Chapter 11 Forbidden
"Tony..."
"Not only did I tell her that I love her... I also kissed her." McGee was not surprised he had a feeling how both Tony and Ziva felt each other and he heard the whispers behind their backs. It was natural in a mixed environment agents tend to flirt with one another. "What did she say?" Tony looked back on that day...
"...I know you are in a runt right now, but to do this? This is crazy…I…"
He did not finish his sentence instead he showed her how he felt. He remembered the kiss felt electric and he could swear she kissed him back with as much passion and love. Instead she pushed him away. "You should have not done that…"
He remembered very clearly what she had said and that what had hurt him the most. "I can not Tony… I do not see you in that way… You are like a big brother to me."
"She said she did not feel the same and I was more then a big brother to her." Tony turned to McGee. "But I felt her kiss me back...I'm sure she feels the same way...What do I do Tim?"
McGee knew for Tony to call him by his first name it was serious and he gave the best advice he could. "Give her time, be there for her when she finishes her mission; give her, her space. You said yourself she had it rough lately. Be there when it's over and needs a shoulder to cry on." Tony smiled his appreciation but it was not the answer he wanted. But McGee was not finish yet. "Tony. What about Gibbs? You know how he feels about dating co-workers. You have to be professional and you are losing it right now. Remember all that trouble with EJ?"
"I can't think about Gibbs right now..." Tony head was jumbled he couldn't think straight and the last think that was on his mind was Gibbs. "You don't have a choice..." Tony looked at where McGee's eyes were looking at... He saw Gibbs standing outside staring at them.
As the night was rolling on Ziva clearly enjoying herself, kissing Ruddy she didn't know if it was the coke or her own feelings coming through as she felt herself letting go, letting herself get lost in the music, forgetting everything that happened with Tony the previous day.
Reality set in and she remembered she was on a mission and had to cut the night short. "I really am enjoying myself with you. I have an early start tomorrow...Well today." Catching Giuseppe's eye he knew they had to get going as well. "We will walk you home?"
"You can walk me to a taxi is fine." She caught his look. "What?" She asked as smiled at him. "I just realised how much I enjoyed the night. What you said before about getting to know me more? I feel the same way! How about meeting me for lunch?"
"I would love to." Ziva smiled grew wide she was defiantly 'in'.
As they walked her to the nearest taxi, Ruddy and Ziva again kissed passionately before Ziva got in the taxi and handed Ruddy her number. As Ruddy and Giuseppe watched on Giuseppe turned to Ruddy. "You know nothing can happen right? I do not know what the boss wants with her or why. Just be careful."
"Don't worry about me man... It's nothing serious." Ruddy try to convince himself but could not hold his smile back as he looked at Ziva's number he couldn't stop staring at the taxi that Ziva got in, his eyes betrayed what he had said. "Yeah I can see that." Giuseppe shook his head as he walked away, Ruddy came back to his senses and followed his friend, smile on his face he enjoyed the night and couldn't wait for their next 'date'.
As Ziva got into bed she too couldn't wait to see him again, she still felt her heart race she still didn't know whether it was the drug or real maybe she will find at later on...
...Tony already forgotten.
Alarm ringing, sounding like jack hammers, Ziva groaned if she could she would stay in all morning she heard a text come through. Saw it was from Ruddy and can feel herself raising a smile with details on where to meet.
She actually could not wait to meet him again.
Arriving at NICS she tried to ignore the stares that Gibbs and co were giving her, especially diverting her attention away from Tony. "How was your night?" Gibbs asked. "Find anything interesting?"
"Yes in fact I did. McGee put Giuseppe Fauslo profile up." McGee did just that. "Giuseppe knows that something is off. He received a phone call and kept on watching me, watching my every step. My thoughts are Giuseppe is not the boss but the runner. I think we have someone leaking information from the inside."
"Are you sure?"
"Nothing concrete, but how many times we hear stories about bank robberies that were cause by someone they had employed or previously employed. We just need to get the hard evidence to prove it." She notice the way Gibbs and the rest were carrying staring at her. "What?" Gibbs showed her a plastic cup. "What is that?" She stared at the cup. "You know what it is...I heard you, we all heard you." Ziva looked around the bull pen only McGee avoided her look and Tony clearly worried.
"You want me to pee in a cup... I am fine. Besides if you heard me you know what I did. What I had to do."
"There are other ways... You could at least fake it."
"Fake it!? Did you not hear what I just said about the phone call Giuseppe received? He already knows something is wrong. You want answers I give you those answers." Gibbs still stared at her holding the cup, with his stare she relented and snatched the cup away from his hand. "Fine I pee in the damn cup."
"Not on your own, you don't" Ziva looked behind Gibbs and saw Abby waving her hand. Ziva let out a frustrating sigh and headed off to pee in a cup.
Fornell turned to Gibbs. "It's only been one day; I hope we have not lost her."
"You heard her she knows what she's doing." Gibbs reassured Fornell and himself.
"So how was your night? Sounds like you had fun!" Abby said trying to start some sort of conversation. "You know Abby it hard enough peeing with company but do you have to talk?"
"Sorry...But if you are finding it hard I can run the tap or make whooshing noises."
"Please god, no. I just need you to be quiet." Abby getting was silent, hearing the door unlock and Ziva not in the happiest of moods handed the plastic cup over. "You know we are here for you right?"
"I know...Thanks" Ziva smiled back and watched as Abby left. She splashed cold water on her face she heard the door open and wasn't surprised on who entered.
"What do you want Tony?"
"Just to see how you are. Peeing in a cup; not the best experience thing in the world."
"Yeah well... I guess it is part of the policies can not really blame him." She went over to the towels and wiped her face. "Ziva..." Hearing the soft tone in his voice as he called out her name made her shiver and send chills down her spine but she didn't want to talk right now. "I know what you want to say to me, but not right now I have work to get back to." As she was about to leave Tony grabbed her arm. "Step away from this..."
"I can not Tony. I can not step away. I need to do this."
"Why?" Ziva did not have a real answer for him and because of that she found herself getting angry with him. "I do not have to tell you my reasons. Can you not for once just back off? "
"Look, I get you're angry with me for kissing you, but I don't regret it." Ziva felt her temper rising but as she was at work she kept it in. "I already forgotten about it." It was the words that released Tony's grip and Ziva made her exit.
Ziva head back to the bull pen and apologised to Gibbs. "I am sorry...There was no way I could fake it. He was watching me like a bald eagle..." She waited for the correction as she saw Tony walking back to his desk, she saw the hurt in his eyes and for once he did not correct her. "...Hawk...Watching you like a hawk." She looked at McGee then back at Tony realising how much hurt he was in.
Gibbs sensing the tension again between the two of them stepped in to break it. "What's the plan?"
"I meeting his partner Ruddy for lunch hopefully he will take me to his... I hopefully fine out more detail about them." She broke off and looks at Tony to gage his reaction. She was a bit surprised to see he had none.
"Okay just be careful." Ziva looked into Gibb's eyes a man that she respected and had considered him a surrogate father. "I will."
The lunch date was going well and the day went fast, before she knew it, it was three o'clock. "I did not realise the time. I better go."
"Stay... Stay with me."
"I can not. Work will be wondering where I am."
"Say you had to go home for an emergency, I can speak for you...Pretend to be a doctor or something." He held her hand and looked deep into her eyes he truly felt something that he didn't feel before... Love.
She felt the way he held her hand and that racing in her heart returned again, the way Ruddy made her laugh and made her feel at ease. She realised she had never felt this strong about anyone else. She realised that she was falling in love.
As they stare into each other's eyes both feeling the same way but like with some couples their love was...
... Forbidden.
TBC
Sorry not the best chapter in the world and I might revise it! I'm shattered split shifts never the best...
Just to let you know I be putting the rating up soon.
