Chapter 12

It was the morning after the night before and it was pouring down outside. I got up from my bed and walked over to the mirror in my bathroom. My eyes were puffed out from crying all night, I had flash backs from the argument and I just felt like never leaving my room. I didn't know if anyone downstairs wanted to talk to me but what I was sure of is that I didn't want to talk to them, well at least some of them. I jumped into the shower, the warmth of the water splashing against my back. It relaxed me and I felt a bit better. I turned the tops of and put on my soft pink housecoat after drying my self with a towel. I brushed my wet hair and then blow dried it. Jacob got up after I was finished drying my hair.

"Hey" he said rubbing my arm

"Hey" I said looking at the floor

"You know we're gonna have to face them, sometime" he said softly

"I know, I'm just going to get changed and then we can................go downstairs" I said taking a deep breath

"Okay" he said kissing my head

I walked over to my wardrobe and picked out a silver top with a white pattern on it and dark jeans with white sneakers. When I was dressed I went over to the mirror and fixed my hair in a low sided ponytail. Jacob put his hand in mine.

"You ready?" he asked opening the door

"Not really" I said truthfully

"It's going to be fine" He said reassuring me

I nodded. Jacob went first, I guess he just wanted to protect me. As we walked downstairs I could feel the tension in the room, It was so quiet not even the guys were talking. We reached the bottom of the staircase when almost everyone looked up, Mum came over to me.

"Sweetie I am so sorry" she said almost in tears. I hated seeing her like this.

I put my arms around her and hugged her.

"It's okay" I said softly in her ear

She smiled at me and I smiled back

"Jacob would you like some breakfast?" Grandma asked

He hesitated

"It's okay go, I'll be fine" I said

"Are you sure?" he asked unconvinced

"Yes now go, get something to eat" I said pushing him

"Okay" he said kissing my cheek

Dad was sitting near his piano looking at me but I turned away and went to sit on the couch next to Emmett, Rosalie was sitting on his lap.

"Hey Ness, How are ya kiddo?" Emmett asked grinning

"Great, Im just great" I said sarcastically

"Okay, then but you have to admit last night was a little funny" he said smiling

"Funny? you would say that but you got what you want, happy?" I snapped

"What are you talking about?" Rosalie asked

"You didn't tell anyone?" I asked Emmett

"Tell anyone what?" Dad asked curiously

"Well Nessie sort of.............confided in me I guess you could call it, about her and Jacob" Emmett said explaining

"What, you knew about all of this?, why didn't you tell me?" Rosalie asked annoyed

"Because Nessie told me not to" he said smiling innocently

"Why didn't you tell me?" Mum asked turning to me

"Well because your not a good actress Mum, and Dad would have suspected something and then you would have gave in and told him. Besides would it have really made last night any different?" I asked

"Well no I guess not" she said softly

Jacob walked into the room and as I got up, I walked towards him.

"Nessie?" Dad asked

I turned around "What?" I said sharply

"I wanted to to say that I'm sorry about last night I shouldn't have reacted that way" he said apologetically

"That's what your apologizing for?" I asked in disbelief

"Do you really hate me?" he asked

"Dad, the way you reacted, lashing out.............. I sort of expected it and that's not why I said I hated you. The reason why I said it was because you didn't believe what I told you, you didn't trust me, do you know what that feels like?. For your family to not trust about what you do or don't say to them?" I asked almost crying again

He didn't say anything, guilt washed over his face.

"Look, I don't hate you okay,.................. I just need you to trust me" I finally said

"I do trust you Nessie I'm just.......... too protective I guess you could say" he admitted

"I'm protective of Nessie, but I don't hurt her" Jacob snapped, now he was right beside me

"Jake....." I trailed

Dad growled at Jacob

"You better watch what you say mongrel!" Dad snapped

"Oh yeah, and what if I don't eh?, what will you do about it?" Jacob snarled

Dad grabbed Jacob and they started pushing and shoving each other about, then they knocked me to the floor.

"That's enough!!" Mum yelled

Then they both realised what they had done and looked at me lying on the floor, still holding a grip of one another. I shot them a look.

"That's it, I'm out of here" I said getting up and grabbing my white coat

"Where are you going?" Mum asked concerned

"Anywhere but here" I said glancing at Jacob and Dad

I opened the door and rushed past Alice and Jasper who were just about to walk into the house. I ran, ran as fast as I could pushing through the forest. I didn't know were I was going, I just needed to get away from everyone and all the drama. I was getting tired of running so I sat on the grass, It was wet but so was I. I just sat there and endured the freshly cool breeze and the quietness of course, I kept thinking of Dad and Jake and if they would ever get back to normal. Even though my family are far from normal, they are going to behave when I get back one way or another they will get along again, I'll make sure of that. As I watched the sun go down, my phone was constantly getting phone calls and texts but I just ignored them and ended turning my phone off completely.

I lay down on the grass using my arm as a pillow, my eyes were getting tired so I gave in and a few minutes later. I drifted of to sleep on the wet ground.