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Chapter 11
Emily's Pov.
"I still love you."
Emily's eyes widened as she heard the whisper from the blonde, what was it with this day? Why was everything suddenly trying to knock her off the tracks by throwing things at her that she wouldn't expect? Even as Naomi curled into her side, Emily couldn't relax, everything that she had learned in the past hour continued to haunt her mind, the voices kept on tormenting and driving her away from sleep, so she just led there with the blondes head on her chest and held her tightly, feeling a strong need to protect the girl even in her sleep. She looked down at her and lightly tucked a loose strand of blonde hair behind her ear, Naomi didn't look peaceful but she didn't look broken anymore. Emily watched the blonde intently, even as a teenager, Naomi had always been beautiful but as a young adult she was breathtaking, the longer hair style suited her and made her look mature, the rock chic look made her look rebellious and sexy, but really she was still a sweet and gentle person.
How anyone could hurt Naomi the way that motherfucker had was beyond her. Emily tried not to think about it but it was near damn impossible not to, the thought of Naomi going through it, the thought of him doing that to her…It made Emily feel sick to the stomach. It hurt so much knowing that Naomi suffered and there was nothing anyone could have done to prevent it, and then it occurred to her that she didn't even know when it happened. She knew it happened three years ago and that was why Naomi moved away, but when? And why wasn't Emily with her when it happened? Tears spilled from her eyes, if she had been with Naomi, it could have all been different. Naomi wouldn't have suffered, she wouldn't have moved and Emily wouldn't have broken up with her and Naomi wouldn't hate the skin she was in, all in all Naomi was the one who was always suffering and Emily didn't do anything but make her suffer more. Emily hated it, she hated every damn part of this fucking situation, she never intended on hurting Naomi, she only done what she thought was best for them, no…she only done what she thought was best for Naomi, but if she had known then it would have been different! She wouldn't have ended it with Naomi; she would have stayed and protected her through everything but she didn't because she believed that she was only making Naomi worse. She should have known, Naomi should have told her.
Emily wasn't angry in the slightest, she was upset but not because Naomi didn't tell her, she couldn't be that selfish and in a way she understood Naomi's actions. She'd just have to make up for lost time and be there for her, it was all that she could think of, but at the end of the day she would do anything to make it right.
Emily was glad that her thoughts had distracted her from sleep when Naomi suddenly began to twitch violently, she moaned and her head thrashed from side to side, her breathing became fast and ragged and her eyes were squeezed shut like she was in agony, her fists clenched and unclenched and Emily felt her heart break at the sound of the girls terrified whimper. Emily quickly shifted from her position to take hold of Naomi's shoulders and shake her lightly, no response, she continued to twitch and whimper. Emily shook her harder.
"Naomi…Naomi! " It still didn't snap her out of her state. "Naomi babes wake up!" Emily finally shouted and Naomi's eyes snapped open, they just stared at each other as Naomi pants for breath until her bottom lip quivered and she shot up to bury herself against Emily's chest and bursts into tears. Emily was shocked but instantly wrapped her arms protectively around the blonde and stroked her hair until she calmed down, it didn't take long and Emily led back down on the bed, still cradling Naomi in her arms.
"Shh, it's okay, it was just a dream, it's okay. " Emily whispered against Naomi's hair and then kissed it, causing Naomi to shudder slightly and then wipe her tear streaked face. She was still breathing fast and heavily and her body trembled but she seemed to relax a little with Emily whispering soothing words.
"Thanks." Naomi whispered and Emily kissed her hair again.
"Its okay, do you want to talk about it?" Naomi shivered but didn't reply, Emily was expecting it, she bit back a sigh.
"I had flashbacks…of that night." Naomi began and shivered again, surprising Emily who squeezed her arm gently, indicating for her to continue.
"I've had it before, the endless road, the orange glow from the streetlights, the car…him, the pain, and the fear." Her voice cracked and Emily felt her swallow, obviously trying to hold back the tears. "But then it changed and…it was me and you instead and…I was doing to you what he was doing to me…I was hurting you and you were begging me to stop in the exact same way that I begged him. I was hurting you and you were crying and…and…" She burst into tears again but this time they were more brutal sobs, Emily held her tightly and continued to stroke her hair, she was shocked and unsure of what to say until she heard Naomi apologising over and over again.
"Hey…Naomi its okay, I'm here baby, it's okay. I'm here with you, we're alright." Emily cupped her face and brushed her thumbs across Naomi's soft cheeks, Emily had never seen her in this state before, she looked so broken and afraid. All she could do was hold and promise her that everything was going to be okay and Emily knew that Naomi needed that reassurance when she leaned in and pressed her lips softly to Emily's who without question kissed her back instantly. It wasn't a deep, passionate kiss, they were just small repeated pecks to show and reassure Naomi that she was safe and protected and cared for. It also allowed her to believe that she hadn't hurt Emily; they were both safe, together.
Naomi pressed her lips to Emily's again, it was a smaller kiss but it lasted longer than the others, and Emily couldn't stop herself from deepening the kiss, she couldn't stop herself from sliding her tongue across Naomi's and becoming overwhelmed by her sweet taste. She couldn't stop herself from pushing Naomi softly down onto the bed and allowing the blonde to cling to her desperately, she couldn't stop herself when she knew she should because she in fact has a girlfriend, Freddie's sister, Caron. They didn't love each other, they both knew that because they admitted it, they were just having sex and enjoying each others company in something more than a friendship. Freddie didn't even know, they both knew he'd go crazy about it but it was easy to sneak around when Freddie was always with Effy and couldn't give a shit about what his sister was doing. Emily hadn't been in a proper relationship since Naomi, she had fucked a few girls that she met in clubs, they were just one night stands, she'd only occasionally allow it to last a bit longer if the girl was a good fuck, but it was hard to try and be with someone when her heart belonged to Naomi. But that's what made it so easy being with Caron because she knew that Emily was in love with Naomi and she knew that Emily would be with her if she ever got the chance to be. Caron didn't want Emily to love her and she wouldn't be upset if things ended between them because Caron just enjoyed the comfort and obviously the sex. They pretty much were just friends with benefits.
But that wasn't why Emily knew she should stop, it wasn't because she was "cheating" on Caron, it was because Naomi didn't know and Emily didn't want to lie to her ever. But she couldn't stop it; she had been waiting for so long to be with Naomi and to feel their lips together. It was how they were supposed to be, together.
Emily pulled away and stepped of the bed, pulling Naomi with her so that she could remove her clothes and Naomi did the same to her. Emily stopped and looked at the blonde beauty in front of her wearing only a black and white silk bra and matching girl boxers, fuck she looked good. Emily leaned forward and pressed her lips back to Naomi's and lowered her down onto the bed again, their skin brushed together and caused them both to shudder and goose bumps to rise. Emily grinded her hips into Naomi's, causing her to moan into the kiss, she brushed her hand against the soft stomach beneath her and then sliding it down into Naomi's boxers but before she continued, she whispered in Naomi's ear.
"I love you too."
They made love repeatedly to each other for what seemed like the whole night, they both moaned and screamed in ecstasy, not caring for the other people in the house because nothing mattered apart from the fact that they were finally together. They curled into each other and fell asleep; Naomi wasn't disturbed by the nightmares again.
Morning was going to come soon, and there was still a lot they needed to talk about, but until then, both girls were able to sleep easily because they knew they'd be waking up in each others arms after the years of not having each other.
This was just a filler chapter really, got bloody writers block again but I have a place to start from now so I guess this chapters helped in some way. I hope it's alright. So what do you think of Emily's girlfriend? Lol I know there is no way that Caron would like girls but hey! It's my story so I can make it happen, and I know its harsh Emily getting with Naomi but it'll be okay :) R&R please.
