green girl
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Chapter 12,
Beast Boy decided that he would read a little bit of Raven's diary while he waited for Twyla and Cyborg to return. But Beast Boy wanted something that was a little more recent, so he found the last entry and laid the book gently on his bed. He turned into the 'turn back bird' and began to read the book.
A stranger is in the tower. I get this odd feeling when I am around her. It is difficult to explain. Almost like I know that I can trust her, but I can't trust her because I don't know her. Being around her is like this constant tug and pull. I find her knowledge of the Titans disturbing. She told Starfire that she should threaten to send video of Robin crying to the H.I.V.E., Slade, and Batman. I understand the H.I.V.E. because our battles against each other are in the papers. But Slade wasn't in the papers, and it seems as if the people here forgot/never knew that Robin worked with Batman. He has a new one now so I suppose that is why they forgot this detail as quickly as they did. Anyways, thanks to this Twyla character, we are going to have this silly 'never-have-I-ever' game tomorrow and we are going to drink stuff from the blender and I have never even touched a blender before. How am I suppose to be calm and collective tomorrow when I will have the panic of 'what if they ask me to make a smoothie?' haunting me. Granted I suppose that I could easily look at them with that same glare that I give Garfield sometimes. Oh, Azar, he made me mad the other day. I still don't know why he intruded into my personal space. And to think, I was simply gone to make a glass of herbal tea and by the time I got back... (sigh) I find it odd that Garfield can make me so crazy. I can imagine how much he will bully me for not knowing how to use a blender... Sorry, not 'bully' I mean 'tease'... Not that it matters much, because to me it all feels the same. Hey, I wonder if anyone will hear me if I try to figure out the blender tonight. I think the only person I have to worry about is Garfield, but it's 12:10 so even if Garfield hears me, it wouldn't be enough to wake him up.
Beast Boy thought about the passage he had just read. 12:10 is about 20 minutes before he got out of bed and went to the kitchen. Raven felt safe enough to try the blender and then I walk in.
Hey wait, I had this diary before she had the chance to write this down. How is that possible?
Beast Boy wondered and then words stared to appear on the page. It was scary, and mystifying at the same time. It looked like someone was writing it down with an invisible pen that simply left behind ink. Beast Boy was almost afraid to read the words but he couldn't resist the pull of the secret information.
Twyla, Twyla, Twyla. I am still learning how to understand her as a person. She is actually very sweet and she seems to like Cyborg. I have the sneaky feeling that those two will start dating and that bothers me. I wish I understand why I am protective over her, I mean she is not my family. But then again she is someone's daughter and I would hate to see her and Cyborg... well... that's not the point. I mean after all Cyborg is dating Bumble Bee, so I don't have to worry about him dating Twyla. But she doesn't know that Cyborg is in a relationship, so technically he can still hurt her. I shouldn't be like this. My mind is like a personal minefield nowadays and I can't explain it. I'll be thinking about Twyla and then I'll start thinking about Garfield. Actually that kinda makes sense because they are family. Oh, and poor Garfield. He is just as confused, about Twyla and her presence, as I am. I listened to him speak, and all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around him and be his rock. Of course I didn't do that because that's not something that he would expect me to do. And if he doesn't expect me to do it then I can't just do it out of thin air. I guess it's thoughts like that, that make the monks proud of the work they wasted on me. Oh, Azar, I don't need to think about them right now. Let's see, um... Twyla went to the video store with Cyborg... Don't worry, don't worry, don't worry... She's not my daughter, she's not my cousin, she's not my family so don't worry... Anyways, she is actually planning a little movie night. And that sounds fun. I can probably find a comfortable spot on the couch, maybe even sit next to Garfield. He makes the best faces when he expresses his emotion, and that's fun to watch. Not to mention the fact that... after that game of never-have-I-ever... is it 'never have I ever' or 'never-have-I-ever'...? Anyways, we kinda attacked each other, which lead to wrestling and I got really close to him. He was SOOOOO warm, and it was so comforting. I never felt that relaxed and safe, and I nearly fell asleep. Now I keep replaying that memory in my mind, thinking of that warmth that was like a top-rate spa. Of course, it's not like I want to cuddle with Garfield while we watch movies tonight... Oh, Azar, that isn't what I want right? It is? It isn't? It is? It isn't?... Oh, grrr... Now I have more to meditate on... whatever, it's not like it matters what I want anyways... I should bring a complicated spell book and read that during the movie so that I won't trouble my mind with idiotic problems of comforting warmth and unnecessary protection... Who knew that the Logan clan would cause so many problems in my mind. But then again, this warmth thing with Garfield is most likely nothing. I've never been that psychically close to someone, so that explains my reaction to that... as for Twyla... well... I bet I will hardly think of her when she leaves. (sigh) I wish that... I wish...
The letters stopped writing and Beast Boy had a feeling that Raven was done writing for the night. After all, it seemed like she was getting a bit emotional, and her powers were stronger when she was emotional. Beast Boy thought about that moment were they were all tangled up. Raven really did look peaceful and relaxed at that moment. Beast Boy really liked having her in his arms, almost like a women her size was the perfect fit for him. He remembered her head against him and the feeling that he just wanted to pull it closer. He wondered what he would do if they were thrown together in that situation again. He imagined kissing Raven's forehead, which would make her smile. He imagined her laughing a little and all he wanted to do was rub his nose against hers. Beast Boy shook his head and returned back to human form. He needed to stop thoughts like this before he got into trouble.
