THANK-YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THE NAME SUGGESTIONS, I WANTED TO USE ALL OF THEM BUT LUX COULDN'T HAVE FIFTY BABIES AT ONCE ;)
YOU READERS MEAN THE WORLD PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK !:) (sorry for the caps)
HISTORY REPEATED
CATE
Baze, Lux and I were listening to the radio whilst the baby slept. It was the day after our, uh, grandchild, had been born and Baze and I had barely left Lux's side since. It was early morning and almost time for Morning Madness with Cate and Ryan. Except I wasn't going to be on and Ryan would have to anchor for himself.
"Good Morning PORTLAAAAND!" Ryan shouted over the radio, if I closed my eyes I could almost be in the booth with him bantering away.
"Now unfortunately our loveable but moderately insane co-host had some important family matters to deal with so she won't be joining us today but I'd just like to give a shout out to Cate and her family wherever you are Cate have a great day, this one's for you." Ryan said on the radio, I stayed still. Baze and Lux were both staring at me but I kept my eyes on the radio waiting for whatever would come next.
And then as if by magic Ryan started to play Two Princes by the Spin Doctors. I had no idea how he knew this song was important to me but it seemed so valid right now.
"Ryan knows about this song?" Baze asked slowly, a smile forming on his face.
"No, I guess he must've just liked the sound of it." I shrugged as the Spin Doctors launched into the chorus. Lux just watched us quizzically.
"What's the history with this song then?" She asked raising an eyebrow. The baby who was still nameless was stirring in Lux's arms. I don't know if I was imagining it or whatever but she always looked uncomfortable when he did something she wasn't expecting.
"I'm sure I already told you this," Baze laughed to Lux, "but in any case, this song is the legendary piece that provided the soundtrack to your conception." Baze smiled, he leant back which made him look smug. At the same time Lux and I both rolled our eyes.
"Great, thanks for that mental picture." Lux muttered sarcastically. She stroked her baby's head, Baze and I stared at her in awe and it made me wonder what might have happened if I hadn't decided to give Lux up. I tried to shake that thought from my mind, whenever I thought about what a big mistake giving Lux up was I wasn't able to control my emotions.
Lux looked up and something outside the glass door caught her attention. Slowly Baze and I turned to see what had grabbed our daughter. It was Bug, back from wherever.
"Lux, honey, do you want us to tell him to go away?" I asked Lux, I was probably baby-ing her but I had no reason to trust Bug alone with her.
"No, he needs to see his kid." Lux whispered not taking her eyes off of the kid outside the door.
Baze on the other hand was almost audibly growling he didn't like Bug as much as I did; he was just more vocal in showing it.
"Okay, I'll take Baze outside and we'll be back soon, I need to check in with Ryan anyway." I smiled at Lux and got up to leave.
LUX
Bug slouched into the room slowly.
"You've, uh, deflated since the last time I saw you." He mumbled. Before the whole courtroom scene I would've laughed at that quip but he just didn't seem the same to me anymore.
"Oh you noticed." I shot sourly. He seemed to notice the mass of blankets in my arms and he stopped dead.
"Is that..." He trailed of, coming over to sit next to me her peered into the cloths that swathed our baby.
"Yeah, this is him." I whispered, I got all goofy when I looked at my baby, he was adorable and I couldn't take my eyes off of him when I let myself look at him.
"Can I...?" Bug asked in awe. I nodded reluctantly, I handed my baby over to its father for the first time but it gave me no emotion. When my son moved in his dad's arms I didn't see a paternal bone in Bug's body show itself. "Has he got a name yet?" Bug asked, he tore his eyes away from our baby. I shook my head, I had a few suggestions, and Cate had bought me a baby names book to peruse in my spare time.
"What about Teddy?" Bug asked I had to admit it was a cute name but really Teddy and Bug? I might as well rename myself Princess Dolly and have done with it.
"Yeah it is kinda cute but I was thinking something more along the lines of Oliver and George." I said plainly, it wasn't a question.
"Oh right." Bug said looking back to our baby. "Well the main reason I came down was because I saw Baze and Cate take you to hospital and I, uh, wanted to check that our baby was alright."
"We're both fine, I'm getting tired now and the baby needs to sleep so you should leave." I said plainly, to be honest I wanted Bug to stay with me and our baby and tell me that everything was going to be okay but I knew it wasn't and there was no way I could set myself up for that kind of rejection again.
"Okay, I'll tell Tasha and Gavin you're both good, we're all really worried about you Lux."Bug said regretfully before handing me back our baby. If he didn't leave in the next ten seconds I wouldn't be able to stop myself from getting up and making him stay with me.
"Oh and Lux?" He said standing at the door. "I really want to be there with you and the baby, I mean it this time." I nodded without looking him in the eye. Although I couldn't feel the same way I needed him. There was no denying that he had a part in our son's life but how involved he was is my decision.
Bug wandered out and Cate and Baze rushed back in, they'd been watching Bug and I like hawks the whole time he was with me.
"Are you alright honey?" Cate asked as soon as Bug was out of earshot. I shook my head, how I could be alright after that was a mystery to me.
"I got a name for my baby." I whispered I looked to Baze; he loved his grandson and if I wasn't holding him Baze would be.
"What you got kiddo?" Baze asked, he smiled at me expectantly, I noticed that he and Cate were holding hands, they looked good together.
"Teddy Oliver Bazille." I smiled Baze and Cate both nodded with grins on their faces, "Teddy means divine gift and Oliver means peace, and I don't know about you guys, but I could do with some of that right now." I laughed with my parents, they both agreed that peace was definitely something our family needed now.
A/N: Sorry I didn't update yesterday, science coursework's a bitch! ):
So updates might be a bit more every other day but they will still come!
What do you think Ryan will do when he finds out he's a step-grandpa?
Cate and Baze's family are another issue on my mind, how do they react, and what do they think? So tell me your thoughts and reactions and especially what you think of the name for little Teddy!
