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Hey guys, sorry for the late update. I was off my seizure medication for awhile and I started it back up. One of the side effects is mood swings and depression and low and behold, I was hit hard. I didn't want that to reflect in my writing so I decided to wait it out until I was in a better place.
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Edward's POV
Bella's lips are attached to my neck and her hand is rubbing up and down my chest. I moan slightly and I can feel her grin against my skin. I pull her away, her deep brown eyes are dilated and it makes me want her even more. My hand reaches down to the button of her jeans but she stops me and looks at me shyly.
"We can't…I um-It's not a good time to be down there." I don't understand her at first but then it hits me. She must be on her period. I let out a sigh of relief. While I know it was unlikely that Bella would get pregnant, this reassures me and I feel the stress of worry drift away. I'd love to have a baby with her but not until we've gotten established in our careers and we don't hae to worry about things like money.
"I'm sorry, Love. Do you need anything? Pain killers? A heating pad? Chocolate?" Bella blushes deep red but shakes her head.
"I'm fine. Thanks for not freaking out and making sure I'm ok though. It was really sweet." She presses a soft kiss to my lips and I stroke her cheek gently.
"I'm so in love with you Isabella Cullen. Hell, if you asked me to go get you tampons, I'd probably do it." She laughs and cuddles into my side.
"I'm so in love with you too Edward Masen. I actually have to talk to you about something though. Alice is having her birthday party in two weeks and she wants to make sure you're still coming." Bella runs her hand through my hair and I let out a happy sigh. It feels great and I'm sure that if she did it long enough, I'd fall asleep.
"I'll definitly be there. I've actually already got the barbies I promised her. Plus I got her a couple outfits for them." I turn my head and kiss her cheek.
"That's one of the things I love most about you. You treat my little sister like a princess."
"She deserves it. Plus, I love her too. She's the coolest little kid I've ever met. I mean, she bargained with me and got me to buy her two toys. She needs to go into law or be a salesperson." I joke. Bella giggles and it makes the butterflies in my stomach flutter.
"As of right now, she wants to be a mermaid. However if you tell her that, she'll probably agree. She looks up to you so much, basically worships the ground you walk on. She tells my dad all the time how when she's older, she's going to find her own Edward that loves her." I laugh and push her hair from her face.
"Well, I am pretty perfect." I wink to let her know that I'm just kidding.
"So, how's therapy going?" she asks. My mom asked me to go to a few sessions, hoping it would help me sort through the confusion of my sexuality. Plus she thinks that Jasper pressuring me and the whole situation involving them may have altered me in some way.
"It's ok. Dr. Denali seems to think that what I'm feeling is just normal teenage boy stuff. Maybe he's right but…I don't feel attraction towards anyone but you. I don't want to say I'm straight but I'm not gay either. Like I told my mom, I'm your's." her hand rests on my chest on my heart. I cover it with my own. She has a small smile on her face.
We spend the next twenty minutes holding each other in comfortable silence. I reluctantly get out of her bed after the twenty minutes is up. Her parents had taken Alice to the movies. As much as we didn't like defying their rules, we just wanted to be close to each other. We're always under constant watch of our parents since they've found out that we've had sex. I tell Bella that I love her and head home.
As soon as I'm home, I text her. I just left her house and already I miss her. She's my heroin. I'm completely addicted and dependant on her. I wouldn't have it any other way though. The house is empty so I make my way to the game room and break out my xbox one. I play my game for a little while before I get hungry and head to the kitchen. I'm surprised to find my mom who is cooking dinner. She smiles brightly at me and asks if I'm hungry. I tell her I am and sit at the island. We talk about how school went and if I had homework.
My father has to work late so tonight it's just my mom and I. We just talk about normal stuff and she asks if I'd watch a movie with her. I feel like I'd been neglecting her lately so I agree. I can tell how happy it makes her. Her smile lights up her face and she asks what I'd like to watch. In the end, I let her pick the movie. She chooses to watch Pretty Woman. I did say that she could pick so I keep my disdain for the movie inside. I'm not a chick flick type of guy, however if my mom asks me to watch it with her, I will. She falls asleep about three fourths of the way through. I gently lift her off the couch and carry her to my parents bedroom and lay her on the bed. I head to my room to get started on my homework. My dad gets home a little after ten p.m. and heads straight to bed.
My dreams of Bella continue and I suddenly find myself wishing that time would move faster so we can begin our lives together. I want to marry her, live with her and make pretty babies with her. I know the first and last option will happen years down the road but living together…Maybe we can go to the same college or go to ones close together. We can rent a small apartment. I can make love to her whenever we want and be a family with her.
Hope you guys liked this chapter and once again, I'm sorry for the delay. Don't forget to review, your feedback encourages me to try and make every chapter better than the last. Thanks for reading and hope to hear from you!
