than the situation she had to deal with back at the cabin.
"I'm fine Abbs. Fitz helped me sort through some things in my mind and I feel like I could handle anything." Wiping her tear stained cheeks, Liv rose and gave Abby and Quinn a hug. Huck joined in and they pulled Fitz in as well. "I love you guys. All of you are my family. No matter what this right here plus Harrison is the family that has been keeping me going for so many years. Before all of you I was all alone. I'm going to head back up to the cabin and talk to Harrison. Fitz, do whatever you have to do, but your guest needs to get it done and then leave. I'm not ready right now. I can't."
"Liv, you may not have another shot at this."
Liv looked at Huck pondering the words he had just spoken.
"Why is that Huck?"
"Liv, your father didn't leave you or Harrison to hurt you. He left you to save your lives."
"No wife, no children." In that moment it hit Liv. "He is B6-13 isn't he?"
"I am not at liberty to say. You know there's a code Liv. Whatever he tells you will not leave this camp, but you must understand that this may be your only chance to see him ever again."
"Huck, please just tell me this. Did he choose to leave me?"
"Liv for a branch of the government that does not technically exist, there are no choices."
Liv nodded understanding the lines Huck laid for her to read between. Liv took a deep breath and headed towards the cabin.
"Good job Huck. I would never have been able to handle the situation the same as you." Fitz thanked Huck with a sincere handshake, and the team along with Fitz made their way back to the cabin.
"You do realize that we are about to walk into the eye of the storm. If you think Olivia Carolyn Pope is going to keep quiet, you may want to hang back for a min."
"Huck's right Fitz, there is no way that 20 yrs of frustration will be silenced." Quinn paused for a moment before she added "May God have mercy on that man's soul."
Realizing that thy were right Fitz nodded and all four of them raced towards the cabin. "Please God let me get there in time".
