Ok, I know I suck. Leaving you hanging for like three weeks. But I was away from my computer and didn't have any of my files with me so I didn't have anyway of giving you an update. So sorry. :o) Can you ever forgive me?

I hope this makes up for the lack up update, please let me know what you think! Good or Bad, I love to hear it all. :o)


If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more. -Emma, by Jane Austen

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Tommy turned to her, looked her in the eye, and said "Because he found out that I was going to tell you, that I'm in love with you and he thought it would stop me." Jude once again sat back, speechless. She shook her head "I don't know what you're talking about."

Tommy shook his head "He thought if he told me, than I wouldn't say anything about the way I felt about you, because you would hate me if I didn't tell you about him, or you would always think of that, if I did tell you, and you wouldn't be able to stand me either way."

Jude nods and looks away for a moment. Looking back to him she frowned again "So, him thinking you were going to tell me you loved me...?" Tommy nodded "I'm in love with you, I have been for awhile now. This was not how I wanted to tell you." she nodded once more "Right. Umm...I think I need to go home now." Tommy nodded and slid his chair back, giving her room to stand. She walked to the door and turned back to him "Why did you tell me?" Tommy smiled slightly "Because I love you enough to want what's best for you" he shook his head "And he's not it." Jude nodded, turned and left.

Tommy sat down with a sigh. It was all he could do for now. She knew about Milo, and she knew about him. Now it was up to her what happened next.

...

The next day Jude called Milo. She asked, he denied. She yelled, he still denied. She cried, he admitted. She cried some more. Then she called Sadie.

Sadie came over right away. Jude met her at the front door with a smile on her face "HEY" she yelled over the music coming from the living room. Sadie stepped into the front hall, looking slightly surprised "Hey, what's going on?" she asked. This was not what she had expected when Jude called her crying, telling her Milo had cheated and they were over.

Jude walked toward he living room and turned down the music "Sorry about that." she said "I was...ahh, well I was dancing." Sadie raised her brows and nodded "Dancing, alright."

Jude headed to the kitchen as Sadie took off her jacket "Oh I didn't tell you" Jude began "Tommy told me he's in love with me." Sadie tossed her jacket on the chair and followed Jude "Wait, what? When did this happen?" Jude shrugged "Right after he told me Milo was cheating."

Sadie shook her head "Ok backup, Tommy is the one who told you? How did he know, and what does that have to do with him being in love with you?" Jude turned to Sadie "Did you know?" she asked, looking serious. "Know what, about Tommy or Milo?" Jude shrugged "Either, both." Sadie shrugged now also "Tommy, I knew about that, everybody did." she shrugged again "But I couldn't be the one to tell you, you never would have belived me." she shook her head "But I didn't know about Milo, I knew that something wasn't right about him, but I just thought it was one of those things you know? Where for some unknown reason you just don't really like someone."

Jude nodded "Ok." she said, picking up a glass and walking back to the living room. Sadie followed once again, and sat down on the couch beside Jude.

Jude frowned now "I don't know what to do now." she looked at Sadie "Milo and I are over, he told me everything. Everything that Tommy told me last night, and more. But I don't know what to do." she shrugged "Right now, I should be talking about all of this with Tommy, but for the first time in years, I don't know what to say to him. I don't want things to be weird you know?"

Sadie turned to Jude "This can't be a huge surprise to you, you had to have known at least a little bite how he felt." Jude shook her head "No, not even a little. This is a complete surprise." Sadie smiled slightly "Just tell him that. This is Tommy we're talking about here, just tell him the truth. It's ok if you need time to think about everything. He knows that." Sadie shrugged "Just be honest with him, and yourself."

Jude was quiet for a minute "What if...what if it's just Tommy being himself here, you know? I mean, he's always been one of those guys who loves the chase. The one that never stays more than a month with the same girl. How do I know he wouldn't do the same now, that what he thinks he feels, is really just temperary."

Sadie shook her head "You don't, nobody knows what's going to happen tomorrow. You can't go through life thinking like that, you have to follow your heart, do what it tells you." Jude nodded "Right now, my is telling me to lay down and cry until my face is red and puffy and my nose is running."

Sadie smiled softly "Than go ahead and do it. You deserve to have a nice long cry right now." Jude nodded and leaned over and laid her head on Sadie's shoulder. Sadie wrapped an arm around her sister as fresh tears fell from Judes eyes.

...

After leaving Jude asleep with a new box of tissue, Sadie headed for the studio. Where she saw Tommy in hospitality, getting a cup of coffee. "Hey" she said, waling up beside him. He looked up from his cup "Hey." Sadie noted the dark rings around his eyes and the messed hair and new he hadn't slept much better than Jude the night before.

Sadie reached for a cup and pured herself some coffee "So I just left

Jude." Tommy looked at her once more "Really? So she told you everything?" Sadie nodded "Yep, she called me right after ending things with Milo." Tommy raised his brows "She did?" Sadie nodded. She couldn't help but feel sorry for him, knowing that at any other time, Jude would have called him instead of her.

"Yeah, she called me right after and I went to her place and she told me eveything that went down last night." She said, looking at him. Tommy nodded "Everything huh? So she told you that I...?" Sadie nodded "Told her you love her? Yeah." Tommy nodded "Did she tell you just how great it all was, how it all went exactly as I had planned for it to? You know with the whole, telling her her boyfriend was cheating on her thing?" he chuckled without humor "That made the whole thing, really unforgettable."

Sadie smiled sadly at him and shook her head "No, but she did tell me something that I probably shouldn't tell you, but I feel a little bad for you right now, so I'm going to let you in on it." Tommy leaned against the counter "What is it?" Sadie sighed "She doesn't know if she can trust you."

Tommy looked surprised "What? Why would she think she couldn't trust me?" Sadie shook her head "Not you you, your feelings. She doesn't know if she can trust your feelings, or if you just want her because you can't have her."

Tommy nodded "Right, want her because I can't have her." He nodded again "That's great." Sadie sighed "Just give her time, show her that it's not true." Sadie picked up her cup "Listen, I know that she feels something for you, she all but told me not so long ago. Give her time, show her that you're not going anywhere, and that your feelings are real. She'll come around." Sadie gave him a small smile as she turned and walked away.

Tommy picked up his own cup and sighed "Time. I can do that, I'm great at that." he said to himself "She'll see, I'm not going to give up on her."

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The next day Jude walked into the studio, and straight into Tommy. "Hey" she said, not meeting his eyes. Tommy sighed "Hey." he looked around "Can we talk for a minute?" Jude nodded and they went to his office, cameras following.

He let the cameras inside, and looked at Jude "I don't want things to be weird here." Jude smiled slightly "I don't either." Tommy smiled as well "Then let's not make them, it's still me, your best friend, the guy you talk to eighty-five thousand times a day." Jude chuckled "I know." she turned serious "It's just..."

Tommy sat on the couch beside her "Jude, you can tell me anything, nothing has changed." Jude sighed "But it has, it has to." she shook her head "You can't tell me you love me, and then expect me to go along as if all you said was hello." she shrugged "I need to say something back to you, just don't have anything to say yet. I don't want to say the wrong thing."

Tommy looked at her and smiled slightly "You don't have to say anything. I needed to let you know, bu you don't have to say anything. Not right now." he reached out and held her hand "I'm not going to try to make you, you know me better than that. Take you time, you've gone through a lot in the last couple of days. I'm not in a hurry." he shrugged "If you figure out later today, what you want to say about what I told you, that's great. If you want to wait two months from now, that's fine also."

Jude gave him a small smile "Thank you." Tommy shrugged again and smiled "No problem." he raised his brows "Can we just get back to being us now? I think this was the longest we've gone without talking to each other in about four years." Jude laughed and nodded "Yes, we can." Tommy smiled "Good, you better get to work now, before Darius comes to find you." Jude smiled once more and left the room, leaving Tommy watching after her.