AN: Its been a long time…there are so many reasons I haven't written in awhile, but I would just be making excuses by telling you haha! Anyways, I'm glad to know that people still like this story and new people have found and read it since it has inspired me to continue to write this to the end. Sorry for any inconvenience. So without further ado here is Chapter 11. I hope you enjoy~


Chapter 11

My world…it's in a daze. There are so many emotions and feelings swirling around that I cant comprehend. Its like so many pent up feelings finally having a voice…I can actually breath now. I can feel the shared feelings for each other…they are so strong…and to be honest…it scares me…

I felt like I was kissing him for hours and that any second the sun would come up, but not even that would stop us. Maybe god had answered my prayer and stopped time for me…even though I knew that was impossible I couldn't feel anything other than him so it seemed possible. All good things must come to an end though.

He gently pulled away from me and I opened my eyes to take in the surrounding area for just the first time. Everything looked so new to me, as though I had never seen a park before. Was this what love did to you? I hadn't noticed that I was clutching onto his shirt as though I was about to fall until he laughed and I looked at him. I stared into his beautiful dark blue eyes and saw sadness…

"Wha…" I started to say something when he pulled me into a hug. Usually I would have felt ecstatic to hug him…but I could feel sadness behind it. I was so confused…was it all a mistake? I couldn't find the words to start, but gladly I didn't have to since he started for me.

"How do you feel?" Ikuto asked gently pulling away. He caressed my cheek and stared at me with a smirk that only he could create, but I could see the sadness in his eyes even still.

"I'm…I don't know…I'm ok." I stammered managing to smile.

"You don't look very sure." He chuckled.

"Well…I don't know. Its my first serious kiss…how am I supposed to feel? I mean I know how I feel…I just…" I couldn't find the words to describe it and I didn't know why. I grabbed his hand from my face and intertwined our fingers together, not wanting to meet his gaze.

"I understand…" he mumbled.

I looked back up quickly thinking that my words had hurt him. "No, Ikuto. I don't mean it like that. I just…" he put his finger over my mouth to stop me.

"No, I really do understand." he smiled at me sadly and I could feel my stomach twist into knots.

"I'm sorry for kissing you." I let go of his hand and stepped back.

"Wait, wha…" he moved forward and stopped me again.

"Let me finish…I don't mean that I'm sorry for actually kissing you. I don't regret it by any means. I mean I'm sorry for doing it to soon…See, I cant have you yet. There…there's to much in our lives right now for me to give myself to you completely or for me to have you." he gently cupped my face in his hands as he said this.

I nodded. I understood what he meant…to much in my life and to much in his. I didn't even know his whole family situation and he didn't want to bring me in the middle of it. Not just yet, at least.

"I don't want to bring you into anymore problems. I want to save you from all of them, so I don't want to start something that will only make it harder for you. Don't worry though. I'd be a very bad kitty if I didn't make you happy." he smiled and poked my cheek. This was his usual way of teasing me and I could feel my face turn a little red.

I understood what he meant and I wanted to be mature about it, but it's so hard to be mature when you feel this way about someone…it takes all reason from you eyes. I sighed and put on my best smile blinking back tears that I didn't know had formed.

"I think I should take you home now." he said stretching.

I was sad…but not really sad. He had saved me again and that's all I needed. He wanted to save me even more and take me away from it all which made me feel relieved…I actually had someone that cared about me. I grabbed his hand as we walked, trying to soak up every minute I had with him. Thankfully, he intertwined our fingers and held tighter.

I felt my irritation rise as we neared closer to my house. I really didn't want to go back home where I felt so alone. I felt as though I had a place with him, like I actually mattered and I didn't want it to end so quickly. I guess feelings like love really are tortuous…

When I finally saw my house my heart literally stopped and then fell to my feet which then made it very hard to walk since I ultimately stopped walking. Everything started going in slow motion in my mind like in some movie scene. My parents were home.

It wouldn't have been such a problem if I was alone but since Ikuto was with me…

He stepped in front of me and waved his hands in my face trying to get my attention. "Hello? I was wondering if Amu was around. Im trying to take her home but it seems she I don't know, forgot how to walk." he started laughing when I gave him my usual cynical look and huffed with frustration.

I pushed him to the side and pointed at my house. "No my parents are home. Do you know what that means?"

He shrugged looking uninterested. "No midnight cuddle on your porch?"

I blushed when he said that but kept my attitude in tact. "No it means that shit just got real!"

He busted out laughing when I said that but I was entirely serious.

"Its not funny! My parents are jerks! I really don't want them to meet you!" It was hard to keep my attitude with him laughing in his alluring voice.

"Well I didn't plan on going to watch tv with you in your living room or anything. I'll just take you to the door." he was still laughing but made some effort to control it.

I sighed and shook my head. Why was I so worried…its not like they really cared what I did anyway but I felt like for some reason this would make them care.

"Fine…" I mumbled finally giving in.

"Ok now smile and tell me im pretty." he laughed dodging me as I tried to smack his arm.

I grabbed his arm and rested my head on it smiling to myself. I would make this happiness last for as long as I could, parents or not. We walked slowly to my porch, me painfully taking each step and him smirking as we took them.

I stepped on my porch hesitantly staring at the porch light wishing it would burn out from the glare I was giving it. He laughed and I turned to face him with a sad smile. I didn't want him to go…

"Don't look so sad princess." he started twirling a strand of my hair around his finger. I grabbed his hand intertwining our fingers and tried to smile. This is where we said goodbye until he randomly showed up again….

He leaned in to kiss me and I closed my eyes waiting for our lips to meet when I heard the door open behind me. With my eyes wide I turned around to face my "mother" glaring at me.

She held the door open with one hand while the other one was positioned firmly on her hips. She glared at me then at Ikuto which sent a spark of annoyance through me.

"So this is where you have been? Playing floozy with this delinquent?" She motioned to Ikuto without even looking at him and I felt my anger grow even more. I started to object loudly, when Ikuto covered my mouth.

"Good evening Mrs. Hinamori. My name is Ikuto and I assure you I am not a delinquent. I was only bringing her back home. Im a friend of hers from school, well sorta." he was being so polite and it sickened me. This woman didn't deserve polite! Where was his usual sarcasm? That's the Ikuto I wanted at this moment.

"I know who you are Tsukiyomi. I made no mistake with my words." She continued to glare only this time switching her attention to him.

I looked up with shock finally reaching my peak of anger. "Why are you being so rude to him? How do you have any right to say anything about him?"

She laughed softly and closed her eyes. "You obviously know nothing about him…well that aside your past your curfew."

"Since when did I have a curfew!" I screamed back.

She had insulted someone who meant more to me than the entire house did. I looked up at Ikuto who had a solemn look on his face which only fueled my anger more.

"I don't know, since you have lived here? Lets not forget that you are grounded." She crossed her arms and continued to glare. I could see her anger beginning to rise and it was exactly what I wanted. I wanted to make her mad, more so than ever now.

"Wow, now that you've decided to care! Good job! Your so…" Ikuto cut me off before I could finish.

"I should be going. Sorry to trouble you Mrs. Hinamori. See you later Amu." He gave me a weak smile then started to walk away.

I reached out to grab his shirt trying to pull him back. "Wait Ikuto you don't have to go."

He turned to grab my hand with the same weak smile. "Goodnight Amu." I watched as he walked off, my heart heavier than ever. I blinked back the tears and turned to face my mother.

I pushed through my mother into the house before turning to face her. "That was totally uncalled for!"

"Now I see where you got your attitude from. Your not to see him anymore." I felt my mouth fall open as I looked at her in disbelief. She was trying to take away the last piece of happiness I had and I refused to let that happen.

"You cant make me stop seeing him! He hasn't done anything to me but made my life a little less hellish! He cares more about than you and my so called father do! You understand nothing!" I screamed at the top of my lungs while my eyes burned with tears.

"Stop yelling you will wake your sister." she said sternly.

"That's all your ever concerned about! Ami this, Ami that! What about me!" I said finally breaking down.

"Your acting like a child. Of course we are concerned about you and that's why you aren't to see him anymore. Im doing this for your own good and you will listen to me as long as you're my child."

How could she pretend to be so concerned now? She didn't care how bad I hurt inside and I could see it clearer now. I choked away my tears and glared at her.

"You don't know anything about me anymore. Im not your child, im just something you keep around. I will never stop seeing him no matter what you say! You wont take away the last bit of happiness I have in my life!" I stormed off without waiting for a response. I stomped up the steps hoping to wake everyone in the house with the satisfaction that I had won at this moment.

I threw myself on my bed after turning on my music. I crushed my pillow in a death hug and smiled at the song playing. The Only Exception by Paramore really fit how I felt at the moment. Everything else didn't matter to me. I was tired of thinking, I just wanted to float.

My phone started to vibrate and I jerked out of my position to grab it out of my pocket. I smiled at the screen when I saw his name.

Ikuto: Sweet dreams, princess.

I sighed and fell back into my bed laughing. It wasn't a dream. He really did care. Before I knew it I was asleep with sweet dreams of Ikuto's violin playing in my head.


AN: Well there you have it! I hope you all liked it. It was well overdue and I just hope it turned out okay since I havent written anything in awhile. Once again sorry. I will try harder to update when I can. Please continue to be patient, I really do appreciate everyone that reads. So leave me a review and let me know what you think. Until Next Time!~

~MewRaven94