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Chapter 10
Edward's Point of View (A/N: HE'S ALIVE!!!! I know some of you were worried!) =]
When I regained consciousness, I heard an incessant beeping noise and someone's quiet breathing. That same someone was holding my hand. I opened my eyes and saw Bella with her head on the edge of my bed, holding my hand. My other hand had a bandage wrapped around the wrist.
"Bella," I whispered.
She stirred and mumbled, "Edward?"
"Bella…wake up."
She rubbed her eyes sleepily and looked at me. She shook her head and closed her eyes. She opened them again and saw me looking at her. Comprehension dawned in her eyes and she gasped.
"EDWARD!!! Oh my god!! You're ok!!" She jumped up and hugged me, tears flowed down her face. "I am so sorry Edward…please…will you…can you forgive me? I never meant to hurt you…I'm sorry…"
"Shh…Bella it's ok," I said soothingly.
"No Edward its not!! It's my fault you're in here…MY FAULT…it's not ok…don't try and tell me its ok." She buried her head in my chest.
"Bella…it's not you're fault…it's my fault…I shouldn't have been so carel—"
"Do NOT try and blame this on yourself Edward," she said sharply looking up at me before returning to her original position.
"How about we talk about this later?" I murmured running a hand through her hair. When she didn't respond I continued. "Umm…why am I in here anyways? I mean I know why but why didn't they send me home? Is it still Friday?"
Bella looked up at me. She shook her head and said, "It's Saturday. Your dad wanted to keep you here for observation. Apparently Emmett dropped you trying to carry you to your car and you hit your head. Your father was afraid that you had a concussion."
"Oh—" Before I could say anything else my mother walked into the room.
"Bella?" she said softly. She saw that I was awake and ran over to me. Bella let go of me and moved to a corner. "Oh Edward…you're ok! Don't you ever scare me like that again. Oh I have to go get Carlisle. Bella make sure he doesn't move."
"Of course Esme," she replied.
"Bella—" I began.
"EDWARD!!! OH MY GOD YOU'RE OK!!!" Alice rushed into the room and flung her arms around my neck.
"I'm fine," I mumbled patting her awkwardly on the back. She let me go and I saw Rose, Emmett, and Jasper standing behind her.
"Don't you ever scare us again Edward Anthony Mason Cullen," my mother scolded as she walked back into the room with my father, Dr. Carlisle Cullen.
"Sorry mom," I replied looking repentant.
"Alright…I'm sorry everybody out for a few minutes. Doctor's orders. Besides Esme and I have to talk to Edward."
"Wait…can Bella stay? Please?" I asked putting a hand on my father's arm.
He sighed. "Fine…I suppose she should be a part of this conversation."
"Thanks."
Once everyone had left Esme put a hand on my arm.
"Why?" she asked sadly. "Why did you do this?"
"It's my fault," Bella said quietly from the corner in which she cowered. She was probably afraid my parents would blame her for my being in the hospital.
"What? Sweetie how is this your fault?" Esme asked surprised.
"It's…it's not my story to tell…I-I think Edward should tell it," she responded quietly.
"Bella…what are you talking about?" I asked.
"E-Edward…I-I think you should tell them everything…the entire story…tell them what you told me."
My eyes widened. "Everything?" I whispered.
"Everything," she said softly but firmly.
"Edward…what is she talking about?" Carlisle asked looking very confused.
"Edward you have to tell them."
I sighed. "Fine," I looked at Bella while I told them the story. "You guys remember Kristen right?" I glanced over at Carlisle and Esme who looked very confused. "We started going out two summers ago. She told me she was just visiting Forks so I figured once summer was over I'd never see her again. But then school started and she showed up. I was shocked because I didn't expect her to be there. She told me that her parents had loved Forks so much they bought a house. I was ecstatic because I thought we were gonna be forever. One day she told me she loved me and I believed her. I even told her that I loved her back.
"Around me she was a total sweetheart but according to Emmett, she threw herself at every guy she saw when I wasn't around. I didn't believe him until a few weeks before Bella moved here. Kristen broke up with saying she had developed feelings for someone else. I was devastated and I-I became depressed. One day I went over to her house to try and convince her to take me back. I saw her…with Mike Newton.
"The next day I confronted her and asked if what Emmett had told me was true. She didn't even bother to deny it. She told me that while I was sweet, I couldn't fulfill all her 'needs'. She admitted that she cheated on me with Mike while we were in New Mexico over the holidays. She didn't even act remorseful…she didn't care about my feelings. From the moment I found out everything was a lie with her I made a vow to myself that I would be very careful who I went out with. I vowed that I would never again fully trust anyone who wanted to go out with me. I know I shouldn't have but it just hurt so much when I found out the truth. I really fell for her.
I paused and looked over at Carlisle and Esme who were staring at me with surprise written plainly on their faces.
"My depression got worse. I hid it from everyone but when I was alone, my thoughts would overwhelm me. The only thing that helped me feel better was cutting. I cut myself practically everyday. I tried to stop but I couldn't. But once I met Bella everything seemed ok. I haven't cut myself since I met her. Meeting her helped me to realize that Kristen is just one girl. Not all girls are like that…" I paused and took a deep breath. "Bella I think you should tell this next part and then I'll take over."
She nodded. "Ok," she took a deep breath before continuing. "Yesterday, Edward told me the same story that he just told you. Afterwards he asked me to be his girlfriend…and…I-I told him no. I r-really w-wanted to say yes but…s-s-something happened…between my ex-boyfriend and me…and…I-I'm not proud of what happened…and I really wanted to tell him…but I couldn't…he thought that I didn't trust him…he told me to tell everyone that he had gone home…and then he left…about twenty-five minutes later…Jasper texted Alice and told her that he had been hurt."
I jumped in and continued the story. "I went home and locked myself in my bathroom. I found the razor blade that I had hid under the sink. I had it pressed very lightly to my wrist. I didn't hear Emmett come home. He started banging on the bathroom door and I jumped in surprise. The razor blade slipped and it ended up cutting me too deep. I tried to stop the bleeding but it didn't work out too well. Emmett unlocked the bathroom door and found me sitting on the floor pretty much surrounded by blood. And then I blacked out. Then…I woke up here."
"Edward…how could you keep all of this from us?" Esme asked in a heartbroken voice.
"I'm sorry…I didn't want to…but I felt like I had to. I didn't want you to worry…but then again…I guess that didn't work out to well."
Carlisle cracked a small smile. "No not really," he said with a slight laugh.
"I'm really sorry…I didn't mean for this to happen."
"Just as long as it doesn't happen again Edward Anthony Mason," Esme said.
"It won't…I promise," I said smiling at her.
"Good." she looked relieved. "Well Carlisle…if everything is ok with Edward…I think we should let these two talk."
"Just call us when you're done." With that, Esme and Carlisle walked out.
Bella sat down in the chair next to my bed and took my hand.
"Bella…" I said softly. I trailed off at a loss for words.
A/N: Hi again! It's me!! I'm just going to warn you from now that this will probably be my last update until next week sometime. I have so much homework that I need to do and so many tests and stuff to study for and I'm seriously falling behind. I'll try to update this weekend but I'm not making any promises. Hope you all enjoyed this chapter!
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