Sorry its taken so long!
Scigeekgirl - well see soon
Goofy4ever - she was always the admirer... I just suddenly decided to add this... drama
Lunasky99 - wait and see ;)
Idkmybffjill1314 - here's one :)
Lily-lunn55 - Sorry! I know, had to break a heart somehow ;) it'll get better though, promise!
Twiligrl - maybe later
Maya's funeral was yesterday, her death a few days before. I feel so empty, so alone. My best-friend, one of them, is dead. I'll never see her again, never hear her laugh. I won't see her smile, she her hit Mike over the head for being an idiot. She won't be able to see my children, she won't have any. She won't get married, and she wouldn't see my wedding... she isn't going to be my bridesmaid. What am I going to do? Maya's gone. Forever.
"I'm so, so sorry" Jared whispers as he hold me, running his hand through my hair.
"Why? Why did she try taking the short cut?" I cry. "its not fair, Jared, its not fair."
"I know" he kisses my forehead.
"I can't stop thinking about her, about what she looked like" I tell him. "Thank god Tilly was sleeping. But Jared, oh Jared!"
"Shhh" he kisses me again, rubbing my back with one hand.
"You were with her, was she in pain, was she scared, did she say anything?" I ask, looking up at him. He nods, looking at me with sad eyes. "well, what? What did she say?"
"She... she was scared... and it hurt a little, I think. She... she put the letters in your locker, she was your admirer all along" he replies.
"Maya!" my heart breaks again and I begin to cry.
Maya sent me those love notes. She was my secret admirer and I didn't even know it. I should have known, if I was that good of a friend, I would have known. I may not share her feeling but still! I feel like a waste of a friend, I shouldn't be here any more, I'm a terrible person. I didn't even realise my best-friend had a crush on me!
" I miss her Jar" I tell him, wrapping my arms around his neck.
"I know baby, I know" he says, rubbing my back.
"She was on her way to see me! If I wasn't here, if I wasn't born than she would still be here, alive" I sob, grabbing a tissue from my beside table.
Suddenly Jared took hold of my face in both of his hands, forcing me to look at him. "Don't say that, don't you dare. If you weren't here, than what's the point of me. I love you Kim, more than anything in the world and I couldn't live without you. I wouldn't want to. What happened to Maya was an accident and, I'm sorry, but it was obviously meant to be... the spirits need her."
"But she was so young! She never even got to live" I tell him. "Her birthday is in two months, she wasn't even eighteen!"
"I know she didn't and honey, if I could bring her back I would" he assures me. "But I can't... no one can... and Kim, you can't go on like this, she wouldn't want you to."
Jared's POV
"Will you take me to Port Angeles?" Kim asks, wiping her tears away.
"Of course" I nod. "When?"
"Now" She says. "I'll just shower and get dressed."
"Okay" I nod. "I'll go take Tilly to Emily while you get ready."
"Alright, thanks" she mumbles, standing up and walking from the room.
I follow her out and watch her as she walks into the bathroom. I go into Tilly's room where she's playing with her dollies. I go straight for her bag which is hanging on the handle of her closet. I grab it and put spare clothes in and a few toys.
"Come on, Tilly" I say, grabbing her coat from by her door. I hold it for her, letting her put her arms though. "Pick one dolly to take."
"Where are we going?" she asks, grabbing the dolly with blonde hair, Phoebe; her favourite.
"To Emily's house" I reply. "She's going to look after you while I take Kimmy out, to make her feel better."
"Is it because of Maya?" she questions, looking up at me with her child's eyes.
After a few seconds I answer, "Yeah, she does."
"When is Maya coming back?" she asks, taking my hand as we start to leave the house. "I miss her. She was meant to take me for ice-cream."
"Tilly, honey, Maya's gone away... she's not coming back for a while" I answer, putting her into her car seat.
"But..." she says, her eyebrows pulling down. "What about the ice-cream?"
"I get Emily to take you" I tell her. "Yeah?"
"Yeah" she nods.
She looks out the window as I drive, humming to herself. It sounds like 'Twinkle Twinkle little star'. I smile a little as I listen to her, she's so innocent; not knowing what's going on. She doesn't know what's happened to Maya, doesn't know that she's gone. Poor baby. We pull up to Emily's house and I get out before helping Tilly out. I hold her hand as we walk towards Emily's.
"Em" I call out as I push the door open.
"Jared? Did you bring Kimmy? How is she?" Emily questions, coming out of the kitchen. "Oh, Tilly, hi sweetheart."
"Hey, Em, could you look after her? Kim wants me to take her to Port Angeles" I say, watching Tilly as she runs into the front room, shouting for Claire.
"Of course" Emily nods, taking Tilly's bag from me. "How's Kim?"
"She's getting better, I mean, she wants to go out" I reply with a sigh, running a hand through my hair.
"Good, poor thing" she mumbles. "Go on, go back to her."
"Thanks, I'll come back for Til later" I tell her, walking out the door.
"Are you sure?" I ask her as she lays down on the bed, her hand squeezing mine tightly.
"Yeah" she nods, looking determined.
"Close your eyes then" I whisper, rubbing the back of her hand with my thumb.
Kim's POV
The bird was beautiful, perfect in fact. Its done on my back on my right, just above where my panties would end. I got it because of her... Maya. She wanted this tattoo, she has done since we were twelve and in that place. So I got it, for her, to remember her. I always want to remember her.
I've done a one-shot for Maya! Should I upload it as a separate story or just upload it as a chapter in this one?
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