Sorry it's taken a while...
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I hate this apartment. I wake every morning and I'm instantly greeted by it's usual tight space and general mess. Ever since the capture of Dark and Krad I've had an unbearable amount of free time. The extra time I've acquired doesn't seem to end, and I jump at any chance I have to get to work in the evenings. When I have to spend gruelling hours here I can't bring myself to clean it, or cook a decent meal, being so used to barely paying attention to my standard of living.
It's disappointing to realise I'm finally not needed. When he sees fit to and stops humouring me, my father will relieve me completely of my duties. And you Daisuke, you don't need me either.
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The weekend passes and it's Monday once more. I force myself to continue at school, trying to keep something normal.
Perhaps you're my only hope Daisuke. Will I be able to seek out possible love or even friends if you won't have me?
You sit at a safe distance from me in class, and manage to ignore me. The lunch bell rings and I'm on the roof once more, trying to tell myself that I can win you over again. I force smiles at you in the hallway, mumble a greeting when you pass me. These aren't welcomed warmly but don't go unnoticed. It seems so unlike you Daisuke to disregard someone's feelings.
By the end of the day I finally have you cornered. You stay behind to talk to the sensei. When the halls are cleared I'm slipping over to your side. You stare up at me and stumble in an uncertain manner. "Hiwatari..."
I bite my lip. "When are you going to face up to things Daisuke? You can't pretend that nothing happened." My voice shows evident hurt. A sigh escapes your lips and you stare at me seeming a little defiant. You've matured so much, but maybe not for the better. "When did you stop caring about your friends?"
You seem a little taken back by this, as if you'd forgotten that we'd ever liked each other in the first place. "M-my family wouldn't approve" you mutter. Anger seeps into the pit of my stomach. "This never stopped you before!" I'm almost shouting down at you. I see regret in your shining red orbs. My fury doesn't subside as I lower my voice,"Why didn't you stop me in the first place if this wasn't what you wanted? Why did you let it continue? I-I..."
I turn to walk away. I feel your eyes on my retreating back as you express a sigh. I'm quite sure you didn't know what you were doing; you reached out and grabbed my wrist with remarkable speed. I tug violently at my arm. Your strength more than enough to match mine, you pull me unwillingly into your arms, burying your head in my chest. This is what I've wanted for so long that a wash of relief floods through me. Then my hurt is evident once more in my heart and I'm trying with all my might to push you away.
I stop struggling momentarily, leaning down to whisper, your hair tickling my cheek. "Why are you doing this to me?" You seem to consider this for a long moment, your breathing harsh against me, your face still hidden from mine. Your clutch on me does not lighten. Tell me you love me and you need me Daisuke. Tell me you meant nothing that you'd said or done, that you don't care about approval, or let me leave.
We stand still for a long time, my attempt at escaping long abandoned. You don't bring yourself to look at me. "I'm so sorry Satoshi" you say in a small voice. I swallow hard to push back down the emotion that creeps through me. I want to embrace your apology, but I can't. "What do you want Daisuke?"
"I want you to forgive me" you say after a long while. I rest my head against yours, breathing in your sweet scent. "Tell me, did you feel anything at all for me?" I ask with a bitter tone.
"Satoshi it wasn't like that. I was confused, and I'd never done anything like that before." I close my eyes for a moment and pretend that you really do want me.
"So ignoring me after everything was the best answer?"
You draw a long breath, still not letting go of me, a little desperation is evident in your voice. "I was confused about what I wanted."
I'm frowning now; you don't want me at all do you?
The warmth slips from between us as you loosen your grip on me. My eyes are averted, and my arms hang at their sides. I'm falling fast as your lips press to mine, your arms snaking about me. A soft tongue pleads my lips to part, which they do. I'm feeling limp beneath you, arms still frozen in place. As I finally respond to your decision, my arms are pulling you close to my heart, my mind surrendering to my body's yearning.
I manage to break away and capture your eyes. "Tell me now Daisuke, is this definitely what you want?" I don't even notice that my voice is shaky and my breathing is uneven. You lick your lips and nod, "I want you Satoshi, and I know that I don't ever want to hurt you again."
I smile inwardly, rejoicing, as I embrace you, meeting your lips once more, kissing you loudly and shamelessly.
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To be continued...
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