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7/27/09
Okay the wedding is OVER and now I just have to spend some time with Family and my brother-in-law's family too. But I got a lot of computer time now! So I'm really happy and I've been secretly working on this chapter late at night so I hope that it's good for all of the hard work that I had put into it! lol Thanks for READING and please REVIEW!!! I know I know, I say REVIEW a lot and I know that it does get annoying but please! I'm on my hands and knees on dirty floors begging you guys to tell me what you think of my story!
8/28/09 lol Review!!!
Hey everyone sorry for not updaitng in a while!!! I've had some major writer's block on this chapter and I just now finally got over it!!! So this story is NOT on hold any more!!! I'm happy! But High School for me is starting back up this Monday 8/31/2009. God this year is going to be hell! But I'm going to try to get more chapters to this out probably/hopefully every other week or so. Remember I only have weekends and lunch time to work on this and some of my other stories to work on. :) ENJOY!
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Chapter Eleven:
Feelings She Doesn't Understand
Waking up to a bright light was never something that I enjoyed. But waking up to seven bright smiling faces… well that's a joyfulness that I would like to keep… wait a minute what is Mina doing here?
"Mina? What are you doing here?" I questioned. Her smile kind of faltered into a sad frown after I had asked my question.
"I came here to see Amy but ended up finding you coming out of surgery. Why didn't you tell us Rena?" she asked sitting next to me on the bed. My parents, Sammy and Dr. Anderson had left to give us some space so we could talk.
"I didn't want to be a burden. I didn't want people to know and then feel sorry for me and obligated to me. I've seen it happen to someone who I really cared about and I just didn't want to go through what he went through…" I really didn't want to talk about this. I really just wanted to go back to sleep because my side is really starting to bug me. But I was sitting up and facing Mina, Darien and Amy explaining the situation to Mina.
"Wait… who's 'He'?" Mina questioned. "Aw, Rena is it someone that you like?" she whispered to me in a soft voice but it wasn't soft enough for Darien and Amy had overheard and Amy started laughing at my disgusted face since she knew who I was talking about. I'm not too sure about Darien... Mina's big head is in the way.
"No! 'He' was my brother. And 'He' died from what I now have." I stated.
"What is that you have?" Mina asked after a long pause.
"No one told her?" I asked looking at Amy and Darien.
"No… I guess they all thought she knew since she was here when you woke up." Amy guessed and Darien just nodded his head.
"Okay, I'm feeling left out. What is going on?" Mina asked.
"Mina… I don't know how to explain it to you…" Amy tried and I just blurted out "I just got my appendix taken out."
"Serena, your brother died from appendicitis? Is that even possible?" the last question was directed towards Amy and she just shrugged.
"Well, yeah people can and have died from appendicitis. It just depends on the situation for if it's serious or not. But for Seyia…" Amy trailed off and I picked up from where she left off in a soft voice, "It was too late."
"Aw Rena I'm so sorry!" Mina said and then tried to hug me but I quickly pushed her hands away from me before they could encase me into a hug.
"This is why I never told anyone about him! I don't want this pity shit and I don't want people to feel sorry for my own sorrow!" I exclaimed in a loud voice that shocked everyone and even me. I never knew that I could go off on someone like that and I felt terrible for yelling at Mina, but I just didn't want to hear the stupid pity shit of 'Oh I'm so sorry about your loss,' and stuff like that. I still don't' want anyone to know the truth as to why I got the surgery today.
"So are you still leaving to go to France?" Mina questioned trying to change the subject and that I was grateful for.
"Yes," I said simply.
"But you just got surgery, are you sure that you will be able to go in your condition?" Mina kept questioning and I started to get a little bit annoyed.
"My original flight had gotten canceled and then rescheduled for Tuesday. Mina, don't worry about me. I'm sure that I'll be 100% better by Monday and even better on Tuesday. So can you please stop worrying about this? And can you please not tell the girls about what had happened today?" I asked Mina with my sad little puppy dog eyes when I saw the look of her about protest on her not telling the girls about me.
After a few minutes of silence and puppy dog eye begging, Mina finally caved in and said, "Okay fine, I won't tell them! Your secret is safe with me just as long as you get me a Serenity Moon bag, then we're all good."
I couldn't resist and I just had to laugh and then lunge in for a hug quickly regretting the quick movements. Mina hugged me back and when that was done; everything just seemed quiet for a long while.
"I'm getting hungry; Mina would you like to join me in the cafeteria for some dinner?" Amy questioned as she slowly got up out of the chair that she was sitting in and started to stretch. I was staring at Darien and he was staring back at me. It was like as if we were having a staring contest and that was when Amy had seen us staring at each other and asked Mina to join her.
"Yeah, I am getting hungry. Do you guys want anything?" Mina asked Darien and I. She seemed kind of lost in her own thoughts and we both said, "Nope".
The two were out of the room in less than five seconds and that's when an eerie silence had filled the room.
"I'm not too sure about this," I said in a soft voice quickly coming out of my trance.
"Not sure about what?" Darien asked with his voice full of confusion and concern.
"Leaving you guys for a few months," I stated simply.
"Rena, this is only for you to get better. It's not like you're moving away forever." Darien stated and then got up from where he was sitting and sat next to me on the hospital bed that I was currently lying in.
"Yeah, you're right. And I will be calling and emailing you guys' every day. The girls will probably want to know what the city is like and I will be calling you just to talk to you and tell you a million times how I'm missing you, Andrew and the girls," I said with a small sad smile on my lips. Honestly, I was already missing Darien more than anything at the moment just talking about France. I really need to learn more on these feelings that I have towards him and what I'm going to do about them. Am I going to just ignore them and pretend that they aren't even there? Or am I going to use them to my advantage and really take control on them? Who knows but at the moment right now, I'm not listening to what my brain is telling me… but what my heart is.
"Just make sure the times are suitable for both of us," he said brushing some of my hair out of my face. His touch felt so nice and warm! I smiled softly at his touch and I felt my eyes starting to close. 'Darien really is someone that I could just be myself around,' I thought as I forced my eyes to open just to look back into his enchanting midnight blue eyes. God I am going to miss seeing those eyes when I leave!
"Okay, but you're going to have to make a list of appropriate times for me to call since I can't call whenever I want any more," I said with a pouty voice that had him chuckle at me.
"You're going to get better, Serena. And when you get back we'll go out for ice cream," Darien said and at that moment I wish that I had just gotten back from France just so I can get that ice cream.
"Are you serious? Now I want some ice cream!" and we both just started laughing.
"Yes, I'm serious but I think right now you should get some sleep. I think I overheard your parents talking with Dr. Anderson about taking you home tomorrow," Darien said and I just slowly nodded my head.
Before he got up, Darien kissed my forehead… but for some reason… I don't know why I was thinking about this but… for some reason I wished that he had kissed me on the lips. I swear I think I'm going crazy! It must be the drugs that they gave me to knock me out before surgery.
He was at the door when I sudden realized that I wanted to see him before I left on Tuesday.
"Darien wait," I said and he quickly stopped at the entrance of the door and slowly turned around to face me with a curious face. "What are you doing Monday?" I asked.
"Nothing that I know of… why?" he responded.
"You don't have any classes?" I questioned just double checking to make sure that he was free.
"Nope, Mondays and weekends are my days off. Why do you ask, Rena?"
"Well since I'm leaving tomorrow and today is Saturday… do you wanna spend Monday with me before I leave on Tuesday?" I asked finally getting the stuttering nervous words out of my mouth.
Darien stood in the door way and I sat on the bed for a few minutes, just staring at each other until he finally answered my question.
"I'd love to," and then he walked out the door slowly, leaving me all alone in the room that I was staying in at the hospital.
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