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{LexiPOV}
Its been about 3 weeks since Charlie had come home and I had taken over his care while his wife Sue was gone. She came home a week after it happened. I was nervous about meeting her. I had rearanged some of the furniture to make it easier for Charlie to get around in his wheel chair. He was in to much pain to be up and walking right now so soon after surgery.
So I moved his old chair to a different area and made room for him to sit perfectly in front of the TV and watch all of those cheeky games he loves so much. And just like everyone else around here, he seemed to fall in love with my southern cusine, and style of cooking up something full of flavor and juicy.
I was relieved when Sue hadnt minded my little renovations of her house. She had explained to me that if I hadnt done it, she would have when she had gotten back.
I was more then happy to help Charlie get back on his feet and take care of him while he was out of commision for a while. Although it took some convincing on both Emily and my part to get him into the bath. He absolutly refused to let us help him while he was unclothed, but we couldnt bathe him when he was fully clothed. And I will never forget the look he gave me when I had told him that he didnt have anything i had never seen.
His face got beet red and is cheeks puffed out as he grumbled about me being just a baby.
We finally had to call over Sam and he was able to get his stanking ass in the shower and smelling like Irish spring. It was a hole lot better then the smell of armpit and sweat.
Jake came over after work every day he had the chance. On those days, I would try and keep myself busied with cleaning or arranging Charlies medicines for the next day. We speak... But only a few words at a time. Or when Charlie is insisting Jake stay, drink a beer with him and watch the game on for that night. I would get his beer when Charlie asked, even if all I wanted to do was bust the bottle over his head.
Today started out like normal, i got up and cooked breakfast, helped charlie to the livingroom to eat, got ready for work and gave him his medicine before Sue got there from her early morning meeting with the council. And i went to work.
The day drug on and on. I could feel jakes eyes burning holes in my back and occasionally my ass as I was bent over the hood of a car working on gunky spark plugs and faulty engines. I just rolled my eyes, turned around with a big smile and walked away to deal with my customer and tell him about his junky car.
I locked up the shop after the day and made my way through the snow to my truck. I flipped my keys in my hand trying to find the right one. Jake was leaning up against my truck when I looked back up. I didnt really want to deal with him. I needed to get home and cook dinner, check on charlie. Well sue was there, but we shared the responsibility. I didnt mind.
"Mind of I bum a ride?" He asked, jerking his head toward the truck.
"Dont you usually run?" I asked a little more snippy then I had really intended it. he chuckled, then smirked.
"Yeah, but I dont really feel like it today." He said lighting the cigarette that was behind his ear. shrugging his shoulders nonchalantly.
"Then I suggest you start walking. It's a long walk back if your not using power puff wolfy." my sarcastic remark even shocked me a little... I did say a little. I wasnt trying to be a bitch. But I was pissed and to me for damn good reason.
Sighing i walked aroud him and got in the truck. Damn it to hell if i didn't hesitate to crank it. Looking back at Jake i saw his exspression. Letting my head fall at the hurt look on his face. Shaking my head 'no i wouldn't give in and let him hurt me again, he had to prove he wanted me and not Bella.' Cranking the truck i pulled out on to the road and made my way to charlie's numbly. It was hard not to look back and see the hurt i just caused. Pulling into my designated spot i saw Charlie sitting on the porch in his wheel chair waiting on me.
Getting out of the truck i step up the stairs. Without saying a word he opens his arms to me. Finaly letting the tears fall i fall on the floor and lay my head on his knee. He placed his hand on my head and stroked my hair. Closing my eyes i soaked up the only fatherly affection i could get.
"Are you ok Lexi?" he asked.
Nodding my head and sniffling "Yea, I'm going to be alright. Thanks, you dont know how much i appreciate it." wipping my eyes i stand up and move behind his wheel chair "Lets get dinner started, i was thinking homemade chicken and shirp alfredo"
Wheeling him into the living room and getting him settled watching the game. Making my way to the bathroom i took a quick shower and dressed in some comfortable clothes. (Tank top and sweat pants) Getting to the kitchen and getting everything i was going to need ready for dinner. Dinner didn't take long to prepare. The alfredo was just coming off the stove. Transfer it to a couple bowls for the tabel. I grabbed the bread i had made last night and started slicing it for my garlic bread.
When everything was at the table i called everyone to come eat, having already made mine, Sue, and Charlies plates before the wolves could decend.
I walked around the house, shutting off the lights as a yawn made its way out. I was exausted. The shop had wore me out, but dealing with Jake was more exausting. I couldnt get the look on his face out of my head. I hadnt meant to be a complete bitch, but I just cant deal with it right now. The wound is still fresh and tender. There is no way I need to start picking at the scab now.
I padded my way into the kitchen, fighting tears the whole way to the fridge and poured me a glass of milk. I hated crying. I was never the type to blubber dramatically over a man. I didnt even cry when Hunter and I had broken up when I was 17. I had hurt for a long time, but took it with a grain of salt and did what I had to do to take care of things after daddy died. That was the hardest part of my life. I never thought I would ever feel as bad as I had when it happened. But this was getting pretty close. Its as if my whole being is dragging me to him, but my stubborn ways wont allow me to be trampled on like stampedeing horses.
Tipping the glass back one last time to down the last of the contents, a tear snuck its way past my defenses. I wiped it, washed the glass and made my way to my room for the night. I got half way down the hall when I heard a knock at the front door. Looking at the clock, I shook my head. Who in the world would be coming over at midnight.
I looked out the window by the door and my heart sped up. It was Jake, and he was dripping from head to toe as the rain poured down over his head. His eyes met mine and the heat behind it burned its way past my mental defenses. And I opened the door, pulling him in and out of the rain.
"What in the world are you doing here?" i asked, running down the hall to grab a few towels, and coming back to hand them to him to dry himself off.
"We need to talk." He said lowly, looking right into my eyes as he finished drying himself. I looked away, calling all of my sheilds up.
"We have nothing to talk about. We already said all there is to say." I said walking to the counter to grab my keys and jacket to take him home.
"Lexi, just hear me out." exasperation clear in his voice.
"No, I dont want to hear anymore. come on. Ill take you home so you dont have to run in the rain." I said.
I didnt give him a chance as I ran out the door and jumped in my truck. Leaving him standing in the door way with a choice to either join me or stay there.
The passenger door shut loudly as he settled in the seat and I cranked up the head to cut my shivering. I could feel his eyes on me as I drove. It was nerve wracking and I was glad to see his house come into view and i parked, waiting for him to get out... But he just sat there.
"Im tired Jake." I said. Hopeing he would get out and go to bed. I knew he had to be tired to.
"Im sorry Lexi." He said softly. I would have missed it if I had been breathing. I exhaled slowly.
"Its ok. Dont worry about it." I turned to face him with one of my winning fake smiles.
"No its not... Damnit Lexi... Why are you blowing off the whole situation. Im... Im trying here. I dont know what else to do... What to say to make you happy. Im... Damnit." He trailed off, rubbing his palms down his face. Every word he said cut a little deeper and I was slowly loosing control of my emotional state.
"Please... Jake..." I tried to stop it before it could really begin, but he was hell bent.
"I know I said some things I didnt really mean... Well I meant them, but never in that way. I was angry... you ... You didnt have to leave." He trailed off. His voice was low and sad sounding. And my walls came down in a crashing crumble of emotions.
I felt many things all at once. Betrayal, Anger, Frustration, But most of all Love and hurt.
"Yes I did!" I started forcefully... but my voice betrayed me. I looked down at my steering wheel. I couldnt look at him... Not right now when Im about to say what im about to say. "I had to leave because I cant keep living with being second best to the man I love... I cant compete with someone who had him before I did... And... I never truly had you... I cant keep putting myself through this hurt... Its to much." By the time I was finished. there were several tear stains on my steering wheel.
I felt his hot hand gently grab my chin and pull my face to look at him. I tried to fight. I didnt want to see. I never want to see the look i just know is on his handsome face. But he was to strong to fight... And I looked at him.
His eyes shone brightly to me. I could see the swirls of a battle behind his eyes, but I couldnt tell what it was for.
His thumb wiped softly across my cheek, brushing the tears from my face. A broken sob left my dry lips.
"I never meant to hurt you... God, i never wanted to hurt you." He whispered. casting his eyes to my hand, he grabbed one and kissed it softly, then got out of the truck into the rain.
Turning in my seat. I didnt waste any time putting my truck in gear and leaving the muddy drive way. One glance to the rear view mirror had me shaking with blurry tears. He was still standing out in the rain, watching as my tail lights faded from his view.
{JPOV}
I didnt know what to say... The war inside me was raging on far stronger then ever and I truly didnt know in what direction it was going to lean anymore. Just this morning I was set to pick Bella and bring her back from whatever has taken her over and end things romantically with Lexi. But one look at her and I felt like a lost puppy. But hearing those words she said... That she had fallen in love with me as I had with her... I wasnt able to end things like I wanted to.
I dont want to hurt her. Never do I want to hurt her. But there are never easy ways out of things like this. No matter what I do, someone gets hurt... or pissed. I chuckled to myself as I made my way back into the house to get dry and change clothes.
All the guys in highschool used to boast about having two hot chicks chasing after them... Well look at me now fuckers. I got two of the hottest... and It fucking sucks hairy nuts.
I jumped out of the shower dried off and walked down the hall. I passed by Lexi's room and lingered. Her scent was still heavy in the room. It was comforting. I had always thought her scent was to good to be true. She smelled more amazing then anyone else I had ever come across. It was a natural smell to. like spring flowers in the rain. Simply mouthwatering.
Cracking the door open, i took a sniff of the air and exhaled happily. I missed her fiesty morning attitude. The smell of fresh coffee brewing in the morning. Even the cute face she made when she first woke up, her hair in a mess on the top of her head. The way she crinckled her nose when she was angry. Or the funny way she would make one hell of a jump from the floor to the counter top at the sight of a cock roach.
I shut the door and jumped in my bed, pulling the covers over my naked form. I love Bella. I have always loved Bella. But now I love Lexi to... Lexi had made it pretty clear tonight there... I was already to late to do anything for us anyways. I just needed to end things... make things right.
{BellaPOV}
The plane landed and Alice got up and we made our way out of the terminals. One step out of the plane and i was ready to stay there and go anywhere but this little place. It was a nightmare on my hair and makeup.
The constant rain frizzed my hair, and smeared my makeup. It also made mud. And mud does not look good on my collection of pumps. I'm thanking Alice for telling me about the rain, I would have been pissed if it fucked up my new designer heels.
The drive was long and torturing. Like riding in Jakes car with him and having to pretend to care. Sighing long and hard i pulled into the drive way. Noticing that bitches truck sitting there. What was she doing in my house. No matter I needed more funds and "daddy' was the best gulible candidate at the moment.
Grabbing my things and my newest prada bag, I headed carefully into the house. It would suck to have stepped in to one of the many puddles of mud scattered all over the yard. Swinging the door open with a swoosh.
"Im home!" i yelled excitedly.
Walking into the living room for a second i see everyone watching tv.
"Daddy could you get my bags out of the trunk of my car. I need to go upstairs and use the bathroom." I said making my escape to my room and sitting on my bed for a couple moments.
Looking at the clock, I get up to head back down stairs. He should have had enough time to get all the bags out. Getting to the bottom of the stairs i didn't see my bags.
"Daddy, where did you put my bags?" I asked.
Lexi stood up and showed me to the door.
"I went out to get you bags, but i didn't feel it was my job or your dads to carry in over 50 bags so i left them for you. The trunk is still up, and my boots are on the pourch if you need them." she said.
I looked out the door to see it was raining again and my trunk was in fact open.
"A...Are you crazy!" i yelled no longer worried about the old pair of heels i had on and ran out to the car to shut my trunk. My bags were soaked and a pair of my new suede pumps were soaked though. A shriek of anger rose up from my lips and i huffed back up to the house. I just made it to the portch when one of my heels sunk into the ground and I fell backwards.
A sick squishing sound was all i needed to know that i had just ruined my brand new outfit.
Lexi stuck her head out the door then ran out onto the portch, slipped on a pair of dirty old boots and ran down the steps. splashing mud splatters onto my face.
"Are you alright there?" She asked, reaching down into the mud as if it didnt bother her and pulled me back onto my feet. I huffed and ran my muddy fingers uselessly over the front of my blouse.
"Do I look Fine?" I snapped. This bitch had another thing coming if she thought I was going to like her just because she helped me. no... She was still just a bitch. And I hated her. I walked back into the house and padded my way to the bathroom for a shower. I cringed in distaste at the pair of cut off shorts and stained T-Shirt. It was ugly and needed to run into a fire. I cant believe she can dress like a slob and be ok with this.
{LexiPOV}
I snickered as Bella's soggy ass trotted up the stairs with the clothes I had handed her. Looking back a Charlie he had a reprimanding look on his face.
"Play nice." He ordered with a bit of humor. Pointing a finger at me like he was scolding me. I shrugged with a laugh.
"What? She's such a premadonna. Its just a little mud. And she's acting like its a lake of lava." I said, walking back to the kitchen to get started on supper.
It had stopped raining and Bella had finally unloaded all of her bags from her trunk and was now sitting on the couch beside Charlie, showing off all of her name brand new duds.
"And this one, Its my favorite. The jewels on the fringe are supposed to be real." She smiled shoving the ugly shirt in front of her fathers face who looked like he was ready to cry.
I couldnt take any more. She had been here for well over a 4 hours and not once did she ask him how he was feeling or if he needed anything. or hell, talked about anything that wasnt about her.
I walked over to Charlie and pulled his chair back slowly as not to hurt him with the quick jolt and wheeled him to the table.
"come on Charlie. How bout some roast and tators?" I asked with a smile which coaxed one from him as well.
Bella ended up staying with us for a while. Her Diva ways were starting to wear me out and I was ready to chunk all those bags of high priced make up and clothes right out the window.
I stretched as I made my way to the kitchen to make breakfast. I was glad it was a saturday. I needed the rest.
I pulled out all of the ingrediants for breakfast and began whipping up the food. I had just got the buicuts in the oven when the sound of paper shuffling caught my attention. Walking around the cornner exspecting to help Sue find her medical papers, but see Bella in an over priced ruck sack looking in every drawer in the desk.
Just as i was going to ask if i could help her find anything, she jumped up with an ah ha. Spinning around i see Charlie's check book in her hand.
"What are you doing?" I asked startling her.
"None of your concern." she spits in my direction.
Finding a pen she proceeds to fill out a check for $1,000 made out to her. Then rips out the check and the carbon copy. Knowing she was up to no good i reach over and snatch the check book and the check. Just as i was turning to put it up in my room for the time being i feel my self falling, right in to the granite kitchen counters. Before i could right myself i hit my head on the cornner of the counter.
The crack was the worst part. The pain was nowhere to be felt. I reached up and touched my forehead with my hand and saw red when blood painted my fingers.
Jumping up from the floor, I lunged for Bella and tackled her to the ground, raising my fist back to my face, I got ready to knock her teeth down her throat when Hot strong hands grabbed my wrist and pulled me off of her roughly.
I caught the site of Jacob breifly as he sent me flying across the kitchen to hit the floor and slam the back of my head on the wall that broke my path.
"What the fuck is wrong with you, Lexi!" With a groan of suddenly accuring pain, i blinked back the blurry vision.
Bella was sitting on the floor behind jacob. Big crocodile tears rolling down her face. I blinked again as my vision once again blurred when i tried to stand. I used the wall as support to stand.
My breathing was heavy, and my head felt like it was going to explode.
"Jake, you dont know what happened." I tried to reason with him, but he shook his head.
"NO...You dont understand." He yelled as he reached out and grabbed me by my arms. Shaking me.
"Jake..." My vision began to tunnel and swim... I felt cold all of a sudden.
"I TRUSTED YOU...HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO CHARLIE'S DAUGHTER IN HIS OWN HOUSE..." Shaking me so hard my teeth rattled.
I was loosing the battle to stay concious, but at least i had the damn check book in my bra safe for now. My ears were ringing and i couldn't make out the sounds around me. My visoin swam one last time before i let go and decided the dark was my best friend right now.
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