As Edward sped through the trees with me on his back I began to feel déjà vu. I still couldn't believe that that had just happened. What was I going to do? They were both going to find out sooner or later. And what if Edward saw Jacob? Knowing Jacob he would play the whole experience in his mind just to torment Edward. Then what would Edward feel. I was so messed up right now, what was I going to do? And I had now broken my promise to Charlie twice, and the one I made to Jacob.
I promised that I would get over Edward and that nothing or no one could ever separate us again. I realised that he knew Edward was back, that's why he had taken off so suddenly earlier. Oh no, what had he heard? What decisions had Edward been making that Jake could have heard? I began to feel sick. Edward turned his head towards me. His velvet voice made my guilt deepen.
"Bella, are you alright? It's been a while since we did this last. I should have just walked you back, I'm sorry." Again with making me feel bad. What was I going to do.
"Don't worry Edward," I tried to reassure him, "It's not that. I'm just a little confused right now." He understood that I needed to have some thinking time. His smile faded and once again a wave of guilt pulsed through my body.
What had I done? What would the consequences be? What would Charlie say if he ever found out? He would be so disappointed, he would be ashamed. Oh no. Charlie. If Edward went anywhere near him Charlie would think about Jacob and he would think about that time in the car the other day when we almost…
I had to keep Edward away from Jacob and Charlie. He came to an abrupt stop and put me back on the ground. His eyes turned solid.
"I'll be back later my love, there is someone I need to attend to." With that he was gone. Oh no! He knew! He knew, he knew, he knew, he knew. There was no other explanation for it. Now he would confront Jacob and Jacob would find out too. The only possible outcome would be disastrous – deadly for one of them. I shuddered at the thought.
Suddenly I realised that I needed to shower again. I sighed, hoping that Charlie was still at the Clearwater's. I opened the door and called for him. It was getting late, it was dark out but he still hadn't returned. To my luck, (which was a rare thing) he didn't return until after I had showered and dressed for bed. I greeted him, but my guilt began to build up again. I shouted goodnight and closed my bedroom door.
That night I had another nightmare; Charlie wouldn't look at me. Billy refused to talk to me. Standing before me were the two men I loved the most in the entire world. However, they had their backs to me. As they both turned round they gasped. Looking down I noticed the swelling lump on my body. It grew by the second. They began to fight, whilst screaming,
"Bella! Bella! You need to choose! Bella! Bella!"
I sat up in bed and I realised I was screaming. I pulled the covers off me and felt my stomach. I was fine, no swelling lump. I looked over across the darkness and saw a pair of golden eyes starring at me. Edward was by my side in an instant.
"Bella," he whispered, "are you alright? I heard you screaming from outside so I came to check on you. I should have known you'd be having nightmares." He sighed. Him being here reminded me of Jacob. Jacob…where was he? And why was Edward here? Shouldn't he be mad at me for what I had done?
"Bella calm down" he sighed again and wiped the tears from my eyes. He placed his cool hand on my cheek as I was sweating. It felt to soothing, an immediate pang of guilt attacked my insides again. I groaned as I threw myself into his arms.
"Don't worry Bella, it was just a dream." He began humming that same familiar lullaby, the voice of an archangel soft in my ear.
Soon enough I was fast as sleep again. This time my dream was different; I had spent the day cleaning the house when Edward arrived home from his hunting trip. Standing in the doorway was the most handsome man I could ever have imagined And he was mine. He rushed over to meet me and swept me in his arms and kissed me. Then the others arrived also. Alice was first through the door, she interrupted our kiss and hugged me. Then Rosalie, who was a little more apprehensive. She hugged me though, but not as comfortable. Emmet's booming laughter was next to fill the hallway. He hugged me tight. This just left Jasper and Carlisle. Esme had spent the day with me also, cleaning. This dream was different because I was married to Edward, there were no children and I was a vampire.
