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Hope you love it as much as I do. It was so much fun to write.


I'm the first one to make it to the dining room for once. I haven't been able to talk to Yui about today's misunderstanding. Every time I try to speak to her, she runs off. All day I've been in my room, reading the book I got from the school library. No one came into my room, not even Laito. I'm starting to think that people are starting to give me my space, but it feels weird now. They've all been swarming me, know they just buzzed off.

Everyone soon begins to enter the room. Yui sits next to me which is a bit surprising. I look over to her and she looks at me and nods in acknowledgment. Does this me she's willing to talk? Joy surges through me at the thought.

Much to my disgust though, Ayato sits across the table from me. I don't look at him, I know seeing him will make me want to commit murder. I can envision myself wrapping my fingers around that neck of his. Squeezing it until it becomes the same color his hair.

Reiji soon comes out with the food and we begin eating. Of course, no one speaks. Ayato glares at me the, causing my nerves to boil. What is his problem? I'm the one pissed at him. I begin to recall the books I read about murder and how it was handled. How hard is it to kill a vampire? Is there some supernatural way or did I just need to stab him through the damn heart? Well, I doubt he even has one.

I try to calm myself, saying all I have to do is finish eating and return back to my room for the remainder of the day. I continue to eat, trying not to let the vampire bother me. I look up and make eye contact with him for a second. He gives me a disgusted face, like I'm the jerk in the situation. That's fucking it!

"What do you want, Ayato?" I say in an annoyed voice, filling the empty silence.

"What?" he says in response.

"You heard me. I'm sick of you staring at me all the time. Is there something you need? Didn't your mother teach you it's rude to stare?"

"Hikari," Yui whispers in shock.

"You don't speak to Yours Truly like that," he demands, standing up.

"Stop this you two," Reiji snaps in a harsh voice.

"Don't glare at me all day. It's annoying. I'm not the faggot in the room, if you want to see him, look in the damn mirror," I say, raising my voice as I narrowing my eyes.

"What's annoying is a slut screaming in the middle of the night waking everyone up and coming into people's room without permission," he screams.

"Don't call me a slut! You don't know what I've been through, so fuck off!"

"I'm sure you're willing to fuck anyone. And furthermore, don't speak to Yours Truly like that!"

"Stop being so damn arrogant. 'Yours Truly,'" I mock in a whiny voice. "You're full of shit!"

"Ayato, be seated," Reiji says through clenched teeth. "You also Hikari, and watch yourself."

"No," I protest. "I've had enough of this shit. I've been here for a week and it's horrible. You vampires are all rude perverts. There is a difference from taking my fucking blood and harassing me, and you guys don't know where to draw the damn line. Do you not know how to treat a guess? Or I'm I just livestock to you monsters? If that's the case, you are all worse than Natsume!" I scream, tears filling my eyes. I look at the triplet, all slack-jawed, Reiji and Subaru clenching their fist in anger, Shuu, staring at me with no expression.

I have a right to be mad at them. Ayato and Laito have been harassing me, Kanato is physically hurting me, Reiji isn't doing anything to keep, Subaru and Shuu...nothing. I look at the eldest and youngest of the brothers. They've have done nothing but help me, and I lash out at them. I cover my mouth in regret and the tears start running down my face.

"Hik-" Yui starts, but I don't hear her. I bolt out of the room, down the hall. I hear shouts from the dining room as I head for the front door.

I'm temporarily blinded by the bright sunlight. I run as far and fast as I can, trying to leave my problems behind me. I sprint down the walkway, not caring where it takes me. I end up running all the way to the front gate.

I look past the gate and at the road. If only the door could sense my sadness and open so I could free myself. The birds sing and dance around in the sky, as if they were mocking me. They're free to go where everywhere desire.

I sit against the large, iron fence and take a breather.

What I said was horrible. The Sakamakis give me shelter, food, and make sure I am educated. I should be grateful I'm not being abused in a cell anymore. And comparing them to Natsume, how low can I get?

Half the things that have gone wrong started with me doing something wrong, they just reacting in a way that felt natural for them. Ayato and Laito harass me because I wasn't careful enough. I just went and had sex just because I could. Ayato is right, I am a slut. But he has saved me from being clobbered and acted as an unneeded shield, both came with a cost though.

Reiji did nothing wrong, well, he did nothing period. I never came to him for help, so, again, that's on me. Kanato got mad, as everyone does, and lashed out. He just hurts people physically, like I do verbally.

And Subaru, all he has done is help me. He stopped Ayato from hurting me, helped me when I hurt myself, and has shown me around the mansion before. Shuu, oh Shuu. He doesn't do much, but yet I can't help but feel a bit happier around him.

I rise from the ground and look out through the gate one last time. I don't really want to go back right now. I don't think Reiji will allow Yui to come and get me, and I'm not quite sure if the vampires can come outside during this time of day. Looks like the odds are in my favor.

I begin to walk the perimeter of the property, keeping my right side to the fence that soon turns into a wall which then turns to a wooded area. I think back to the days at the Church, when Yui and I could go outside whenever we wanted. Even when it was time to go inside, we would sneak right back out.

I never had that privilege at the Kei household. If I wanted to go outside, either I had to be accompanied by two guards or both Natsume and Kaname had to come out with me. Kaname wasn't really an outdoors person, we would go inside after about twenty minutes. Well, at least I was able to be outside then. After the accident, I never left my cell until I went back to the Church. Well, there were a few times, but that's completely different matter.

I walk until my legs begin to hurt and I'm sweating. I look at the sky as the early fall sun shines down on me. Dinner is at 7:30, and I've been out here for about an hour. Ugh, I need to get a watch. It's too early to go back inside, everyone will still be up, and I don't really know how to face them.

I wander a bit more until I find a gazebo. It's not the same one I usually see, meaning that I'm no longer on the same side of the property. I walk over and brush some dirt of the bench and lay down on it. I try to take a nap, but the stone bench feels uncomfortable. Come on Hikari, you slept on a concrete floor for eighteen months, this is a cloud compared to that. I close my eyes and drift into a light slumber.


I wake to find something licking my hand. I look down to see a white cat with orange and black spots licking and gnawing at my hand. I move my hand, causing the cat to walk back a little.

I sit up and stretch, while doing so I feel a slight pain in my neck. I rotate to try to get the kink out, but it still aches. I look at the cat and give it my hand. It smells it and rubs its face against it. I start to lightly pet it's head and it begins to purr. I rise from the seat and the cat runs away.

I leave the gazebo and shield my eyes as I leave the shade. The sun is high in the sky, so it has to be at least noon, maybe later. It makes me realize how much I miss the warmth of day. Ever since I game here, I've been sleeping during this time of the day. I guess it would make sense because the vampires wouldn't come out if it was necessary. Furthermore, the brothers should be sleeping or at least in their rooms. I begin to walk around the mansion to try to find the front door. It takes me about ten minutes, but I end up where I started.

I push the door in slowly and peer into the greeting room, empty. My plan is to go straight to my room, but my stomach says otherwise. I barely ate any of my food before lashing out, and that was hours ago.

I silently make my way towards the kitchen for a snack before bed. I make my way through the dark hall to the dining room. Being in the room makes me feel sick again. I walk into the kitchen to see that it, like the rest of the house, is vacant.

There is a shadow on the counter that makes me jump. I turn on the light to see that it is one of the wine bottles. So someone had a drink. I get the ingredients to make myself a sandwich. I keep looking at the lone bottle of wine on the counter as I eat my snack. I give in to the temptation and get a glass.

I debate on how much I should take as I stare at the wine glass. Natsume usually only drank half to a whole cup, though he once drank about four glasses when Kaname died. I pour myself a fourth of a cup and take a sip.

It is tart and makes me cough, but I take another sip. It is hard to manage, but I continue consuming it until my glass is empty. I pour myself about half a cup and drink it. It tastes different now, it doesn't have the same feeling going down my throat.

My vision begin to get blurry and my head starts to spin. I stumble a bit and lean against the counter or support.

"Look what you did to me," I say to the bottle in frustration. "Because of you I can't see!"

"It's not my fault," the bottle says in response. "You're drinking me. Stop trying to blame your problems on other people."

"Shush ups," I say. "You don't know me." I sit down on the floor. I begin to cough violently and a look at my almost empty glass. I throw it onto the floor, causing it to shatter into hundreds of pieces. I hear the door open to see Shuu looking at me. Shuu.

"I have Shuu on my side," I say to the bottle. "He likes me. He doesn't rape me or is mean to me." I look up at him and smile. "I like him too." I get up and try to walk towards him, but my knees give way and I fall. He catches me before I hit the floor.

"Hikari," he says calmly, "why were you drinking?"

"The bottle was taunting me and made me upset," I say with another cough. He picks me up and starts to carry me. I wrap my hands around his neck and cuddle into him. He is so warm and strong. He takes me to my room and puts me on the bed. He goes to my draw and takes out my pajamas.

"Are you the one that has been changing my clothes?" I ask in a dreary voice. "You only change me, nothing else? No looking at my lady parts, 'kay? You're such a gentleman." He doesn't say a word in response. He takes off my shirt and throws my nightgown on. After that he takes off my skirt.

"Shuu are you upset?" I ask him through my blurry vision. "I'm sorry for what I said, I really am." Tears begin to run down my face. "I didn't mean it. You're not a monster, you're nice. You make me habby, so blease don't be mad at me. If you're mad, then it would make me very ubset."

I begin to cry harder and fall onto him. I clench his shirt and cry into him. He takes his hand and rubs my head. He sits me down onto the bed and makes me lay down. He tries to get up, but I grab the back of his shirt.

I don't want him to leave me, everyone always leaves more That, or I'm forced to leave them. Kaname left me, Natsume me left me- yes, Natume left me, there was a demon in his place for the last two years. I was forced to leave my dad and Yui and everyone at the Church. I don't want him to leave me, not Shuu. Shuu can't leave me.

"You can't leabe," I slur. "You can't leave me, Shuu. Don't, I don't want to be by myself." He looks at me with his blue eyes and sits back down with me. I fall asleep holding him.