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Synopsis: soul just took a jump into maka's brain closet (soul room) and what he found. Well if you read you'd know. So now he's off to report to stein and our intrepid blonde heroin is left to her own devices for a bit. Read on oh beloved viewers.

Ch 12 A hazard to myself. Mine.

Party's treatment was less than what one would consider gentle, but it couldn't be helped "she's lost it. I swear this is soooo not cool." Soul sighed as they left the twins to tend to maka "why did she try to take your head off? That's not like her at all. I mean a chop sure but swinging punches is something she just doesn't do when she's not utterly pissed"

"She didn't seem concerned with me but she was terrified. I think I just happened to be in the way but no harm no foul. So why are we reporting to stein." The reaper closed the door to gallows manner and they began the trek!

"I think I found what pinky was picking up on" the shark tooth grin told of his findings being crucial.

Inside maka was caught between Liz attempting to comfort her and pattys urge to give her shock therapy. She didn't speak just simply kicked patty off the bed when she got to close.

"Why won't you leave me alone?" She thought to herself knowing the voice would respond.

"Why are you still breathing? Why are you still alive? Whys you're heart still beating" the voice was sarcastic as it scoffed at her questions "that's a stupid question. Just give in already! You're just as stubborn as papa is"

She tried not to but she let the tears fall like rain as images of spirits philandering invaded her thoughts. The feeling of abandonment left with her as her mother disappeared and betrayal as she was forced into a situation brought on her by his lecherous hands. "I am not like papa!"

"Oh come off it! You're such an arrogant little slut. You're no better than he is. You're the reason he and mama got a divorce! You drove them apart! And now you're feeling self righteous!" It seemed thoroughly displeased.

"Stop it" on the inside she was screaming but to Liz's eyes she seemed to cry silently her eyes lost to nowhere as the tears pooled on her face.

Later in the infirmary.

"Hmmm?" Stein answered a knock on the door "it's you" he twisted the bolt a few times.

"We know something" kid walked in soul trailing behind him.

"And just what do you know" he eyed soul questioningly.

"Well" soul cleared his throat "maka's doesn't have black blood. But I know what crona found."

"Hmmm?" Steins eyes lit up as he adjusted his glasses "go on"

"It's creepy when you do that doc" he deadpanned "we are not dissecting maka..."

"Well that's no fun" he chuckled "but seriously what have we found. Spirit has been particularly annoying with inquiring her whereabouts."

"Good because he's the reason we have a problem" soul lowered his eyes as if the point should be obvious.

" how so?" The mad scientist quirked his brow at the analogy.

"She's part weapon... It's not a pretty thing either" kid interjected recalling what soul had told him on the walk there "it's apparently a conflicting of genetics"

"I was worried about that. But it does somewhat explain ragnaroks senses picking it up." He sighed as he sat down "if her weapon genetics are acting up as a Meister it would be similar to having a symbiotic weapon. But the question as to why. It waited so long to emerge is troublesome"

Back at the manor

She was alone now Liz finally deciding enough was enough and dragging patty from the room. Her tears were no solace as the voice that plagued her continued it's angry rant.

"Oh quit whining!" It sneered at her "you make us look weak when you do that"

"Just leave me alone!" It was no defense but all she could muster.

"You first you little bimbo! You're the one who's in the way! If it weren't for you everyone would have been able to be happy!" It was outraged and ceaseless enough to the point that she felt the need to walk into the bathroom "you ruin everything!"

"Just leave me alone" she thought defeated as she opened the drawer to the medicine cabinet and reached for the first aid box.

"I'd leave you in a ditch if I could you little tramp!" It raged on.

She ignored its ranting and slowly slid out of her shirt after placing the box on the sink. She looked down at herself remembering souls accidental peek as she let the tears hit the floor.

"Look at you you're destroying my body and you just keep acting like you own the world. You're such a waste!" It continued its rant.

Slowly she opened the box finding a pair of short bladed sewing scissors "I have to be a good girl" she mumbled quietly as she opened the blades watching with a sense of loss.

"What are you doing?" The voice spat "you stupid twat don't you dare!"

Suddenly she felt the voice silence and she aimed the blades at her chest inching closer slowly "I have to stop making them hurt... I have to end it" the blade touched with skin and crimson met porcelain "soul... I wish you could have been" her hands were shaky causing the small blade to grind against bone "mine.." The pain was too much causing her to collapse to the floor the crimson flowing from the wound that held her desired silence.

"Maka?" She could hear Liz's voice as she vainly tried to force her hands to push further but failed the pain simply too much "sweetie are you okay?" She opened the door that much her ears gathered "oh my god maka!" And the blackness clouded anything else.