AN: I'm so sorry that I haven't updated this in a little while. This chapter is meant to take place after the episode Signature. It really doesn't mention the plot of it at all, so don't worry about spoilers if you haven't seen that far into the series. I'll admit that I had to write and scrap this like twelve times, so please be prepared for a weird chapter. Let me know what you think! Thank you for all of the support so far!
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"Olivia" Elliot sighed. He had looked all over the precinct for her, worried sick when he couldn't find her. Normally she would head up to the cribs when she needed a moment. The roof was his favorite place to go when he needed to cool down, so he was surprised to see her standing there, looking out at the city. It was dark out, seeing as it was late, but the lights looked amazing. More specifically, the way the lights made her skin glow was amazing. He had to ignore it because she was looking over her shoulder at him. He quickly shrugged off his coat and gently set it on her shoulders, feeling the cold night air.
"El, what are you doing here?"
He had taken the day off to attend Eli's check up with Kathy. Olivia hadn't expected to see him.
"John called me. There was nothing you could have done" He assured. She just shook her head, refusing to believe him. She tugged at his coat, pulling it tighter around her body. His hands on her shoulder were comforting, but she wanted more. She wouldn't tell him that though.
"Stay the night". It wasn't a question, but she nodded anyway. She didn't want to be alone. She wanted Elliot. They wordlessly made their way to the door, ready to go back to his place.
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*At his apartment*
"Sorry about all of the bags, I didn't get to put all my groceries away before John called" He explained. Olivia felt a pang of guilt in her chest. He had stopped what he was doing to come check on her.
"I would have been fine if you came a couple of minutes later" She insisted. She didn't know if that was true though.
Elliot grabbed the rest of the bags and took them into the kitchen. "I know that, but you needed to get out of there anyway".
Olivia followed him into the kitchen, determined to help out. She pulled the contents out of a bag, noticing something odd about some of his grocery choices.
"El, you hate chunky peanut butter, and this is strawberry jelly, you only eat grape". Olivia held up the two jars, showing him his mistake.
"I know, but you like chunky and strawberry. There's also fresh cherries in the fridge since you love them so much" He explained as he held up his smooth peanut butter and grape jelly. "Don't worry, I got the normal people peanut butter and jelly too".
Olivia smiled and thanked him, trying not to read too far into it. He thought about me when buying groceries. She didn't know what came over her, but she wrapped her arms around him. His arms circled her waist, holding her close. Her chin rested on his shoulder, simply enjoying the feel of him.
"Today really sucked" She mumbled. She buried her face in his chest, trying to hide her tears.
"Well it's over now. How about we get your mind off of it?" He offered, running his fingers up and down her sides. She smiled in his chest, pulling herself back a little so she could see his face. She cupped his face, leaning in to kiss him. They hadn't planned on doing this tonight, but she wanted, no, needed it. She could feel his fingers playing with the bottom of her shirt, slowly pushing it up.
"Off" She huffed. The wait was killing her. Elliot chuckled and lifted her shirt, throwing it off to the side. She reached out for him again, pulling his shirt off too. He kissed her again, surprised when she pushed him off of her.
"Bedroom". Her one word sentences cracked him up and turned him on all at the same time. He hadn't seen this side of Olivia, but he couldn't wait to see more of her. She jumped up, wrapping her legs around his hips. His arms supported her, carrying down the hall into his bedroom. He fell back onto the bed, keeping her on top of him. Olivia trailed a single finger down his cheek to his chin, making a straight line down his torso from there.
"Are you ready?" She huskily whispered into his ear. His hands immediately went to her pants, tugging on the waist band.
"I think you know how ready I am" He growled, thrusting up against her. She unsuccessfully bit back a moan, closing her eyes for a second. "God you're beautiful, Liv". He coaxed her to sit up so he could get her pants off. They were most of the way down her thighs when he suddenly stopped.
"What's wrong?" She asked, noticing his shocked face.
"Umm….there's blood".
She looked down, seeing a huge red spot on her panties.
"Oh God" She groaned, getting off of him and running to the bathroom. He heard the door slam shut, and he couldn't help but feeling like he had managed to make things a thousand times worse. He got out of bed and walked to the bathroom, knocking on the door.
"Liv, are you okay?"
"No" He heard her shakily reply.
"Can I come in?" He calmly asked.
"Yeah".
She was sitting on the edge of the tub, her face in her hands. He could tell that she was crying. He sat down next to her, wrapping his arm around her.
"I'm so sorry. I had no clue" She apologized.
"Liv, it happens. It's okay" He reassured.
"No, it's not, El. First of all, that was absolutely embarrassing. Second, now I have to go home. Third, my period was almost two weeks late and that gave me hope. I thought I might have been course I'm not". She got herself so worked up that she started sobbing. The whole day was finally getting to her.
"Olivia please, there's no reason to be embarrassed. You're my best friend, I don't think any less of you because it's your time of the month. It's completely natural. You don't have to go home either because luckily, I got everything you need because I wanted to have something here in case the girls needed it. You can stay here tonight and every night as far as I'm concerned".
"Thank you" She said quietly.
"Let me get everything and then you can relax, okay?"
She nodded, grateful that he had everything under control. He returned a few minutes later with a pair of her panties and sweats that she had left one night, and one of his old t-shirts.
"The um pads are under the sink" He stated awkwardly. He leaned down and pressed a kiss to her forehead. "I'm going to lie down. Take your time".
Once the door shut behind him, Olivia finished undressing herself. She was more than ready to wash away her horrible day. She stepped into the shower, welcoming the hot spray with open arms.
"God you're beautiful, Liv".
"You can stay here tonight and every night as far as I'm concerned".
His words repeated in her head. This was driving her crazy. Things had changed between them, yet they hadn't. She felt closer to Elliot, but at the same time he was still a million miles out of her reach. She didn't know what to do.
He had dropped what he was doing to make sure that she was okay. He bought her strawberry jelly for Pete's sake. He was so confusing…
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Once she was clean and dressed, Olivia returned to the bedroom to find Elliot laying under the covers.
"Feel better?" He asked, feeling the bed dip. She was sitting on "her" side. He could tell that she was hesitating.
"Yeah" She sighed. She wanted him to hold her, but she didn't want to seem needy. He was laying on his side facing her. He looked so inviting. He lifted his arm, showing her that he wanted her to join him. She reluctantly scooted over and laid down. All of her insecurities vanished when his arm wrapped around her.
"I'm here if you want to talk" He reminded. He gave her a gentle squeeze, comforting her even more.
"What are we doing wrong?"
"We're trying too hard" He said after a moment. Olivia's eyes had already closed, but he knew that she was still awake. Maybe she didn't want to talk anymore…
"That's not what I meant. What are we doing?" She asked again. She moved away from him, but turned to face him, needing the distance and eye contact at the same time. "We almost had sex for no reason, El".
"What do you want me to say, Liv?"
"I want you to tell me why you're doing all of this. Don't just say because you're my best friend".
She was looking at him, waiting for him to say something. He mustered up all of his strength and took a deep breath. His hand cupped her cheek, making sure she was looking in his eyes.
"I love you".
