Missed - Chapter 12
Things have been going well since I brought Ana home from the hospital. Her sickness has gone and she's really gained some weight in the last few months.
When she reached around four months it became obvious that Ana's body was changing, so we finally decided to tell the children about their new sibling.
Unfortunately Olivia failed to fully understand and Teddy immediately got angry by the happy news. I tried to include him in some of the decisions regarding the baby but sadly he could not be consoled.
Since then Teddy has been particularly difficult and not himself, he's subdued but prone to tantrums when things go awry. I've been so concerned I asked my Mom for advice and even talked with Flynn about his sudden moods.
Ana has been left to deal with him since I've been swapped with work. It's so crazy at home that I've started dreading walking inside the front door because I never know what I'm going to find.
The other day I arrived home unusually early to find the house in complete chaos. Teddy was screaming blue murder, Olivia was sobbing inconsolably and Ana was slumped over, holding her head in her hands.
I was so cross that Teddy had upset his mother that I started screaming too. I watched as his temper dissipated almost immediately, then I sent him up to bed. I picked up Olivia and she calmed a little but I was so angry at my son that she couldn't completely relax in my arms. Ana finally ended our daughters tears and then I made her sit down and put her feet up.
It turns out that while Gail was out shopping and Ray was away on one of his fishing trips, Teddy choose that moment to take his frustrations out on his little sister. He pushed her so forcefully that she fell and bumped her head and when Ana called him on it he threw the worlds biggest tantrum.
I had to take a lot of calming breaths before I entered his bedroom that day. When I finally stepped inside I found him equally spent and exhausted. He was curled up on his bed, thinking he was asleep I was about to leave when I heard a sad whisper.
"Do you want me to go," he asked softly.
"What?" I answered as I sat down on his bed and ruffled his hair affectionately.
"You don't need me now, I'm in the way."
I couldn't believe what I was hearing and certainly couldn't understand where all this was coming from.
"Teddy, you're our son. Our baby boy, I couldn't bare to live without you."
"You'll have another baby soon, maybe another boy. You won't want me then."
"I would want you if we had a thousand babies, you mean the world to me and mommy."
"Really,"
"Really, I don't understand why you would ever think that. You welcomed Olivia into the family and you're the best big brother and you know we love you both equally. Why would you think we could ever stop loving you."
"I think I was scared because a boy at school told me when a new baby comes along you get forgotten about."
"But when Olivia came along you weren't forgotten about," I try to explain.
"Olivia wasn't a baby when she came along so I thought the boy at school could be telling the truth."
"I promise we would never forget about you or your sister, we love you both so much and when the baby comes along we'll love him or her just the same. I know we will be a bit more busy when the baby first comes. But you can be involved and just as busy and I know how helpful you'll be because you have been so good with Olivia."
"Will the baby like me," asks Teddy uncertainly.
"Definitely, the baby will love you just like your sister does."
"She doesn't love me anymore, I made her cry today."
"You did and you need to apologise to her, but in spite of that I know she still loves you."
"I love her too and I'm sorry I made her cry. I made mommy sad too, I didn't mean to be naughty."
"I know you didn't son, how about we go back downstairs and you can tell them that you're sorry."
Teddy nods bravely then jumps from the bed and together we go down to the girls. Teddy cried when he said sorry and I felt bad for him but he needed to make amends. Thankfully Olivia accepted his apology and I couldn't hide my smile when she used her sleeve to wipe away his tears. My daughter had the biggest heart just like Ana's.
Since all the drama Teddy has been coping a lot better with the prospect of a new sibling. A week ago we found out we were going to have another boy and I was worried about how Teddy would take the news. He blew me away with his enthusiasm, stating quite clearly that he had wished for a brother because he doesn't have one.
Olivia was less impressed and made us all laugh when she declared dramatically that she wanted a sissy.
I think out of our two children Olivia may find it harder to adjust because it maybe difficult for her to share Ana with the baby.
I can't wait to have another baby in the house but I have to admit that like Olivia I was a little disappointed that the baby wasn't going to be a girl. I'm not unsatisfied in any way I was just hoping I would get to do all the things I missed out on with Olivia. I wanted to pick out the pink baby clothes and see the differences between having a baby boy verses a baby girl. I wanted every moment I missed to be replayed but I realise those moments are gone, lost forever and forcing my new child into that role isn't fair.
We've have had a lot of fun picking out names and we all seem to have our favourites. I know Ana is partial to Sam but I think the name is to small for a future Mr Grey. I'd like to include my fathers name somewhere but Teddy laughed when I suggested it because he thought I wanted to call the baby Grandpa.
Teddy loves reading 'Horrid Henry' books at the moment and so is naturally drawn to name the Henry. Olivia keeps us entertained by coming up with a new name everyday, the most bizarre names I have ever heard of. She makes them up and each one gets stranger and stranger, I hate to think what my daughter will name her own children one day. Still undecided we have settled on baby Grey for the moment and it seems to suit us until he makes his appearance. Only two months to go now, I can't wait.
Sorry for the long delay and short chapter but I lost the original and had to piece it together from an old FanFiction entry.
