Chapter 12
I told you to be fine.
The chapter title is from the lyrics of the song skinny love. Its really beautiful if you haven`t heard it, check it out and make sure birdy is singing.
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Rennesme POV
Alice had tracked down my mother. She said she was leaving in New York. So I now I was sitting in a cab. Headed for the building she worked in. Alice and I had arrived in the city that never sleeps last night. Now it was twelve am. Alice had gotten me ready for my meeting my mother again. I had protested against heals on the outfit. I didn't want to feel all grown up. But maybe I am now. The world feels different lately. But Alice had found peach colored balleys with a bow on as a alternative to the pumps in the same color. I had a white dress that went almost up to my neck and reached about five inches above my knees. It went in at my waist and it had lace on it. I had my favorite brown bag with my jacket, phone, money and so on. My hair was down and I had light makeup on. I had decided my jewelry myself. I had a necklace with an elephant on that I got from Rose. She bought it when she was jet again honeymooning in Egypt with Emmet. I had a pink bracelet with golden details. I thought I looked pretty and I hoped my mom thought so too. Alice wanted to "match" me and was wearing the same colors with her white top, pink jeans and brown toned shoes and earrings. The cab pulled up on the building. Alice got out a black umbrella and walked out as I followed inside. The doorman looked strange at her, but she just told him she had "sun poisoning" as we walked in to the waiting elevator. Alice pressed the button with the 6 on it and we began to rise.
Bella POV
Mr. Figgins had just left after our meeting when I smiled it. Vampire. I felt strange. Scared? I was not and old vampire and I could not fight in front of people. No vampire can do that. They would get exposed and killed. No the vampire wasn't here to fight me, at least I don't think so. I waited for my assistant Danielle to tell me I had visitors. I stood in front of the chair I sat at while my patients would lie on the coach next to it. Danielle opened the door and to people walked in before she closed the door and left. The first was completely unexpected, Alice. But the next would have given me a heart attack if I were still human. Even dough I hadn't seen her since she was just weeks old. I knew it was her. It hurt that she looked so much like ``him``, but it hurt even more that she looked like…me. Alice went over hugged me so quickly I dint have time to respond and said she would be waiting down by the lobby and promised not to listen. We stood still for about a minute staring at eachouter. She gave me a small smile and I snapped back into myself. The person I had become.
"Sit down" I said my hand making a small gesture towards the coach, before sitting down myself. And so my beautiful daughter did. And then she told me about what led her here with talking to Emmet, Rosalie and Alice and going to forks. Forks, the place where it all started. She told me about my ``funeral`` that she found out about. It still pains me to think of the pain I put Charlie through.
"Alice wants to go out tonight; would you please come with us? Just meet us outside of the plaza nine o`clock tonight."
"Okay, but no drinking for you missy"
It was the first words I had said to her since she was a baby. She was incredible sitting there. But then a tear rolled down her cheek. I sat down next to her on the coach I stroked her hair. More tears were streaming down her face.
" I needed a mom and you weren`t there" she cried. I lay my arm around her and she cried on my shoulder. I wanted to cry there I sat stroking her hair with on hand and back with the other. My baby girl…
"I love you Rennesme" I whispered. "You my wonderful, amazing and beautiful."
I stroke away her tears. "Now go and meet Alice so she doesn't get worried. See you tonight okay?"
She stood up smiling a little wiping away more tears before leaving.
I went home It was clouded. I felt strange inside like I had a storm in my stomach. Even tough I loved seeing her face, It felt like things with Rennesme went wrong. Like I was reading a story and had imagined the ending and the author wrote something else. And for a moment I wished I had just died. That I had never become a vampire, then I wouldn't need to feel the pain. I took a hot shower. If I were human it would probably feel to hot, but as a vampire It warmed me and made me feel more human.
Okay, so only two or three chapters left maybe four, but that's unlikely. Don't worry just because of the "wish I was dead" Bella is not going to go all suicidal. Remember to check out the outfits link on my profile.
