*Waves* Did you know that your chances of dying on the way to go pick up your winnings from a lottery ticket are greater than the chances of you actually winning the lottery? (Assuming you won the jackpot)

Sirens in the water - B-But I love Bramble-wamble! ;_; (But for some odd reason, I love to torture the cats I like.)

FlowerFur - I . . . tolerate Crowfeather. I can't help but feel some sympathy for him though. I mean, you're sent to go on a journey with 5 different cats that you've never really spoken to, you fall in love with one of them, and then she dies. You fall in love again, but with a medicine cat from another Clan, and are left brokenhearted. Again. Then you find out that medicine cat had your kits, your Clan doesn't trust you, and your whole world seems to be falling down around you. On top of it all, your son wants to kill you. (Great life huh?) I don't like him, but I get why he's so grouchy. This is a very long reply. Oh yes, and I'm updating every day.

Stunningfire - She was a sue. A pretty sue. An annoying, stupid, love triangle-causing sue. XD Hawky is hot. No, shmexy. Bramle-wamble's better though.


Have you ever wanted to love someone, but can't? Has there ever been a barrier between you, and your lover? If not, I envy you. If so, then you understand what I'm feeling right now.

I'm torn. Torn in two. I'm torn between forgiving her, and becoming mates again, and not forgiving her, and not becoming mates.

But before I decide that, I have to get out of this nightmare.

Did I forget to tell you about the fox that's staring me in the eyes right now? Oh, sorry. Well, there is a fox staring at me right now.

But then she's there. She's there, yowling a challenge from behind the fox. Time slows down as the fox turns and stalks up to her. I am frozen to the spot. I can't move, can't call out to her, nothing.

I am powerless as it backs her into a tree, it's snapping jaws making her inch backwards, ears flattened. She tries to duck, but it picks her up by the scruff and shakes her violently. Then it throws her towards me.

For a moment, I think she's dead, but then she lets out a moan. The fox seems to be taunting me, because it nudges her over to me. I can't even growl in frustration!

The fox slowly bends down, and thankfully I'm able to squeeze my eyes shut I so I don't have to watch.

But that doesn't stop me from hearing her screech as the fox bites her neck.

I blink open my eyes, and an intense pain shoots through them. It feels like someone scrached them with their claws. Oh wait, someone did. When I look up, she's standing over me. Oh great...

"B-Brambleclaw?" She asks, her voice quivering.

Just as I'm about to reply, Jayfeather shoves her out of the way. "Move!" He snaps. He trickles some herb juice into my eyes, and I sigh in relief. "Keep your eyes closed," he advises, "then they won't hurt as much."

"Will they get better?" I ask, not really wanting to hear the answer.

"They might," Jayfeaher answers after a moment's pause. "But they might not. It's hard to tell if infection set in, and until I know that, I don't know whether they'll get better or not." Then he pads out of the den, leaving me and her alone.

Well, and Briarlight, but she's curled up in her nest. I can hear her steady breathing.

Squirrelflight sits down beside me, and I keep still. Then she tentatively reaches over with her tail, and rests it on my shoulders. I stiffen, but don't shake it off.

After a few minutes of sitting in silence, she begins to curl up beside me. At first I think of moving away, but I decide to let her. It's nice, lying beside her again.

I reach over with my tail, and lay it over her flank, and she lets out a quiet purr.

"I-" I start, but I'm not ready to say it yet. I just can't break my promise yet.

"You what?" She asks.

"I-I love you, Squirrelflight." I say instead. I'm not ready to tell her I forgive her though. I promised myself that first day, I promised.

I can't forgive her, but I can love her. I can heal my heart.

Just not completely.


I told you guys you would like this chapter! I guess I was tired of the angst-y stuff, (I have no idea why, I love writing angst XP) so I decided upon . . . this. Whatever it was.

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