Chapter 12
It wasn't easy pretending Yukio thought. He was doing this, and the cookies worked. It wasn't that the almost obsessive love had disappeared, it had just changed its nature, somw of it anyway. He didn't feel like proclaiming his unnatural love to everyone, nor did he want to mark Rin like his. It felt almost normal. Yukio bit his lips wondering what to do. Naya wanted to save him, she seemed determined. She had helped him getting Rin back alive. Could she do anything to make him trust her more than that? She had to be some kind of demon, but so were Rin, and he didn't contain an inch of evil. Yukio shook his head refocusing his attention to his brothers sleeping form.
Rin was sleeping. It was nothing had happened to them at all. Even though it had all had changed since the little showdown at the vatican. Proving Rin to be a powerful ally, made people seem to be even more alert. He was held to some tight rules, they both were now that people truly understood the depth of Rins powers. Yukio didn't care. Rin was alive and under Yukios care, where he needed to be. Yukio licked his lips as he watched his brothers sleeping form. As soon as they had been left alone, Rin had tried to kiss him. He had wanted to let Rin. Not out of uncontrollable lust, but a lingering feeling, that doing so would help his brother relax, help them both. Some distant part of him even wanted to stop eating Nayas cookies. He couldn't. For Rins sake he needed to be strong enough to withstand his selfish love.
"Yuu... Yukio?" Rin murmured half asleep. Yukio pulled back his hand, but Rin caught it and placed a gentle kiss on his knuckles.
"Yes?" Yukio said forcing himself to sound calm.
"Will you lie down and hold me?" Rin turned around and his t-shirt exposed smooth skin at his hip at the movement. Yukio pulled down Rins shirt suppressing a telling shiver at the feeling and did as his brother had asked. It wasn't more than what he had done, way before these crazy months. As he held his brothers warm body against his own, Yukio felt the already too familiar stirrings in his groin. He grunted painfully as Rin, as if to tease him more pushed his butt up against Yukio.
He felt a rush of panic. She had given him thirty cookies less than two weeks ago telling him never to eat more than two a day, but being with Rin again proved to be more than a two cookie problem. He had eaten four and now he had none, and his problems was literally growing for each second he held his brother tightly.
"I was awake while being in that thing." Rin whispered into the darkness, revealing the vulnerability, when his words trembled.
"I thought this was it, and I would die not knowing if you were mad at me, and say sorry." Rin turned around, he kissed Yukios throat feeling the life pulsate beneath the thin layer of skin.
"I wasn't ever angry with you. Only afraid." Yukio answered squeezing his brother a little too much, but Rin let him do it.
"Why won't you touch me then?" Rin asked, his voice pitching in a seductive high sound.
"I'm touching you right now." Yukio whispered back. Rin moved back a sparkling green gaze locked on cloudy blue.
"Not like before." Rin tried hiding his hurt, but Yukio knew. The hurt shining through Rins eyes revealed every thought the raven teen ever had. He leaned forward and Yukio turned his head, resulting in a awkward kiss being placed on his chin.
"Please, we need to stop these actions." Yukio pleaded. Why didn't he have just one more cookie to help him through this? Why?
"But you love me." Rin pleaded. Yukio nodded feverishly.
"Like a brother." the words still somehow felt like a lie, the memory of being buried inside hos brother thoroughly soaking his thoughts. It hadn't been that long ago he had broken every norm, confessing those very feelings and being accepted for having them.
"Not just a brother." Rin murmured. Yukio let go of Rin.
"We can't let anyone know how it was, Shura found out. It's too dangerous right now." Shura knew, it wasn't a lie, and the surveillance had increased, but still it felt like excuses. Excuses not to feel. Rin groaned.
"I am disappointed. But you'll come around. You have too. I know love like this doesn't just leave, and I'm willing to wait, when it is for you." he placed a hurried kiss on his stunned brothers lips before lying back down, tugging his brothers arms around him with a soft sigh.
