Chapter Twelve
"Love is just love, it can never be explained."
Eric stared at me for a moment, his eyes flashed in a brief sense of anger before deflating and dipping his head.
Godric stared at me then smiled "You two will make a great couple" He said happily, before turning to observe a slight disruption in the party.
After Godric saved Sookie from Bills former maker, another unknown man entered and stood in the middle of the room.
"Attention please, I have a message from Steve Newlin" Someone shouted loudly. I was beside Godric when he turned to look at this man. "May you all burn in hell!" He shouted again, equally loudly, and then hit a button.
It all happened quickly. I stared at the bomb strapped to his chest, then at his finger pushing the button. Then I felt hands on my waist pulling me against something hard and then I felt the floor beneath my back.
"Are you alright?" Godric asked his voice very close to my ear. He had protected me.
I nodded, sitting up while holding my head, once he had stood he held out a hand. "Stay close, the threat may still be here" He said calmly.
I stayed by his side, his arm completely around my waist and his other resting on my shoulder, he hugged me to his side. I felt odd, like I was offering him comfort instead.
Eventually, Eric turned up. "Are you okay?' he asked frantically, his hands on my shoulders ripping me from Godric.
"Yes" I said, looking at him as well, making sure he was okay. "Godric protected me"
Eric glanced at Godric, giving him a nod as well.
We eventually made our way to the hotel, Godric became silent as we showed him our room, which he was staying in since there was no more rooms at the hotel.
Eric had gone, to get food and drinks, and I sat on the bed staring at Godric. "Why are you depressed?" I asked carefully.
He glanced up from his spot on the couch. "How do you know?"
"I know the look of someone who's depressed" I whispered "I looked at the same face that you have for half my life."
"Why?" He asked.
"My father died when I was 12. My mum fell into depression and I was left to look after my one year old sister. I look at you now and see what she looked like all those years ago. Then when I was 18 my sister died in a car accident. My mother once again became depressed and it consumed her, she killed herself a year after and that's when I fell into it."
"You're depressed?" He asked, staring at the floor.
"I was. I'm better now"
"How'd you get better?"
I frowned, thinking back. How did I get better? "I realised I could make a new start" I said carefully "That there was something out there for me to achieve"
"What if you've been alive for so long that there isn't possibly anything you could hope to achieve or experience since you know you've achieved and experienced all you can" He said looking up at me for the first time.
"There is always something new to discover" I replied.
He was staring at me carefully when Eric came in, slightly confused with the tension in the room, but placed the food and drinks on the bed carefully.
...
Both vampires went to a meeting that consisted of Godric losing his title. Once that was over, I went to rest in our rooms while Godric and Eric went to 'talk'.
It was almost morning when the door opened and Eric filled the space, red tears falling down his face. "Help me, please" He begged quickly before grabbing my hand and pulling me out of the room.
To say I was confused would be correct. I was pulled up the stairs and out onto the roof in the matter of seconds. "What's going on?" I asked stupidly, watching Sookie talking to Godric in the centre.
The sun only moments away from rising... and then it clicked.
"What are you still doing up here!" I screamed, pushing Eric towards the stairs. "Godric! The sun!"
I whirled around to face him, staring at his peaceful face. "I know" He said simply.
"Oh... you want to meet the sun?" I asked simply, my voice oddly calm.
Godric nodded, turning around to face the city. "I wish to leave"
Eric beside me made some form of hurting sound before his hand gripped mine. "Please Eden" He whispered.
I turned to him. "Go downstairs, it'll be okay, I'll bring him down" I assured Eric, who then left after shooting his only family what could be one last look.
I sent Sookie down too, knowing he and I, who had both been through this same situation in common, needed some alone time. Once we were alone, I stood in front of him, arms crossed. "Godric" I stated. "This won't help anyone"
"Yes it will. It will help me"
I sighed and my thumb went over my wrist. "I tried killing myself" I whispered, pulling a wrist out and showing him "I used to have giant scars here but drinking Eric's blood got rid of them."
"Why'd you try?"
"The same reason you want to leave. Because I was sick of doing things for everyone else. I was sick of being alone and being so selfless that I hadn't had a single day to myself in years"
Godric's eyes shone. He knew how that felt.
"I was also heartbroken"
He looked down.
"I was heart broken over the death of my family, but also because no one was there for me" I explained. "Is that how you feel Godric?"
"I don't know how I feel" He whispered.
"You feel like everything in side you could be hole, if only you had that one thing that you search for"
His eyes brightened in understanding.
"You want to find love don't you?"
"I told you, there is nothing more for me to experience or achieve" He stated angrily. "And besides, even if I wanted love, I don't have any emotions to live it."
"Godric, don't do this... you can have emotions. You have emotions!" I said sadly, staring up at the face of the 2000 year old vampire. I was angry and beginning to loose hope. Why was so many vampires stubborn! "Besides, if you don't have emotions, then what hope does that leave me and Eric?"
"Eric is another story. Besides, why are you doing this? What do you get out of this if I live?" He asked.
"Nothing, maybe I'll get a new friend. But you're wasting your life. Think of all the good you could do... all the people you could save"
"There's no point if I'm unhappy and unloved. I haven't been loved in centuries. No, Eden, it's time I say goodbye"
I stared at him for a long time before I sighed angrily and threw myself at him; it's lucky he has such good reflexes and managed to catch me. I smiled in his arms and placed my lips against his and kissed him deeply. "There is love out there for you. It may not be me. It may not be anyone in this state. But there is love out there for you and for everyone. You just need to wait"
He stared at me, one arm leaving my waist to touch his lips. "How can you be so sure?"
"Because if I can have emotions for Eric. Then someone definitely can have emotions for you"
We both frowned and glanced to the sky, the sun rising properly. His arms that were around me began to smoke. "Please Godric, don't leave... not yet!" I begged.
He smiled "Alright. Perhaps a little bit longer can't hurt"
Then we were inside again.
Eric and Sookie, who had been sitting on the steps, stood and stared at us. Eric's face was covered in blood tears.
I smiled at him, taking a step down and picking up Sookie's hand. "We'll let you two talk" I offered going to leave the hallway but Eric's hand stopped me.
"Thank you" He whispered.
I looked back, looking from Eric to Godric. I smiled at Eric "Don't mention it" Before I smiled at Godric, who gave me a nod in approval. Then we left them to talk.
I was in bed when they both came back inside the room, and instead of Godric going to sleep on the couch, he climbed into the bed on the opposite side to Eric. Eric's arm's circled my waist and pulled me closer while Godric smiled at my sleepy gaze, before turning to face the wall.
I felt extremely safe, in Eric's arms.
...
I had finished packing my bags and was waiting for Eric to say goodbye to Godric so we could leave for the airport when they both approached.
"He wants to say goodbye" Eric stated.
I smiled at Godric "What will you do?"
"I'm not sure yet, I'm not sheriff anymore, so I can go anywhere I want"
"Maybe you should come to Shrevenport, or Bon Temps. I'd be happy to let you stay with me" I offered, thinking back to my lonely house. I've always wanted a roommate "We'd just have to make a light tight hole or something"
His face broke into a smile "You'd let me stay with you?"
"Of course" I said happily "As long as you don't keep me away at night for too long, I have to work during the day"
He laughed and slipped an arm through mine "I guess Goodbyes are pointless then." Then he stopped for a moment "Eric, are you okay with this?"
Eric had been watching us for a while before he smiled "Of course I am. My two favourite people will now be under one roof"
I blushed and Godric smiled, moving to stand on Eric's other side so I was in the middle. Eric put his arm through my free one and smiled. "Home" He said to me, leaning down to give me a small kiss on my lips. "Is with you now"
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