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EPOV

"Edward, I did something stupid."

Bella's voice cracked on the sentence as I prepared for the worst, and probably exactly what I was waiting for. She did not seem to move on from her last statement so, reluctantly, I gave her the push she needed.

"Bella, what did you do?"

She took a deep breath before answering me. "Tanya had Jacob over last night so I could meet him… so I could agree to a session with him this weekend." A sob burst through when she finished and although I was expecting it to lead to this, my chest sank and my legs now felt unstable.

I took my seat next to Bella once more in the most ungraceful manner. My head fell into my hands with my elbows propped on my thighs. I could have prepared myself for this, seen it coming, anticipated it, but nothing compared to actually living it in this moment. I found myself at a loss for words as I listened to breathing go from long and deep to short and erratic. I felt Bella's eyes on me, and shortly after her hand came on my shoulder. Instinctively, I shrugged her off and heard her gasp with the harshness of my action.

"Edward, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen. When Tanya asked me what I thought of Jacob and what I thought about this weekend, I just felt so lost. The look on Tanya's face was so happy and expectant and I didn't want to mess with it. It was like an out-of-body experience for me agreeing to it. I know it's no excuse, but Tanya is my best friend and after I hurt her the day before I couldn't bear to let her down." Bella said, trying to explain.

The look on Tanya's face, her best friend is Tanya. What about the look on my face now, Bella? I wanted to be her best friend. My mind screamed at me to tell her all of this while my heart battled against it, knowing that it must be difficult for her as well. Eventually, my mind won out.

I lifted my head from my hands and looked straight into Bella's eyes. They were red and puffy from all of her crying. She tried to move her head to avoid my gaze but my hand took hold of her chin and kept her eyes focused on me.

"What about me, Bella? You love me too, don't you?" My voice sounded grainy and harsh and not at all like my own. I let go of her chin when tears started to flow again. "Fuck, Bella, what do you want?"

"Ed-, "She started, but I put out my hand to stop her. I did not want to hear anymore excuses or explanations.

With my eyes still locked on Bella's I stood up, gathered my things and turned my back on her, walking out of the lecture hall. Her calls for me to come back were weak in my ears; all I wanted was to get out of there. Without another look or sentence to Bella, I walked out after a forceful push of the hall's doors.

I did not get far. I sat on the stone bench a few feet away from the doors which faced one of the small gardens that the University had throughout campus. The sky was overcast, the usual weather in Seattle. I breathed in the cold air to clear my head after my encounter with Bella. I never swore in front of a woman, it would occasionally escape me in the heat of lovemaking but that was about it. I was always brought up to believe that men should always act polite and proper in front of women.

Fuck. I messed up with Bella. If I truly loved her, my heart would have won out over my insane mind. The cold air was definitely helping to clear my head. I was never his harsh with Bella and now my demons came out when she was already down. No sound came from the door behind me so it was safe to assume that Bella was still in the hall. I gathered my things once more and entered the classroom again, this time with a clear head and intent not to hurt Bella.

Her sniffles were the sound that greeted me the second I stepped inside. I looked up to find her where I left her minutes ago, head bent and sobbing into her hands. The click of the door closing made her rise her head and her eyes met mine across the distance. I quickly glanced at the schedule for the hall and saw that there wasn't another class in here for another two hours. I locked the doors, wanting to be alone with Bella, to sort things out and make sure that she did not run away from me after my harshness before.

Bella gasped when she heard the deep click of the lock and suddenly looked afraid. This is what I was afraid of. I dropped my things on the floor and walked slowly up the stairs to meet her. Surprisingly, her eyes never left mine and she made no attempt to move although I would understand if she did. I needed to believe now that it was her love that compelled her not to move, to listen to what I had to say, and that she was not just paralysed with fear.

Finally, I reached her level and slowly sat down next to her. Bella's face was thoroughly red by now, her cute nose and brown eyes; her breathing was shallow but she never moved. I held my hand up to her cheek so I could wipe the tears away. As expected, Bella tilted her head away from me so I would be left grasping air.

"Bella, I am so sorry. I don't know what came over me." I pleaded.

She inhaled deeply and nodded. Moving her head back to where it originally was so that my hand was now against her cheek. Bella closed her eyes and leaned in into my hand. "Don't worry about it. I know how it feels."

I was so relieved to hear her say anything to me in that moment, I placed my other hand on her cheek and brought her slowly to my lips, placing a soft kiss on her lips, and letting mine linger there for seconds longer.

"Thank you."

Bella scoffed. "You shouldn't be apologising to me. I'm the one that messed up here; I couldn't do something as simple as tell my friend about us. Your reaction was totally justified, Edward."

"Bella, we needn't worry about what has already happened. We need to think about what to do now. Now, do you want to go through with this weekend with Tanya and Jacob?"

"I don't know, Edward. If I pull out, Tanya would be--,"

I stopped her for the second time that day. "Bella, I asked do you want to go through with this. You need to start to thinking about yourself and what do you want. If you keep sacrificing what you want to satisfy others, then all you'll be left with is resentment. Now, I'll ask you again, do you want to go through with this?"

Bella took a long minute before she took another deep breath and answered. "No, I don't." She took my hand and held in both of hers. "I love you, Edward. Our first time, and every other time since was perfect and no one can take your place. You are the only man I would ever want."

Bella's words went straight to my heart making it beat exceptionally faster. I placed a kiss on her forehead and brought her to chest in a tight embrace. I could not think of any other way to tell her how much her words meant to me.

"I love you, Bella." I whispered against her hair.

"Edward," she coughed, "can't…breathe…"

I let go of her immediately and heard her small laugh. "I love you too, Edward, and I would like to stay alive to do it."

I laughed sarcastically at her comment and brought her to sit on my lap. My hands found their way immediately to her long brown locks and brought her down to my lips in a passionate kiss. Bella's hands mirrored my own, tugging slightly on my hair. My tongue entered her mouth and I was engulfed in everything that was Bella. Her warm mouth was exactly what I needed after out confrontation, I needed the trust she still had in me so we could get through this rough patch.

We broke away from each other for much needed air and pressed our foreheads together.

"Edward, telling Tanya is going to be a nightmare." Bella whispered.

"Don't worry about that, my love. There is still time before Saturday; you should use it to prepare yourself for it." I offered.

"You won't mind?"

"Bella, I saw how hard it was for you to tell let down Tanya earlier this week. U didn't have the time then, but you do now. Think about it this way, you need to study before a mid-term right?"

"I guess… I'm still deathly afraid of exams, though, even after weeks of studying." She admitted.

"Yes, everyone is. But this time you have something you didn't have before. I am going to be with you and whatever you need I'll be more than happy to oblige."

"Thank you, Edward."

"That's what I'm here for. I'm yours."

Bella blushed and hid her face in the crook of my neck, placing a small kiss there. We sat in silence for a while until Bella broke out of her reverie.

"We should go. I have class in an hour and I want to get something to eat."

I reluctantly nodded and let her stand before me. When she gathered her things, I offered to carry them for her and we made our way to the doors. As we faced the locked doors Bella turned around to face me and cocked an eyebrow.

"Why did you lock the doors?"

"Honestly? I wanted to make sure that I got a chance to earn your forgiveness for my behaviour earlier and I wasn't going to let you leave until then."

Bella suddenly had a smirk on her face after hearing my admission. "Really? Why, Edward, that's…really hot." She walked towards me and pressed her palms against my chest. Bella stuck her tongue out and licked her lips in the most seductive way that sent a jolt between my legs. Bella didn't stop there though. She moved closer to me, her breasts pushed against my chest and ground her hips against mine effectively making me harder.

I took hold of the side of her arms and pulled her away from my figure. Bella's face fell until I started to walk her backwards. When her back came into contact with the wall, a dazzling smile shone her features. Her eyes now sparkled with the idea of what would happen now and I was happy to see it.

We wasted no time in taking each others lips, our tongues fighting and teeth knocking, definitely not the most graceful kiss we had but certainly one of the most passionate. My hands went to Bella's jeans and quickly made work of the buttons keeping it together. I broke our kiss as I knelt down in front of her to guide her jeans down her long cream legs. When her jeans were tossed aside, I kissed my way to her panties and tugged them down where they joined Bella's jeans on our bags. On my way back up, I placed a small kiss on her clit and felt her shiver under me.

Once I was eye level with Bella once again, she took my lips again resuming our kiss with more fervour. While my hands now massaged her breasts through her shirt, I could feel Bella's hands on my jeans. Within seconds Bella undid my buttons and let my jeans fall to my ankles. She traced the line of my boxers before tugging them down and grabbing my steel hard cock in her hands. I moaned into her mouth as she massaged my tip with the palm of one hand and stroked my length with the other.

Afraid that I'll come right into her expert hands, I grabbed her hips and lifted her high enough so she could comfortably wrap her legs around my waist. Bella's arms were around my shoulders and before I could ask her if she was sure about this, she covered my mouth with one of her hands and simply nodded. I kissed her sweetly and guided myself easily into her warm and wet center.

Bella groaned as I entered her inch by inch. When I was fully sheathed, I gave her a moment to adjust to the feeling. I was deeper in this position and I did not want to hurt her. Slowly, I started an initial rhythm earning a moan from Bella every time I was in her. Bella began to gyrate her hips against me, obviously wanting more friction.

I held her hips tightly and began to thrust faster and further into her. The moans which fell from her lips were animalistic which kept my driving into her. I bent my knees lower and angled my hips which hit a different place inside her on my next thrust. She groaned in response which told me that was where I would focus my efforts. I felt my balls tighten, ready to come as I thrust into Bella in the previous spot.

Her breaths came quick and shallow, as did mine. I would not be able to hold on for longer and from the looks of it, neither would Bella. I brought my hand to where we were joined and rubbed her clit while my thrusts came faster. I felt Bella's internal walls tighten against me and within seconds we both reached our climax.

I pulled out and held Bella against me as our heartbeats slowed. I grabbed a small towel from my bag and cleaned up Bella before attending to myself. After I pulled back on my jeans, I helped Bella into hers. When we were righted, I pulled Bella into another tight embrace.

"Everything is going to be okay. We will get through this. Together. "

Bella nodded into my chest and pulled away. I unlocked the doors and we stepped out into civilisation and out of our bubble.

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BPOV

"Come on, Edward." I said, tugging his arm.

"Bella—" He started.

"No. No 'Bella'. It's just the cafeteria. You are not going to pick up any strange diseases or inhale toxic gas. I've been in there countless times and I'm fine."

Edward was being irrational. Just because he was some whiz at cooking didn't mean that he could snub cafeteria food. He tried to get me to come back with him to his apartment so he could cook me a decent meal but with the drive there and back I would be late for my next class. He eventually softened his scowl and opened the glass doors so I could step in first.

"Thank you." I said.

The cafeteria was huge. The walls were all frosted glass so it was always bright with the little sunlight we got and the huge light fixtures above. The cafeteria held everything from breakfast cereals to pasta, pizza to cheeseburgers and on special days even some Indian food. The dessert carousel always had Jell-O, over seven types of cheesecake and an assortment of pie.

Because of my time constrictions, I settled for pizza. Our spontaneous lovemaking in the lecture hall was the most intense thing I ever experienced. I felt Edward every step I took and I loved it. When he walked out on me earlier, I thought that he would not have wanted to see me ever again. Edward had to truly be the best man on this Earth because he came back to me, he loved me, he would wait and he made love to me again.

My sensual lover looked at my cheese pizza suspiciously but said nothing; he was learning. I made my way over to the dessert and picked up slices of cheesecake and pie. Edward always struck me as an apple pie person. I swiped my meal card before Edward could offer to pay and we made our way over to an empty table.

"I don't understand how you can eat that, Bella." Edward said.

"It's really good. Trust me. Although I will confess this, I did miss your cooking yesterday. The pasta I had here just didn't match up to yours."

He smiled and blushed. I leaned over and gave him a kiss on the cheek for being a good sport about cafeteria food. I pushed the apple pie to him with a fork daring him to eat it. Not to miss a challenge, Edward picked up the fork, took a piece of the pie and gave it a 'death stare' before putting it in his mouth. He chewed slowly, as thought afraid of eventually swallowing it but after seconds after, his expression changed; he was smiling.

"Wow. Bella, you were right. That pie was extraordinary." He confessed after he swallowed his bite, quickly following up with another. "Thank you."

I laughed at him and finished my pizza.

"Bella, you have to taste this." Edward offered, holding his fork out to me.

"Edward, I already know how the pie tastes. This is my turf remember?"

He laughed but still held out the fork. I rolled my eyes at him and took the bite off the fork. He was right, as usual, this apple pie was extraordinary. They must have put something different in it. Edward watched me as a chewed and swallowed.

"Okay, you were right, it was extraordinary."

He leaned in and pressed him lips to mine quickly. When he pulled away, an expected voice came from behind us.

"Bella?"

I felt numb at the mention of my name. Tanya saw everything.

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