"You… You can't leave…"
Roxas tried to gather his thoughts as he walked in circles…
"I… I don't want to leave… But…"
Axel stood up.
"But nothing, if you don't want to leave don't leave…"
"It's just… Not that easy…"
Axel was raising his voice hysterically now.
"What's not easy about it? You tell her to fuck off, you don't go and we stay together… It's that simple!"
Roxas now slightly afraid at how Axel was acting raised his voice in an attempt to cease his hysteria.
"Don't shout at me!"
The room fell silent Roxas voice echoing in the silence…
Axel sat back on the bed…
"So that's it then… After all we've been through you're just going to leave… Fine…"
Lying back on his bed he turned his face to the wall.
Roxas moved closer to the bed reaching out to touch his lover but Axel seemed to sense him and wince away…
"Just don't…"
Roxas pulled his hand away sitting on his bed…
The cream coloured walls and blue sheets seeming less cheery by the second…
His blue eyes began to stream tears.
"I… I wanted to spend our last night together… I wanted to remember what you felt like I wanted to remember you and see you every fucking time I closed my eyes and if I couldn't have you with me always then at least be happy that I had you… If you can't do that for me then…"
He didn't finish the sentence…
The next sound Axel heard from Roxas was a door slamming and steps running down the hall…
/There's nothing I can do…/
The redhead remained nose touching the wall, feeling tears and anger welling up in his eyes...
Roxas' words still ringing in his ears salt in his wounds every single word stabbed worse than the last…
'I wanted to spend our last night together…'
/So did I… Only I never wanted it to be our last night… I wanted us to live every night like it was our last… But never actually be the last time I would touch your skin… Kiss your lips…/
He began to feel renewed anger and sadness…
/I wish…/
He imagined Roxas standing there in front of him crying his voice a mere whisper.
'I wish I'd never met you…'
The voice sounded almost too real…
Roxas walked around the grounds tears in his eyes, his whole body shaking…
/I feel so… Trapped… I can't stay here they won't let me… I do not want to go home... I can't go home…/
His eyes began to stream tears as he sat upon a rock.
"Oh god…"
He seemed to wail out to no one but the trees around him as his head sunk into his hands…
Breaths turning into gasps as his sobs shook his entire tiny form…
On his knees now he cried up to the heavens…
"If anyone can hear me, if there's anyone who can help me… I need it now... Please… Just…"
He sank to the ground, tear filled eyes catching sight of something partially hidden in fallen leaves…
Axel tossed and turned on his bed…
/No… I will not be his sex toy just for his stupid last night here… Just because he's leaving he thinks it's the end of his life as he knows it…/
Something didn't feel right in the back of Axel's mind…
'Go after him…'
Whispered the tiniest voice…
/No… I refuse to be used…/
'He looked pretty upset…'
/Oh and of course I'm not…/
'But not quite as upset as he probably is…'
/I have my own shit to deal with…/
'Part of this 'shit' you speak of is Roxas…'
/I said no…/
'I feel sorry for him… Look out the window…'
Axel gazed towards the window where heavy rain drops were beginning to fall…
/I can't you don't understand I…/
'You're afraid of being hurt…'
The redhead slid down the wall he was now standing against to the floor…
/You're right… I don't want to be hurt… Is that so wrong…?/
Roxas grabbed the thing from the leaves and pulling it up found a length of rope…
/'Zexion's a little tied up right now…'/
Roxas remembered how Axel had laughed saying this…
He would miss that laugh…
Roxas pulled the rope behind him as he walked away from where Zexion had been tied up…
His eyes glazed over trance like it was raining heavily now, but he didn't care, he continued to walk blindly while still being able to see…
It was like someone had just taken an eraser and blurred the lines of real and fake…
When his conscious mind hit in, his only thought was Axel…
/My dear sweet Axel…/
He jumped from the branch he had climbed to and jumped like he was jumping into the arms of someone he loved…
His motion was stopped short with a jerk and a fall backwards…
/I love you…/
Axel was still against the wall crying screaming out hysterically.
"Leave me alone! He's made his choice… Fuck you… I've made mine too… Stop talking to me…"
'You're a frightened little child… Playing a big boys game… Sure you can fuck him… But what about this? Huh Axel? Not ready to step up when the cute little blonde fuck toy is troubled are you?'
"I'll go… I'll find him… I will…"
Axel was in pure despair…
"I'm going… Just…J-Just leave me alone…"
The redhead got to his feet and fled the room running through the rooms he called.
"Roxas! Roxas please… Answer me…I'm sorry…"
He was crying out hysterically again searching everywhere in vain…
He ran from the place and sprinted calling him…
"Please Roxas answer me!"
His voice echoed as he came nearer to the edge of the grounds…
This was near where he had tied Zexion up…
"Please Roxas…"
Crying out he backed against something and in fright fell against it…
Looking up, he saw the blonde hair…
The same clothes…
Bright blue eyes…
There was Roxas…
Startlingly beautiful even as he stared in shock up at him, his body limp, his neck tied…
Hanging from the tree he had once tied Zexion to…
Axel's eyes took in the scene…
He reached out to touch Roxas…
"R-Roxas… No… It can't be…"
His hand was ice cold…
Axel searched the ground and finding a piece of glass cut the rope that bound Roxas and took him down, he lay his head in his lap…
His mind went blank from shock but tears flowed freely down his cheeks…
"Roxas… I wanted to come out after you… But he didn't want me to… He blocked my way… He cried… You know how hard I find it to leave people in need…"
Axel leaned forward kissing Roxas cold forehead, his fingers closed Roxas eyelids over his startling blue eyes…
His eyes looked alive despite the fact that he clearly wasn't…
"Don't worry Roxas… You're safe now… I'm going to kill that guy for holding me up…"
Neither boy's were found at breakfast the nest morning…
Or at lunch…
When Roxas parents arrived they demanded that he be found at once…
But before the search could begin an alarmed looking patient came running into the hallway with urgent news that had to been seen to straight away…
Zexion stood in their room head down…
A note in one hand which shook as he read every pain staking word...
He left the note under Roxas pillow…
The sounds of people running by him and the voices mentioning the names of his dead friends seemed to fade into the background…
He was going into peoples empty rooms and borrowing extension leads from his neighbours…
Once he was sure he had enough he returned to their room…
Plug was plugged into plug…
His hand shook as he scrawled onto a piece of paper…
'We were friends… But don't disrespect our memories by saying we were dumb enough to make a pact…'
Sitting fully clothed in the bath he dunked his head under the water keeping his hands dry…
His hair now stuck to his face in strands, his long sleeved t shirt sticking to his chest, his lower lip quivering a drop of water hanging from it, he held up the radio over the water and with a breath inwards dropped it…
'I'm doing this because I feel life is empty without them… If you want to call that a pact then do so… It's not like I'll be there to stop you…'
Another alarmed student ran up to the doctor…
"What is it?"
The girl sobbed.
"It's Z-Zexion… H-He's…"
The grisly scene played out in front of the girls eyes…
Roxas lay there head in Axel's lap, rope cut but still hanging around his neck like a twisted kind of leash…
Axel with a slash across his throat with the glass he'd used to slash the rope, clearly self inflicted...
Now Zexion in the bath, electrocution…
Three graves now stand where they once would have done, not too far from the fountain where they'd sat so many times…
Surrounded by roses…
There they find their eternal peace…
