I'm soooooo sorry that it took so long. It had absolutly no idea what to write. But now I'm back to the living . Thank you for all your reviews and that you sick to me although I didn't update.
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EPOV
The words needed time to sink in. "She lost the baby." How could this have happened? Why didn't I prevent this? Why did I have to be so stubborn and leave Bella again? Why couldn't I do one thing right? Carlisle took me out of my thoughts.
"Why did you run away?" he asked. "She needs you. You should have let her talk you don't know the whole story. So please just go in there and talk to Bella. Listen to everything she tells you and please stay calm and don't overreact."
I was an idiot I ran away and she ended up in the hospital. It seemed no matter what I do I always hurt her more. But what did Carlisle mean? Why should I overreact
I stepped in front of her door and took a deep unnecessary breath. I opened the door.
Nothing could have prepared me for the sight before me. My angel was lying crying in her bed. She had a large bruise on her cheek and she looked more fragile than ever before. She didn't look up when I closed the door. I wasn't even sure whether she had noticed me or not. I quickly approached her bed and sat down beside her on the bed. When I carfully touched her cheek she jumped. But she never looked me in the eyes.
"Bella." I finally said, breaking the silence between us. "I'm sorry I walked away. I thought…"
"No." Bella suddenly said still looking at the wall not facing me. " You don't have to be sorry. I get it. I always knew I wasn't good enough for you."
I wanted to interuped her there. I couldn't let her think this. But she kept on talking quickly as if she wanted to say this for a long time.
"I'm not pretty, not smart. I'm just clumsy and damaged. And know after what happened to me… I'm sorry I didn't tell you at the beginning. I knew you would leave. I knew you wouldn't want me after I told you this, but I just wanted to be with you just a little longer."
I hugged her while tears ran down her cheek.
"Never think like that. You are the most beatiful person in the world. I love you and there's no way that this will ever change. Please believe me." I paused and took a deep breath I wasn't quite sure if I really wanted to know what happened to her, but I simply HAD to know what causes my Bella such pain.
"What happened to you Bella?" I asked so low that she almost couldn't hear me. She froze. I waited. Then after what seemed like hours she finally looked me in the eyes.
"I was raped"
(I wanted to stop here, but see it as an apology for the late update. So again I'm sorry)
BPOV
He was back. He was back. He was back. I couldn't believe it he was back here with me. I didn't notice that he was with me until he was on the bed with me. Was it possible that he still wanted me? This little hope soon vanished when he said
"I'm sorry I walked away."
So he felt guilty. He shouldn't. There was nothing to feel guilty for. I didn't want him to stay with me because he was sorry. I told him how I never felt good enough for him, but he still stayed with me. He even told me he loved me. Although I knew he couldn't really mean it. It felt good to hear it again. Then he asked what had happened to me and I froze. He still didn't know. I would have to tell him. Maybe he would run again. Who could blaime him?
For the first time I looked him straight in the eyes. I wanted to see his perfect face just one more time before he left.
"I was raped"
EPOV
"Who?" I asked. My hands were in fists and I had to try very hard to not loose control. Somebody had laid a hand on my Bella, had violated her, had touched her where I never had touched her.
"Mike" she whispered so low that even with my vampire hearing I almost missed it. Almost. NEWTON! You'll pay!!
So that's it for today. I have to stop here it's in the middle of the night and I can barely keep my eyes open. I'm afraid that there a a few mistakes because I'm too tired to form proper English sentences . I couldn't let you guys wait longer. I want you to know that I will complete this story no matter what. I'll try to update soon but I can't promise anything. Thank you for still reading.
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