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I enter Addison's room to see a rather beefy orderly picking Addison up to place her in her wheelchair. I believe the guys name is Ben. Addison smiles when she sees me, or maybe she smiles at being picked up by beefy Ben.
"Hey,' she smiles
What that smile does to me.
"Hey," I answer back
Ben deposits Addison into her chair and places a blanket over her lap.
"Where are we going," I ask
"Just for a spin. I'm getting a little stir crazy."
"Do you mind if I take you?"
Addison smiles again and ducks her head shyly, "Sure."
Ben grins, pats me on the shoulder and leaves the room. That's peculiar. I shake my head and move behind Addison and push her out of the hospital.
"You're certainly cheerful this morning. You've gone through so much and yet...you don't let it get you down."
"Yeah well if I let everything get me down I'd never get up. I mean sometimes things suck so bad that you just want to stay in bed with the covers pulled over your head."
That's certainly a lot of honesty. Addison reaches up her hand and I place my hand into hers and briefly squeeze before letting go.
"Your sister called today," I say pushing her down a sunlit hall
"Did she bitch at you?"
Melody, Addison's older sister by two years hates me, with a passion. If hating someone were a sport she'd win the gold medal. She has never considered me good enough for Addison.
"When does she not bitch at me is the question."
Addison laughs to this.
"Did she say when her flight arrives?"
Melody and Ryan hadn't been able to get away till now. Melody was picking Ryan up and they were flying up here.
"Nine."
"Tonight or tomorrow morning?"
"Tonight. I offered to pick them up but she said something I'd rather not repeat."
Addison laughed to this, "I can just imagine what she said. Can you take me outside?"
My heart goes out to Addison. Even though she has often needed me to protect her, especially at night, she is such a strong person. I can't imagine what having to depend on other people is doing to her.
"Sure," I answer, "It's even sunny outside today."
"Lucky us."
She actually seems rather quiet today. Even though she has been laughing and is smiling there is something that she's not saying. She used to get this way when there was something she wanted to tell me but didn't know how to bring it up, or even if she should bring it up. I wheel her outside and stop her next to a bench, putting on the breaks. I straddle the bench so that I can face her directly.
"What is it Adi?"
She looks down at her hands for a moment and then looks up at me, "You love me right?"
"Of course I do," I say taking her hands into my own
"You want us to be together and everything right?"
Where are these questions coming from?
"Till the end of time," I answer
Addison sighs and I see her chewing on the inside of her cheek. When she's in these moods I know, from experience, that I can't rush her
"Then why haven't you once kissed me?"
To say I wasn't expecting that question would be an understatement.
"I mean I know we've been through a lot," Addison starts, "But even before all of this," she waves a hand at her legs, "And we were together you didn't kiss me. I just thought that you weren't ready or you were still angry with me or..."
My god what did I do to this woman? She had always been so secure in my love for her, my desire for her. I know I haven't been the most affectionate guy since she came back but I didn't think I was that bad. One of Addison's philosophies in life is that 'actions speak louder than words.' Leaning forward I take her face into both hands and kiss her with all of the love that I feel for her in my soul.
When I pull away Addison is looking at me with wide eyes. Her face is flushed and I watch as her tongue darts out to lick her lips. That move always drove me wild and I go in for another kiss and this time I feel her kissing me back with an equal passion. I'd forgotten what kissing this woman was like. I remember back when we were first together how we'd spend the whole afternoon just kissing. Nothing else because that was enough for us. We were often teased that we were connected at the lips.
"Now this is a sight that I have missed."
I pull away from Addison to see the Chief standing next to us. I see Addison blushing from the corner of my eye. So cute.
"What was that," I ask
Weber grins, "I've been rooting for you guys for a long while now, to be back together. It's just nice to see it is all."
I roll my eyes to this, "Voyeurism is illegal you know."
"You're in public Shepperd."
So we are.
"Don't you have patients?"
As if triggered by those words my beeper goes off. Damned I hate those things sometimes. The Chief's beeper goes off a few seconds after mine does. Ha.
"Let me just take Adi up to her room and..."
"Derek when your beeper goes off you go," Addison smiles, "I think I can get myself to my room."
"Are you sure?"
She gives me a look to this and I hold up my hands as I get to my feet.
"Okay."
I bend down and kiss her tenderly.
"I love you. I want to be with you. Remember that."
She smiles at me, "Oh I will."
Addison
When Derek walks away with the Chief I am left alone with my thoughts. Oh how I have missed kissing that man. Missed it with a passion. If the way he kissed me was any indication, he missed it with a passion as well. I always did love kissing that man.
I'm glad that we are finally getting somewhere. I know intimacy isn't everything in a relationship but Derek didn't even to seem to want to kiss me. I got scared that he was staying with me out of obligation.
To know that he isn't means more to me than I ever realized. I was pretty secure in the knowledge that he loved me but did he still desire me was something that had been going through my brain. Especially since the incident. Did he still desire the new me? Apparently so.
I'm happy that my siblings are coming to see me. Mom and dad aren't coming out yet. They are both incredibly strong people but seeing me like this in the hospital may be too much for them. We've managed to keep them at bay until I get out of the hospital. I'm told that can happen in as little as three weeks. Amazing considering I was shot in the head not two weeks ago.
Like everyone keeps telling me, I am a medical miracle. I'm really close to Melody and Ryan. Ryan most specifically which is odd because we are nearly ten years apart in age. I never really understood why Melody hates Derek so much. To her he is beneath me.
Oh how I'd like him to be beneath me.
My mind has gone straight to the gutter as of late. Shaking my head to try and clear my thoughts I look around. Derek had gone to the outdoor eating area but closer to a small fountain with benches around it. It really is very peaceful around here. Considering it's a hospital and all. I really should go inside before they send a search party out for me. Unlocking my breaks I turn to go into the hospital and run, not literally of course, into Meredith.
"Doctor Shepperd," she says upon seeing me
I smile at her cause lets face it, I have nothing to be jealous of anymore, "Doctor Grey."
"What are you doing out here?"
I shrug to this, "Getting some fresh air."
"Do the other's know you are out here," she asked pointing a thumb back toward the hospital
I can't help but grin at this, "Yeah. Derek actually brought me out here but he was called away. I was just heading back in. What are you doing out here?"
"Trying to enjoy a rare sunny day in Seattle."
I laughed to this, "I think a lot of people have the same idea."
We both looked around to see it was crowded out here.
"Jeez, isn't anybody actually doing work today?"
"Apparently not."
She smiles at me, "Can I walk with you."
"Sure."
I move forward and she follows and we journey in silence.
"I uh...wanted to tell you that I know...what happened to you when you were a child," Meredith starts haltingly
"Which one told you," I ask not upset by the fact that she knew
"All of them actually."
Interesting.
"It's okay that you know."
"It is?"
I shrug again, "Yes. I mean it's not exactly a secret, well I guess it is considering my own therapist doesn't even know about my tortured past. Well anyway, it's fine."
I look up at her to see a tentative smile cross her face, "Okay. I just wanted you to know that I know."
"Dually noted."
"So I hear that your siblings are coming today?"
I shake my head at this, "This place really is like high school."
Meredith laughs at this, "It is sometimes isn't it?"
"To answer your inquiry my brother and sister are coming to see me. I'm going to have to put a muzzle on my sister though I think."
"Why?"
We're moving slowly through the halls and I can't help but notice the weird looks that the two us are being given. Do these people really expect for us to go all kung fu on each other or something? I bring myself back with Meredith's question.
"She hates Derek."
"Really," Meredith asks with more interest
I nod my head at this, "Always has. She was positively furious when she found out that he left me without knowing what really happened."
"I think I would have been upset as well."
I smile at this as we continue on in silence for a few minutes.
"Are you going to do anything for Izzie's birthday," I ask of Meredith
She looks at me as if she were surprised by the question.
"I think I was just going to take her out for lunch or something. Izzie isn't really into birthday's too much. Why?"
Why?
"Well I wanted to do something for her. I mean I don't know where I would be without her friendship."
Meredith looks at me with more interest, "What did you have in mind?"
"I don't know, maybe a surprise party of some kind. I mean if that's okay with you?"
I glance over to see Meredith smiling at me, "It's perfectly fine. I've come to accept the friendship that you guys have, heck, that all of you have. We are allowed to have other friends."
I smile at this.
"I could use your help," I offer stopping off to the side of the hall out of the way of traffic
"I would love to help."
"I have to try to get myself sprung for this little event but I don't think that's going to be too much of a problem."
"You have Doctor Webber rapped around your finger."
I laugh at this, "No I don't, but I have his wife on my side so with that you can accomplish anything."
Meredith laughs at this, "I'm sure you can."
"I should probably go," I state, "I'm supposed to be starting physical therapy for today soon. I don't want them to have to come and look for me."
"Okay. I'll come to you later and we can talk?"
She says this as a question and I have to wonder if the two of us can ever be friends. We're at least being civil toward one another, which is good. Maybe planning this party together will bring us closer together.
"Yeah," I say, "If you can come around five that would be the best time. There is a lull in constant visitors around that time."
She smiles at me and nods her head. Meredith starts to walk down the hall but turns back.
"Addison?"
I turn my head to her and raise my eyebrows in question.
"You really are an amazing person," she says with one last smile and continues on
With a smile of my own I continue on to my room marveling out how much my life has improved. Things are definitely looking up.
I know nothing much happened here but I had to give ya something. Cause I'm, unfortunately, going to be away from my beloved compy for the next couple of months and thusly have to put this story and all others on hiatus. At least until I return. But return I shall and you will learn an even deeper, darker secret from Addison's past. :)
