The Dreamer: Yes she freaked out on Paul, but he was the most suitable for the part.
Shakilove: They haven't actually made up but Menah was feeling too many emotions and has the need to have comfort as did Edward. But keep reading and we'll see how this goes because as I go on I just make up new stuff. I never would have known my story was going to turn out like this.
When we made it home Charlie was out. Bella went straight to her room as I did. I wonder if someone told Charlie what happened with us or were they ignorant as why we were gone. When I made it to my room in the attic I paused. The Cullen's' gift sat on the chest in front of my bed. The violin Edward gave me still sat in its case. The violin was new and polished. "Edward you make me so confused." I said when I saw him sitting at my desk. "I can't help, but love you. But you put me through so much. It feels as if you were made to… shit I don't know, but I can't do this right now."
He sighed and got up from his spot and started pacing, "Menah. I'm sorry, but I couldn't-"he looked at me, "I do not wish to argue with you after finding out that you're alive. I promise, Menah, I promise not to leave you again. We cannot survive without each other. You are my mate and I will protect you and love you as one."
I nodded my head, "I know that Edward, I would do the same. I was literally dying and all I could do was think of where you were to end the pain." I refused to even cry anymore, "I just need time. We need time apart. You have hurt me Edward. I can forgive you, but not right now." I got up and pointed towards the window, "Please leave." Was all I told him and he left swiftly out the window.
My head was in my hands when Charlie walked into my room. "Are you okay?" he climbed all the way in.
I shook my head, "Not really, but I have to stay strong."
"You and Bella scared me. You just got out of a coma months ago and now you were gone for three days." He sat down next to me.
"And I'm so sorry." A sad look crossed my face.
"Just promise not to do something like that to me ever again."
"I promise, Daddy."
He nodded his head and got up, "You and Bella are grounded… for the rest of your lives."
"I love you." He looked at me and said it back before he left the room.
The next day I found myself sitting on the couch with Ryan giving me a lecture. "Do you have any idea of what we were thinking when we found you missing? We had sent out a search for you and Bella until Jacob said anything, he didn't even know where you were. We thought you- you can just go off somewhere and not tell anyone."
I looked at him and Candice, "You thought I what?" they stayed silent, "You thought I killed myself, huh? You think so little of me that I would even consider it."
Candice spoke up, "That's not what we're saying. We thought that you got hurt. A lot has been happening between you and… everyone. We just want to be sure that you're safe, okay?"
"Fine. I'm safe. I'm irritated. I'm in love. I'm angry. I'm all of the above. Are you happy are do you want to run it by me again?" I said to the both of them. They just stared at me. "Whatever. I just need time alone to think. Please go home and do not worry about me."
Ryan and Candice both looked at me until Ryan said, "Okay, Menah. I'm sorry. Rest or take a nap because you look pretty bad."
I smiled, "Shut up."
"Know that we care for you. And you can always come to us. We'll see ya later." They both gave me a hug before they went off to wherever they were going.
Without thinking I took my keys from the hook by the front door and ran for my Jeep. Charlie was upstairs, but I had to talk to Leah. They already had the funeral and I missed because I was in Italy. I haven't talked to her since my surprise birthday party. It wouldn't be a happy visit since she just lost her father along with Seth. It made me wonder how Sue was doing. I drove to La push trying to remember where she lived, but I could not. I decided to go to Emily and ask her where she lived.
Outside of Sam's house I jumped from the car. Talking was heard from the back of the house. I went around the back to see who was there. Turning the corner I paused. Everyone was there playing around expect for one person. Emily walked from out of the back door of the house. She was the first to see me. She sat a tray down on a table and rushed over to me. "Menah!" she pulls me into a tight hug. "Where have you been? Are you alright?"
"I'm fine now. I just needed to save someone that's it. I just hope I didn't cause any problems. We've had enough of that." I said to her. When I stopped speaking I could see the pack behind her. What really surprised me were Seth and Leah sitting at the table. I looked back to Emily then I walked around her. "Leah, Seth." They were already looking at me.
Seth gets up from his seat and walks to me, "Menah!" he picks me up and spins me around, "Where have you been? Jacob told us Bella left, but he didn't see you. Are you okay?"
"Yes, I'm fine, Seth." I smiled at him when he put me down. "I had to go save a friend, that's all." Seth has grown quite a bit, "Well you got all muscly and stuff." He actually blushed at that. I laughed and shook my head. Then I remembered Leah. She was standing with her arms crossed over her chest. We knew that look, everyone did. She was angry, but I don't know who it's aimed at. Maybe at knowing why Sam really went for Emily. "Hi, Leah."
She grunted and the others looked around before walking into the house sensing what was going on. I walk over to her. My body still aches with the situation Edward and I are going through. I just needed to talk to Leah. I sat down in the sit next to her. "How are you doing?"
Leah sat down in her seat, "Could be better." She looked at me with a glare. "Where were you?"
I looked around and listened in on the others to make sure they weren't listening. "Somehow I ended up in Italy. Don't ask because I honestly cannot answer that. But Edward was going to… have himself killed. He thought I was dead." I paused in my talking, "Leah, I was dying and if he would've succeeded I wouldn't be here right." I looked at her, "I came to apologize about not being there for the funeral."
Leah shook her head and breathe loudly, "You know I could never say mad at you." She gave me a small smile, "One day we should go and do something. Like burn items from the guys that broke our heart." Leah stopped, "Wait, you were dying?" She yelled.
I put my hand over her mouth. "Keep it down. I'm not sure all of them know about my condition. I can't tell anyone now. It's not safe for anyone to know exactly what I am." I took in a breath, "All I wanted was to come down here and be with my father and look at where that got me."
Leah looked to be thinking for a moment, "Menah, I can tell that you and Edward are not on good terms right now. But I think that you two should talk. Figure something out." Her face was sad, "Being a female shape shifter is bad enough, but I don't believe I am able to have kids."
"Leah…" I said almost painfully.
She looked towards the forest, "Just go and talk with him. We can always go burn things later."
"Really?" I asked her.
"Yeah." My smile was big as I got up from my seat. By the door I could see Paul standing in the doorway. I couldn't bring myself to tell him anything. He knew that he could never happen, we both did. It just made me wonder if they would push me aside now that they were back. I walked backwards for a minute and sent him a small smile then I took off. I took off to the woods and to my destination.
Life is about too many things to stick with one theory. One thing, life to me is about for what you wish for and never giving up. And maybe there's a time when you need to give up, but I call it letting go. I'm going to let go of the past that Edward and I have been through and make a future that will insure our happiness. It will take longer for me to forgive him, but I have to start somewhere.
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