(A/N: Here's chapter twelve. Enjoy!)
Flowers of Despair
It's been two years since I got the news that Tsuskio-chan has been 'demoned away'. I have gotten a little better… Just enough to take my lazy, drunken ass back to work. A year ago, a woman who goes by the name of Suzaki just moved in Harazami Village. I haven't actually seen her in person since I've been staying in Okinawa Village, nor do I actually care to see her. But my Onii-chan seems fond of her.
Nowadays all Onii-chan does is talk about her nonstop. He tells me all about her after she joined his little mischief group of friends. He does nothing, but talk about her. Of course, he talks about other stuff and his other friends. But that woman seems to be the subject of most things. Onii-chan has become infatuated with this 'Suzaki' woman.
I have conflicted feelings about this. For one… I'm happy that Onii-chan has found someone he loves and cherishes. But on the other hand, I wish…Tsuskio-chan was here, too. Why does Onii-chan get to freely love of person, and I don't? It's just…not fair. It's so unfair.
Onii-chan gets to have everything, and I am left with nothing, but the scraps. The one thing I wanted most in the world…is taken away from me an instant. It's not fair! I wish that Onii-chan can truly understand the pain that I feel. He's always been so carefree. He doesn't even have a worry in the world. That's to be expected. He's the next head of the family…while I'm down in the bottom.
I shook my head out these terrible thoughts. I should be happy for my Onii-chan, right? Right…? Onii-chan wanted to talk to me again later that day. That fateful day changed everything for me.
Onii-chan came over in my hut, and we talked. Onii-chan has been playing games with his friends. He seems like he had a lot of fun. He's laughing more than usual. However, Onii-chan eyes looked sad now. He thought he had just hurt Suzaki's feelings earlier today. She wanted to give him a flower necklace she had just made, but he rejected her kindly. Not as much as Suzaki herself, but the flowers itself. Suzaki put on a cheerful face, but as she as left them… Onii-chan said he saw a few stray tears in her eyes. He came to me asking me for advice since I'm the only male he talks to. The rest of his circles of friends are all girls.
As I was giving him advice, and encouraging… I can't stop thinking about Tsuskio-chan. I could feel little jealousy in my heart because Onii-chan has someone so close to him. I want Tsuskio-chan back. I want to hold her. I want her to rub my head gently and affectionately like she always does. I want to kiss her. I want to tell her 'I love you' over and over again. I just want my beloved Tsuskio-chan back! Tsuskio-chan…! Wherever you are… Please come back to me! I love you, and I miss you! Come back to me, my Tsuskio-chan!
"I feel bad," Kagome said. "Naraku really wants Tsuskio back. For all we know, she could be dead, and he wouldn't even know it. Hey!" She turned to the others. "Did we meet anyone on our journey that goes by the name Tsuskio?" They all shook their heads 'no.' She sighed. "Oh well…" She turned the page.
(A/N: The end of chapter twelve. Please read and review)
