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I'm glad you guys are enjoying my fan fic, and thanks for reviewing!

LuvTommy56, yeah,I'm a huge Blink-182 fan too, glad you liked the songs.

"Had Me At Good Bye" is a song by Wakefield.

"My Immortal" is a song by Evanescence, I did not write it.


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Had Me At Good Bye

Alexz Voice Over

So it's been a week since I've been a graduate. Not everything's been going as planned, but hey, it's summer vacation, I don't have any more homework, and all I have to worry about is getting this album finished and go over papers for tour. I want Tommy to come on tour with me this time. After these past three months I don't know how I can go even a week without him there. It's so weird—a good weird, but still. I love him and am so glad he loves me, but I still think love is funny. Sometimes I just wish I had a remote control on our lives. I could pause those moments where Julie would pop in, fast forward through the times were apart, and rewind those kisses that you never want to stop. I got all those Disney princess' beat in one department at least, and there's no way I'm losing my prince.

"So, Miss Harrison," Tommy said as he leaned back in his chair with a big grin on his face. "How does it feel to be dating an ex Boyz Attack member?"

"Well," she said as she leaned against the soundboard, "It feels like I'm running around babysitting all day."

Tommy raised an eyebrow and dropped his jaw, "Oh. Oh really now?" he said with a giant grin on his face as Jude smiled back at him chuckling as Tommy quickly grabbed her around her waist pulling her onto his lap, tickling her stomach.

Jude laughed as she struggled to get out of his grip, "Stop!" she yelled playfully, trying to get away, but Tommy just pulled her close to him, her faces only inches away from his, and he stared deep into her eyes. "Don't stop.." she said quietly.

Tommy began to kiss her as the door flew open and Julie ran in, "Daddy!" she yelled as she ran toward them and jumped up on Jude's lap, and gave Tommy a big hug. "Whatcha guys doing?"

"Playing a game." Tommy said.

"Can I play!" she asked with excitement in her voice.

"No," Jude began as she laughed a little, "this is a big people game."

"Okay." Julie said as she made herself a little more comfy on Jude's lap, "Daddy is Jude the mommy?"

Jude's face turned to complete shock. Total hit to the face she thought. Tommy knew she got uncomfortable from that comment as he looked from her face to Julie's. "Why do you say that?" he asked as he checked Jude's expression which was unreadable.

"Kids at daycare. They say the girl who's always with the daddy is the mommy." she explained as she played with the toy she held in her hand.

Tommy stuttered, not knowing what to say, or how to say it to make Jude feel better.

This is one of those times where the pause button would come in handy.

Opening Credits

Kaiden cheerfully made her way down the hall to her room, but stopped in Jude's doorway when she heard crying. "Jude?" Kaiden said as she slowly walked in Jude's room. The door was open, so she didn't feel like she was intruding.

"Leave me alone Kaiden."

"What's wrong?"

"I can't talk about it, just please. Leave me alone."

"Is it Tommy?"

Jude just shook her head, "Can you go? Close the door on your way out."

Anger rolled up Kaiden's arms as she thought Tommy broke her heart. She left Jude's room, closing the door as requested and made her way to G-Major.

"Yo! Tom!" Kaiden yelled as she linked her arm on his and made him walk backwards into Darius' office.

"What are you doing!" he asked as she pushed him into the wall. "You can't just take me away from an important conversation like that."

"Why'd you break up with Jude!" she yelled as she threw her finger in his chest.

"Ow! What? I didn't break up with her."

"Save it Quincy! Why else would she be at home ballin' her eyes out!"

"What?"

"You suck at lying man."

"No, wait—Jude said I broke up with her?"

"I asked if you were the reason why she was crying, and she shook her head yes!"

"No, no, no. It's Julie."

"What?" Kaiden asked as she took a step back from him.

"Problem we've had from the beginning is the age difference. Me having a kid made it seem so much worse, and Jude keeps trying to get over that. She'll turn a year older and a month later so do I."

"Sorta on the same path, and yet I'm not."

"Julie came in today asking Jude if she was the mommy."

"Oh."

"She's that upset about it?"

"Yeah. She was crying so hard like she was about to throw up. You better be telling me the truth, it just seems like there's so much more."

"Right now, Jude has so much stress on her shoulders."

"Tell me about it. I mean all those autographs."

"This isn't funny Kaiden. It scares me. And I don't know what to do. I mean I want to help her but nothing comes to mind."

"What else is going on? I mean prom's out of the way, and that crap those chicks said in the bathroom, who cares, they're long gone, she has no school! And graduation's over. Everything else should be paradise, right?"

"That's what it looks like on the outside."

"Then what's the inside?"

"Her friends need help so she tries to be there for them. She's got an album due here soon. D wants a new song by tomorrow night. Things with her mom haven't been cool in so long, she's not getting along to well with Yvette–"

"She can join the club—"

"A bunch of little things just make her go crazy. I'm doing all I can."

Kaiden looked at him for a second, studying him. "Why do I have this feeling that you're not telling me everything?"

"Blimey mate!" Speed said in an English accent as Jude entered G-Major. He looked to Kyle, "Do you know who that be?"

"She be the Instant Star winner, that who that be!"

"No bloody way?" Speed replied as he turned to Jude, "You be that winner?"

Jude faked a smile at them, then Wally said something, "Ah, mates I think ye made her a tad embarrassed."

"Jude!" Darius said as he came out of his office.

She looked back at him, he was holding what looked like a newspaper, "Yeah?"

"In my office now." he said as she followed into his office. As she took a seat, "What's this?" he asked, tossing the paper in her lap as he sat behind his desk.

Jude looked at the front page. There was a picture of her, Tommy, and Julie at the park, "Oh. Well Tommy asked me to go to the park with him when he took Julie there."

"Read the headline."

"Toronto's Instant Star winner of 2005 already taking parenting lessons from Ex Boyz Attack member Lil Tommy Q. Whole story on page 11."

"I don't like this Jude. You and Tom have to cool it, I don't want the public thinking of you like this."

"Darius I know, I'm—"

"I don't want to see stuff like this everyday. I know it's not true, but it's could ruin you."

Jude listened to Darius, mostly nodding at everything he said for the next five minutes until she could go start to record the song he wanted done by the next day. She carried her journal into Tommy's office, he smiled at her as she walked in, "Hey."

"Jude. We need to talk." he said as his smiled faded and worry crossed over Jude's face.

She tried to change the subject, not liking Tommy's tone, "I think I have a good song comin' along." she told him as she held up the journal.

He stood up from the desk, and walked around to the front, "Jude." he said while placing his hand on her knee.

She shook her head at him, like she knew what he was going to say. Her eyes teared up, "What?"

Tommy stared into her eyes, trying to say what he knew he needed to say, what he needed to do.

Jude charged through Tommy's door, crying, gripping the journal in hand."Jude please!" he yelled as he came after her. Jude turned around and threw her journal at him, and ran out of G-Major.

First commercial

Jude stood in the recording booth the next day, and sang the song she wrote when she left G-Major yesterday, never looking at Tommy once.

"I'm so tired of being here,

Suppressed by all my childish fears,

And if you have to leave,

I wish that you would just leave,

'Cause your presence still lingers here,

And it won't leave me alone,

These wounds won't seem to heal,

This pain is just too real,

There's just too much that time cannot erase,

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,

And I held your hand through all of these years,

But you still have,

All of me.

You used to captivate me,

By your resonating life,

Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind,

Your face it haunts,

My once pleasant dreams,

Your voice it chased away,

All the sanity in me.

These wounds won't seem to heal,

This pain is just too real,

There's just too much that time cannot erase,

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,

And I held your hand through all of these years,

But you still have,

All of me.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,

But though you're still with me,

I've been alone all along.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,

And I held your hand through all of these years,

But you still have,

All of me."

While the song played, it showed clips of Jude recording, looking like she was about to burst in to tears. She couldn't look at Tommy. It showed clips of Kaiden and Sadie leaving with Jude from G-Major, and Kaiden giving Tommy a disappointed look. The song ended as Jude lays down, starring at her ceiling, crying.

Sadie made her way into Tommy's office, "What's wrong with you?" she yelled, making him jump in his seat.

"What?"

"Do you just enjoy breaking hearts?"

"Sadie–"

"No, don't Sadie me! I'm getting sick of this Tommy. Jude's my little sister, and wether you want to hear this or not, you're going to!"

"I broke up to help her!"

"What! Help her with what!"

"If you'd stop yelling I could tell you!" he yelled back at her as she shut her mouth to listen. "I didn't break it off because I don't love her. I broke it off because I do."

"That makes no sense you know this right?"

"She has so much to deal with right now, and one of her biggest problems is me. It's Julie. She was hesitant for us to be together. I can't fix every problem, so I knew that this was right. I had to take a load off her shoulder."

"By taking away her boyfriend?"

"I'm still here. I'll always be here."

"That's one thing you don't take away."

"I'm not going away forever Sadie. I care about her. She has so much on her shoulders right now and I could tell this Julie thing was making it all worse. I can't make your guys' mom come home. I can't take back things people have said about her behind her back, I can't make her and Kat friends again. The one thing I could do is killing me, but I bet it takes a lot of stress off her."

Sadie rolled her eyes as she stood up, "I don't have time for you Tommy. I have a little sister at home with a broken heart that I have to look after."

Jude sat on the couch holding her knees to her chest as Kaiden put her hand on Jude's shoulder for comfort, and holding a shoulder open for Jude to cry on. "Jude I'm sure his reasons were reasonable."

"No."

"What'd he say?" she asked as Jude rubbed below her nose and sniffed.

"We need to break it off." she said as she started to cry even harder.

"Shh, Jude it's okay. We don't need to talk about it now."

Right then Sadie walked in with a big box of chocolates and a bag full of movies, "I have thee perfect recipe for a break up Jude!" she announced as she dropped her keys and came around to the front of the couch.

"What's in the bag?" Kaiden asked.

Sadie held up one bag, "Movies." Then the other, "Ice cream." she took a half gallon of cookies and cream and handed it to Jude, took out a rocky road for herself and handed Kaiden a chocolate chip cookie dough and sat down. "We're gonna cheer you up okay?"

Jude looked over her ice cream, but didn't start to eat it; it was like she couldn't do it, like she couldn't do anything. Eventually she did give in to Sadie nagging and had some ice cream and watched the movies with the two people she wanted to be with most, well second to Tommy still.

Darius sat in his office with Liam and Tommy as they listened to the song that Jude had just recorded, "My Immortal." Tommy announced as it finished.

"It's hot."

"That one should go on the album." Liam said as he fiddled through some papers.

"Where's Jude?" Darius asked.

"She went home. She wasn't feeling to well."

"I wouldn't think you'd be feeling to well either Mr. Quincy." Liam said as he looked over to Tommy, "She threw that journal of hers at you pretty hard."

"I'm fine."

"What happened?" Darius asked as he made it clear he was completely lost.

"Seems Mr. Quincy and our little Instant Star have broken it off."

Darius looked from Liam to Tommy instantly, "You two broke up?"

Tommy looked down to his feet, "Thanks Liam for announcing my personal life."

"Hey, it's your personal life if it doesn't affect me. Then it makes it my business." he told him, "Is this song about you?" he asked while holding up the cd. Tommy nodded. "You better hope she's okay T."

"Look, it isn't a messy break up that everyone's making it out to be!"

"Not how I saw it."

"Can it Liam!"

"Hey!" Darius yelled, interrupting them. "Look, however it was, she better be okay. I don't want this screwing up her head iight?" he headed for the door, "This is why I told you both it was a bad idea!"

Second Commercial

Jude was home alone, sitting on the bottom step of her stairwell by the phone. Hoping, wishing, that Tommy would call and tell her he was an idiot and wanted her back. For the first time since Tommy broke up with her three days ago she wasn't crying. The doorbell rang which at first startled Jude. She got up and found Jamie standing there. "Hey." she said plainly.

"Jude, I heard what happened." he said as he saw the bottom of Jude's lip quiver, "I'm so sorry." he said as he put his arms around her. Jude instantly wrapped her arms around him and cried her heart out.

"I really loved him Jamie."

"Shh," he said as he stroked her hair, "It's okay. I'm here. I'll always be here."

"He said that too."

My Immortal background music (piano) plays.

Tommy tucked Julie into her bed, kissed her forehead good night, and walked out of her room, shutting off the lights and leaving her door open a little. He walked down the hallway and went into his office and came across the picture of him and Jude, the same one she looked at the first night she stayed at his place. He caught his breathing, as if he were holding back tears. He brought the picture up and softly kissed Jude, and slowly set it back on the table, hating how he hurt her again, and hoping she'll give him the time of day to listen to his reasons for his actions.


313 It's My Life

promo

Jude's album is done. She's graduated from school. There are no responsibilities waiting on her anymore, especially with the tour papers unsigned. She wants to get away, she needs to get away. And Kaiden helps Jude out without even knowing it.