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Chapter 11

Sasuke sat on the docks where he learned Katon: Goukakyuu no Jutsu.

"What do you want?" Sasuke asked, sensing Itachi's chakra.

"I want to talk to you."

"Then talk." Itachi ignored the comment and sat down on the docks next to Sasuke.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"Come on Sasuke, I'm your brother, please tell me what's wrong."

"Why do you care? You never have before."

"That's not true; you just don't let me care because you're always pushing me away, just like you are now."

"I did something really bad." Sasuke whispered. He paused for awhile but Itachi kept his protest to himself. Sasuke would tell his problem at his own pace.

"I…I went after Sakura." Itachi's eyes narrowed but he didn't say anything as his brother continued, "I slept with her with no intention of being in a relationship with her. I seduced her and then just took her virginity. She told me she loved me and I just broke her heart. When we talked the next day, I told her I didn't love her and just kept on saying horrible things until she finally left. I've never had a problem telling a girl I didn't love her, so why is now different? When I left her after we had sex, I looked back at her and I got this feeling and I don't know what it is."

"Sasuke, you're an idiot."

"…!"

"What you did was horrible and you'll be lucky if Sakura ever forgives you. The feeling you felt was love and it's about time you realize you're in love with her because you have been for years."

"I have not been in love with Sakura for years."

"Yes you have, that's why you did all the womanizing, to try to deny the fact that you loved her. It only caused you to feel empty inside and that's why you slept with more girls. Go to Sakura and explain yourself to her. Tell her you love her too because you know you do."

Sasuke didn't say anything for a minute. "Thanks Itachi," He said standing up. Itachi smiled at this.

'


"Hey Sakura, want to go to dinner and a movie this weekend?" Hideaki asked.

"No thanks," Sakura responded.

"Oh, ok." He walked away disappointed. Sakura felt bad but it just wasn't fair to go out with someone when she wasn't over Sasuke. She'd only end up hurting Hideaki and that wouldn't be fair to him. She looked behind her and saw the church. She opened the door and walked in before kneeling down before the crucified Jesus. She put her hands together and closed her eyes.

'Father in heaven, I need your guidance now more than ever. Please help me; I don't know what to do. I know I should forget about Sasuke-kun and move on but I don't know if I have the strength to. Please give me your guidance and help me to make the right choice.'

"Sakura?"

The pink haired girl's eyes flew open at the sound of her name and turned around to see Sasuke standing there.

"Wh-what are you doing here? I thought you'd never step a foot into a church unless you were forced to." Sakura said trying to make a joke. Sasuke's face remained stoic. "I need to talk to you."

"I think you've said all that's need to be said." Sakura said coldly.

"Sakura—"

"No, I don't want to talk to you! Isn't it enough you've already broken my heart? Are you already here for a second round?"

"Sakura…"

She turned away from him, not wanting to see the sadness in his eyes. 'It's nothing but an act, don't fall for it.'

"I have to go," Sakura said. She calmly walked past the Uchiha but inside was another matter. Her heart was pounding so loudly she was sure he could hear it. She stiffened when he grabbed her wrist.

"Sakura, please."

Her resolved wavered as she heard him say that. He never said please unless it was really important.

"Leave me alone," She whispered and yanked her wrist away. She quickly ran out of the church, tears threatening to fall. Sasuke watched her as she ran away.

'Damn it, damn it, damn it!'

He couldn't stay here, he felt as if God was looking down on him for his sins. Even though he knew that wasn't true, he couldn't help but feel that way.


Sakura ran into the forest, having no destination in mind, she just knew she had to get out of there.

'If I had stayed there a second longer, I would have broken down and listened to him. I don't want to listen to his lies! That's all they'd ever be, lies!'

She ran further and further into the forest. Not seeing the tree root in her path, she tripped over in and fell to the ground.

"Ow…"

She lay there, not having the strength to get back up again.

'I'm so pathetic. I should have stayed away from him; I knew he'd cause me nothing but pain but I refused to listen, too caught up in the pleasure he gave me. Now look where I am, sprawled on the forest floor like some idiot. God, could this get any worse?'

"Sakura?"

'


Sasuke was surprised to find Sakura sprawled on the forest floor. Usually she was so graceful; the last thing he expected her to do was a face plant on ground. He moved forward to help her but she quickly got up. She turned to face him, her cheeks bright red.

"I tripped," She muttered.

"I can tell."

"Well, I'll be going now."

She turned around but before she could take one step, he spoke, "Sakura, please, just hear me out."

"No. I'm done talking to you."

"Sa-"

"No! I don't want to hear your lies! Just leave me alone!"

He took a step towards her and she quickly took one back.

"Why do you have to do this? Do you get some sick enjoyment out of seeing me suffer?! Why can't you just leave me alone and stop torturing me?!"

Birds flew into the sky in fright at Sakura's screaming, but Sasuke remained silent, staring at her with onyx orbs.

'This is my entire fault. Look what I've done to her. I've turned her into this… this suffering person. Maybe I should let her go. No! I can't leave her alone until I tell her, until I tell her why I did what I did. If she doesn't want anything to do with me after that, then I'll let her go, even though it would break my heart.'

"I did this to you." Sasuke whispered. Sakura stared at him, confused, as he continued, "I caused you all this pain. I'm the reason why you're suffering; I'm sorry, so sorry."

Sakura stared at him, not knowing what to say. It didn't matter, even if she knew what she wanted to say, she wouldn't have been able to. The shock was too great.

'Is this really Sasuke-kun? The last time he was like this he was drunk and high. If this is an act, he's an extraordinary actor.'

She turned away, knowing if she continued to look at him she'd give in and listen to his lies.

'Anything that comes out of his mouth is only a lie… right?'

Sakura felt doubt beginning to fill her. She wanted to listen to what Sasuke had to say to her, but she didn't want to be hurt again.

'The first time nearly killed me. I can't go through that kind of pain again; I have to walk away from him. No matter how much it hurts.'

Sasuke stared at her, wanting her to say something, anything. He didn't care if she yelled at him again, just as long as she acknowledged him.

'Please don't walk away from me.'

To his utter disappointment the jade eyed girl did just that. With each step she took Sakura wanted to take one step back. She wanted to keep on walking back until she was in his arms. Being in them was the best feeling in the world and Sakura wanted to experience that again.

'No! I have to be strong, no matter how much it hurts. I have to do what's best for me and what's best for me is to walk away from him. I have to walk away so he won't cause me anymore pain.'

She continued walking away, her heart breaking further and further with each step. Sasuke watched Sakura walk away, the pain unimaginable. He wanted to go after her but his body refused to move.

'Move, damn it, move!'

Sasuke felt himself panic more and more as she got further and further away.

'Come on, move!'

His body obeyed him and finally moved. He quickly ran after her and grabbed her wrist. She turned to face him, shock written all over her face.

"Sasuke-kun, what are you doing?"

She gasped as she realized what she called him and this slip up didn't go unnoticed by him either.

'How could I be so stupid to call him that?'

'She called me Sasuke-kun, maybe there's still hope.'

"Sakura, I've never asked anyone this before but please, I'm begging you, hear me out. Please."

Sakura stared at him with wide eyes not knowing what to say.

'What should I do? Should I listen to him or walk away? Will it matter if I hear him out? What he's done is unforgivable, isn't it?'

The two stared at each other until Sakura looked away. "I'm sorry," She whispered before pulling out of his grasp. Sasuke watched as she walked away from him, afraid that if he let her go, she'd be forever out of his reach.

'No, I can't let that happen! I refuse to let that happen!'

Sasuke quickly grabbed her wrist and spun her around. Before she could react, he grabbed her shoulders and his lips came crashing down on hers.


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